You're Worth Everything

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No, no, I didn't sleep much last night. The video has now gone viral, apparently, on both TikTok and YouTube, and it's everywhere. Literally everywhere.

I've been texting with my team for hours. I don't even know what to do at this point. Yeah, I know, I know it's not a sex video.

We didn't make a sex tape, thank you for the reminder, but. .. I may as well have, for the response that it's getting.

All we did was kiss, and it was the stupidest thing. I mean, we were on vacation, we were down that little road looking for the market, and we stopped, and we didn't think anybody was around, but apparently somebody recognized me and had their cell phone out, because cameras are everywhere now, and now the whole world knows that I'm in a relationship with a woman. No, I'm not getting into the details of my sexuality.

It's irrelevant at this point. It is. They don't care.

They don't care if I'm bisexual, lesbian, pansexual, they don't care. They care that I'm in a relationship with a woman, and that, with my audience, is. ..

As my PR team said this morning, the kiss of death, which I wanted to fire the whole lot of them, but they're not wrong. You don't understand this, I don't think. At least, I don't know how you could when I don't.

Look, my reputation, my brand, is highly conservative. Not by choice, but the field that I have expertise in, that I built, first the blog, and then the podcast, and then just everything spiraled from there. I mean, I give financial advice on the markets and the housing bubble, and that crowd doesn't want to hear that I live with a woman.

I know, I know, it's not the 50s, I know, but in some mentalities, it is. In that area of the world, that industry is not always the kindest. I worked a long time to have the expertise that I have to create the business and the brand that I have, and keeping my personal life out of it has always been part of it because nobody needed to know that.

Who I am as a human didn't have anything to do with what I bring to the table in a professional capacity. It didn't when I was an actual advisor, when I moved into the analytics side, it didn't have anything to do with it. And then when I started doing all this, it just seemed easier to keep the two separate.

And now, well, here we are. No, oh God, no, babe. I'm not ashamed.

I'm absolutely not ashamed. When have I ever given the impression that I am? No, no.

It's just not their business. And I allowed the marketing side of things, the business side of things to take over. Because that's what I thought I had to do.

I've been out personally with my family for years. Like I said, professionally, nobody needed to know. And it's not being ashamed.

Part of it, especially when things started to take off, part of it was just protecting you, protecting us. I don't want this media circus. I don't want all of the attention.

Since that video came out, we haven't had a moment's peace. And I don't think that there's any way around that. So I don't really know what to do.

My team is saying just keep your head down, it'll blow over because, I mean, hi, it's the 2020s. It's not, you know, like you said, the 1950s. So this isn't career ending, although it feels like it.

And I'm so pissed that it even could be. Do you know how stupid that is? Do you know how absolutely, utterly fucking ridiculous it is that my career, what I bring to the table as a professional is even in question because of who I choose to love?

Because of who I'm in love with, because of how I live my life outside of my career? It's fucked up. I don't blame you for being mad.

I don't blame you for being upset. In fact, I am kind of surprised you've stuck it out this long, and I wouldn't blame you for not wanting to stick it out longer. This is a nightmare, and it's not going to get any better, at least I don't see how it can until it blows over, which, who fucking knows how long that's going to be.

Yeah, I know. I know. I love you too.

More than anything, which is why this sucks even more because you're being hurt by this. My professional decisions are hurting you and affecting you. My inability to be authentic as a person is having an impact on the person that I love most in the world.

That's not okay. You know what? That's not okay.

It's not. No. Hold on, I'm getting something.

I'm getting an idea. It's time I took control. I'm not going to sit here and let you be affected by this.

It's one thing if they want to come after me, if they want to throw barbs at me and make me feel like garbage, whatever, I can handle that. But they're not going to come after you. No.

No. They're not going to take our relationship and turn it into something other than the amazing, beautiful thing that it is. No.

They don't get to do this. They don't get to take the most important thing in my life, our relationship, the most important person in my life, and make it tainted. It's time I control the narrative on this.

I should have done this from the start. I should not have listened when I was told to keep this shit to myself. And that was the words that were used.

Keep this shit to yourself. Good old PR. No, I have a different team now.

You know that friend of mine that you met a couple months ago at that party that, remember you were so bored, we started taking bets on which of the really stuffy bankers would get drunk first and do something either embarrassing or pass out, one of the two. Remember that? Yeah.

Well, remember the friend that was like interviewing everybody? Yeah, her. She has a podcast, and it's a very well-known, very popular podcast.

And she digs into some pretty heavy topics. She's asked me several times to be on her podcast, to be a guest, to talk about whatever I wanted to. But I never saw the reason, because what I typically talk about isn't in line with what she does.

So I didn't see how it could bring value to her. But you know what? I think she's the perfect person to talk to about this.

I think this is the perfect way to control the narrative. Why didn't I think of this before? By not saying anything, I've made it sound like it's this big sensational secret that people have to find out.

It's something that I want to hide. I don't want to hide you. I don't want to hide this.

I don't want to hide us. And yeah, I mean, I've worked long and hard to build my brand, my business to what it is now, but at what cost? That's not right.

No, no, it's time. It's time to be a guest on that podcast. And it's time to tell my story my way.

Because if I control it, if I tell it, there's nothing to dig for. And I get to tell the world that I'm in love with this amazing woman. And fuck them.

If they don't like it, fuck them. I'll figure something else out. I was working before I was doing this, and I'll be working after if it all goes away.

And you know what? I don't think it will. I might find a different audience, but I don't think it will.

Yes, I'm serious. I know I'm a workaholic, and I know that I put everything into this, but there are more important things. Specifically, there are more important people, person, and it's you.

If I had to choose between that, the brand, the business, everything, and being with you, no contest, I'd walk away today, right now. Yes, I am absolutely serious. I've been so stressed and so upset over the last few days about this stupid video, but you know what?

I think it needed to happen. Why do I care? Other than it's a gross invasion of privacy and it's brought so much stress to you, which I cannot tell you how sorry I am for that, but let me fix it.

Let me make it right the way I should have all along. I should have been in front of this. I shouldn't have let myself think that who I am as a person doesn't matter.

My brand is me, personal, professional. It's all intertwined, so I'm going to fix it. My friend is going to be very happy to have something like this on her podcast.

This is the shit she lives for, and her audience is amazing with pretty much everything she does, so yeah, yes, yes, there's no question. You're too important to do anything else, and I am sorry that I've made you feel otherwise. That was so wrong and so not okay.

I'm going to do better. I'm going to do it right. I mean, we may have to figure out a few things financially, but no, I don't think so either.

No. I don't think that's going to happen, plus, I mean, that's not important. As long as we're together and we're okay with each other, the rest of it doesn't matter, so yeah, this is what needs to happen.

I think that's the first genuine smile I've seen on your face in days. I love you too, so much. I need to send that text.

I need to get this rolling. What do you mean it can wait? Ah, yeah, it has been days for that too.

What do you have in mind? What are you doing? Oh, okay, wow.

You're on your knees, okay? Oh, um, I'm not going to say no. Yes, just take them off.

I love your hands on my thighs. Are you sure you want to do it this way? We can go over there on the bed and.

.. Okay, all right. I will just stand here and let you do whatever you're going to do.

Mm-hmm. Ah. Mm-hmm.

I am excited. I'm excited to just be with you and not worry about anything else. Ah, especially when you're nuzzling me like that.

Mm-hmm. Soft little kisses over my thighs. You're going somewhere with that.

The other leg. Tease. Such a tease.

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. I'm going to put my fingers in your hair, okay? There you go.

Oh. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

You really are dragging out this teasing thing. Ah. Mm-hmm.

Oh, a nice little kiss on my pussy. And another one. And another one.

Are you going to use your tongue or are you just going to, you know, peck it? Oh, there's the tongue. Okay.

Oh, wow. Mm-hmm. Oh, wow.

Uh-huh. Oh. Yeah, I like your tongue.

Mm. It feels so good. Mm-hmm.

Ah. Mm-hmm. Ah.

Ah, yes. I'm going to spread my legs a little bit wider. There.

Oh, God, yes. Ah. You look so happy with your face buried between my legs.

Ah. Although not quite as happy as that tongue is making me right now. Wow.

Ah. I don't deserve you. Oh, God, I don't.

Ah. Mm. Mm-hmm.

I do? Really? You think so? Ah.

Shh, no more talking. Lick my pussy. Mm.

There's a lot of tension from the last couple of days and I think you figured out the perfect way to get rid of it. Mm. Ah.

Yeah, rubbing my clit on your tongue is a really good start. Ah. Ah.

Mm. Oh, fuck. I keep thinking about the first time you did this to me.

Mm-hmm. Ah. Ah, it was in the spare bedroom at my aunt's house.

After our first Christmas dinner. There. Ah.

No, I know that wasn't the first time you went down on me, but it was the first time you got on your knees like this. Ah, fuck, yes, keep that tongue going. Oh, yes, just slide it over my clit.

Fuck, fuck. Yeah, we went to get our coats off the bed. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

And I'm pretty sure my dad was scraping the snow off the car. So we had a few minutes. And yeah.

Ah.