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I've had a crush on this girl for a while, everyone has told me that she. .. doesn't like me.
That I should stop hanging out with her, that I'm wasting my time. But to be honest, even though she's brutally honest with me, she's a better friend than most. And even if we just stay as friends, I wouldn't mind that, at all.
We're gonna go see the fireworks together. Nobody else wanted to go with me, except her. Just her and I.
And I know she'll be complaining and. .. She'll be talking crap.
But I like her company, more than anyone else's. I hope she's there on time. I don't wanna be there alone.
Hey, you were here before me. That's a first. Oh, so you don't trust me to pick a nice.
.. place for us to sit. So you decided to come early.
So you could pick out a nice spot for us, huh? The faith that you have in me is remarkable. Or should I say the little faith that you have in me.
Did you invite anyone else? Oh, come on. What do you mean this is lame? Then why are you here? Oh, you didn't wanna leave me alone.
Cause you're not a bad friend, how nice of you. You sit your butt down. In the perfect spot that you picked out for us, huh? Did you really not invite anyone? They said they didn't wanna come.
You were the only one that said yes. I'm actually quite happy that you were the only one that said so. You know, for some reason a lot of people say that you're mean to me.
And they don't like to be around you because of that. Ow! Why did you punch me? See, that's what I'm talking about.
Not that your punches hurt or anything like that. Your little soft punches on my arm. They're not gonna do anything to me.
You're just gonna tire yourself out. And then your hands are gonna hurt. Mm-hmm.
I can be your punching bag. So you didn't wanna be here at all. You just feel sad for me.
Is it really that inconvenient for you to be here with me? What were you gonna do anyway? Huh? Oh.
With somebody a lot more fun than I am. You're not having fun with me. Why don't you leave? I.
.. I'm perfectly comfortable seeing the fireworks all by myself. It's not the first time I've done it.
And I'm pretty sure it won't be the last. Why do I like to see them? I don't know.
Maybe it's because I've. .. Maybe it.
.. Signifies. ..
That I'm still here. That I'm still. ..
Smiling. After everything. It doesn't signify the end of the year for me.
There is no beginning. Or end. I will try to.
.. Enjoy my life. With the people that I love.
For as long as I can. I don't know. I'm just babbling.
Just rambling on. I don't know. I'm not philosophical or anything.
In that moment where I was vulnerable, You were looking up at me. Fascinated. But then your facial expression.
.. Changed. You started making fun of me.
What's so funny? No, I'm not. It's not even about that.
Listen, I just wanted to spend some time with you. You are. ..
Part of that. You. ..
You're somebody that I hold dear to me. I don't care that you're mean. Stop laughing.
Can you stop it already? It's already starting. As the night went on.
We got over that little tiff. And we stared at the night sky. I would sometimes catch you.
.. Looking at me. Sometimes you would catch me.
.. Looking at you. I accidentally touched your hand and you.
.. It kinda took you a second to pull away. You seemed nervous tonight.
But I wasn't quite sure why. Then you saw me smiling. Why are you making fun of me for smiling? You only smile when you make fun of me.
You're too cool. For all of this. Oh sorry, I forgot how cool you were.
Why are you even here with me if you're so cool? You know what? I wanna know why.
No, I'm not gonna forget it. I wanna know why. Why do you hang out with me? If you don't like me, if you don't like spending time with me.
Then what is it about me. .. That makes you wanna be around me? Hm? I've.
.. I've wanted. ..
I've. .. I've had enough.
It's okay to do it every now and then. But enough is enough. I wanted to spend some time with you.
I wanted it to be special. Even if other people were here, I wanted to. ..
I wanted to make it about you and me. To have a moment with you. Why? I'm asking the questions here now.
Why? If you don't like me. If this is a waste of time.
Then why are you here? You say you don't even like me. Then tell me.
I saw your upper lip quiver. You were holding back tears. For a split second I.
.. That I would never see you again. But instead you.
.. You punched me again in my arm. And told me.
.. That you like me way too much. And that you're scared to get hurt.
And you told me that if you kept being mean you thought I would leave. But I never left. And it made you so confused.
As to why I kept coming back. You said it made you fall. ..
Harder. .. And harder.
.. For me. That I was taking it back.
Are you. .. You're messing with me right? If this is some sort of sick joke.
Then I am truly. .. And utterly done with you.
The reason why. .. I kept coming back.
You dummy. Is because I. ..
I'm in love with you. Since the first day that we met. And even though people told me not to be your friend.
Maybe deep down inside I knew what you were trying to do. And I'm here to tell you. That you have no reason to fear.
I want to be the one that heals you. That kisses you to make you feel better. Come here.
Everything quickly escalated after that. You always refused to go to my house. And now here you are.
Blushing. I've never seen you plush. I hold both your hands by the wrist.
And I stare at you. And you look at me. In a way that I've never seen you look at anyone before.
Something new. That I like a lot. I've been waiting for so long to kiss you.
Do you have anything mean to say now? You were trying to speak but words wouldn't come out. You're the shy one now.
Don't be shy. I told you I would never hurt you. And I never will.
I'll be gentle. I'll be as gentle as you want me to be. Your lips.
God, your lips. How could I have gone so long without kissing these lips? We spent so much time.
.. Being idiots. Instead of being here.
Feeling the warmth. Of your love. Why were we so stupid? It wasn't just you.
It was me as well. No, you were not the only one. I should have just told you.
But it doesn't matter. We have a lot to make up for. You look away.
You tell me not to look at you like that. I'll look at you however I want. Because now you're mine.
I didn't hear you. Are you mine? You're mine.
And you are beautiful. I'm so angry at myself for not telling you sooner. I was more and more in awe.
Of your beauty. Of your perfection. I love every single part of you.
I wasn't having it.