Your First Kiss

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Well that was good. No really I liked it. No I don't usually go for that kind of movie.

Oh you know that. It's just not my thing you know. There's nothing wrong with it.

It's just not the way I usually go. I did. I'm not just telling you that.

I don't know. I mean I probably wouldn't go you know put it on by myself but if it were proposed to me I'd probably go ahead and see it again. Oh man you're just reading all sorts of things in here.

No really I enjoyed it. I did. It was a good pick.

Really this whole what do you want to call it I mean is this a Valentine's Day party? I mean this is just the two of us you know I kind of always think of a party as having more people a pity party. That works.

I like that. I like that. You know we don't have to really mope about it.

So we're both single this year. So what? Okay.

Okay. Okay. I wasn't trying to rub it in.

I know. I know. I just I don't really know why.

It's just it's just always worked out that way. I seem to always be dating someone at Valentine's Day. It's not like I planned it but this year it worked out really well.

Can I tell you something? All right well don't don't take this the wrong way or read too much into it or anything but honestly this is out of all the Valentine's Days I can think of I think this is my favorite. No I'm serious.

Please you know I'm not like that. When have I ever told you stuff just to make you feel good? Okay apart from that.

And apart from that okay. Those are bad examples because they I don't know contradict my point. Well you know what's been so nice about this one is that it's been so low pressure.

You and I our our friendship is is rock solid. It's we've been friends forever. We know each other so well.

We're just so relaxed with each other. I feel like I can just be myself. There's no pressure.

There's no expectation here. It's made it a lot more fun. I haven't felt like I have to perform to a certain standard and no I'm not saying that you're not worth my best.

That's not at all what I'm saying. I'm just saying that you know me like the real me on levels and in ways that other people don't even people I've dated. And so I feel like I can be more comfortable in my own skin.

And that's nice. Well I'm glad you feel that way too. Yeah absolutely whatever you want to say.

But first off before you start I'm I really just want you to know and believe me that I'm not saying this about it being the best Valentine's Day I can remember just to make you feel good. And I'm certainly not doing it you know to try to make you feel bad about having been single on Valentine's Day in the past. I don't know if you have you ever been dating someone on Valentine's Day.

I don't I don't know if you've ever really had a serious boyfriend have you. Look I don't want you to feel bad about that. It just means the right guy hasn't come along that doesn't it doesn't reflect on you.

It doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you or that nobody wants you it's just when the right guy comes along you'll be ready for that kind of a commitment. That's OK. You just take your time find the right one.

Yeah yeah yeah go ahead. Yeah but why do you feel pathetic about it. No it's what I just said there's there's nothing wrong with being single on Valentine's Day really Valentine's Day it's just a day right.

There's as far as I'm concerned part of why Valentine's Day hasn't been something I really enjoyed all that much in the past is because of all this pressure that I don't feel like needs to be there. No because I'd rather show my significant other love and affection all year long. And I don't think that that just this one day of the year needs to be such a an end all be all to how I declare my feelings of affection or what my partner thinks I think of them.

I think we build it up in our minds and make it something it doesn't need to be. And when we do that we put a lot of pressure on ourselves we take a lot of the fun out of it. So I don't think you should feel pathetic at all.

I really don't. Yeah yeah yeah sorry I didn't mean to interrupt. Okay hang on hang on stop stop stop.

There's a lot to unpack right there. Well okay a couple things. First off you haven't kissed anyone.

No you just said you're you've been waiting to share your first kiss with the person that you've been in love with. So you haven't kissed anyone. No I didn't know that.

Well I don't know I didn't I didn't expect necessarily that you would tell me you'd kiss somebody. But that's not all that you're in love with someone. How have you not told me this.

No we're not going to go on. Because there is this is this is a big revelation here. I didn't know you were in love.

You want to tell me who it's with. You don't have to. I don't I'm not trying to put pressure on you.

But I just I'm well I guess for starters because whoever that guy is lucky guy and also what an idiot. I mean well I guess let me take a step back from that. Does he know you're in love with him.

Okay well maybe he's not quite such an idiot then. Yeah you can tell me whatever you want you know that. But hey look at me no judgment here.

I I'm I love you I care about you I want you to be happy. I'm not here to judge you and I hear to make you feel bad. Tell me what you want to tell me.

And you don't need to call yourself a coward. Okay but but the fact that you haven't told me this. It doesn't mean that you're a coward.

You've had something that you've wanted to keep to yourself and I'm sure you've got good reasons for that. Yeah okay I'll shut up. Wait me.

No I did not know that. How long have you how long have you been in love with me for. Really no that's I had no idea that you'd been in love with me for years.

Oh my gosh. No no no no no you don't need to feel bad and don't be scared this is not bad I just. It's just a lot to handle a lot to take in that.

My best friend has been in love with me since we were kids. Why didn't you ever say anything. No I actually totally get that I.

Can I come clean about something. All right you you never said anything because you didn't want to ruin our friendship that's. I haven't said anything all this time either.

But I've been in love with you. For as long as I can remember. Well that's the thing.

Your way of of handling it was to not date anyone. My way of handling it was to date other people. To distract me.

Because what you and I have a special this friendship is very special I was so scared of losing it I was so scared of making it weird. And so I never said anything. Well I guess takeaway number one is that if you're a coward so am I.

All right then don't call yourself a coward. Look.