"You were my Hero before I even knew it." 💘x

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Baby? Baby, wake up. It's me.

Shh, shh, shh. It's okay, I'm safe. I'm right here.

I'm in the cabin, away from it all. God, I hate this. I'm so sorry I put you through all this.

I can barely even remember what happened to me, but you're the one having the nightmares about it. It's okay. I'm here.

With you. I'm okay. You saved me.

You did that. I'm not going anywhere. I'm alive.

I'm planning on living forever, remember? So far, so good. Come here.

Give me a big hug. I love you so much. You were already my favourite person in the world before you did your Superman act.

You went out and grabbed me and pulled me away, and you saved me. Is that the car still calling me? The driver was having a heart attack, it wasn't anyone's fault.

And if you hadn't have done what you did, I wouldn't even be alive right now. That poor driver, he would have survived his heart attack only to have found he'd have killed someone else. You're my absolute hero.

You always have been. It's okay. Do you remember when we first met? Or rather when our eyes met? Oh, that was so corny.

We just looked, just could not look away from each other. Like literally, I looked up as the door opened, and you saw me the second you opened it, and that was it, it was the corniest, most surreal experience I'd ever had. I still remember how many times I turned my face to look away, but my eyes just wouldn't.

And I could see you doing the same, but you just couldn't. And then you walked me home. I was confused when you suddenly grabbed my shoulders and moved me to the other side of you as we walked.

We did that the next time we saw each other too. And I stopped and asked, why do you keep doing that? And you said, I'll be closer to the road so if a car comes, it will get me, not you.

No one ever done that to me before. You just melted me. You were already my hero and I didn't know it.

No, that's not right baby. None of this was anyone's fault. And all of us survived.

That's pretty important to remember. I'm alive right now exactly because of you. I know you know that.

Please stop torturing yourself with ifs, buts and maybes from here, and I'm here with you, and you're here with me. And that's the way it's going to stay because that's what we do, me and you. You've breathed life into me in more ways than one.

One of my favourite memories where you totally took me by surprise. Actually there were two. When we were making out, which we've done many a time.

We were laying down and you were leaned over me. And we were in the middle of this deep, deep kiss. And I felt your hand tracing my jaw and stroking my cheek.

And you suddenly pinched my nose and breathed in, sucking all the air out of my lungs. I wasn't afraid. I just felt so right as you slowly breathed in and filled my lungs with empty in yours.

I'll never forget it. That's really, you were really, we were really one person. It blew my mind.

You pulled me to life. You pulled me to life again. The second one, you stopped to have a sip of your beer from the bottle and came back to kiss me again.

I had no idea it was still in your mouth and you held my jaw and let it go. And there were like three swallows full. I remember gulping it like, what the hell? I always hated beer, but not after that.

And then there was like this secret code. When we were out, neither of us took a sip. You were just so hot.

And you told me to focus, like really focus. I didn't realise at the time, but something in me totally shifted, like magic. Not just with you, but with everything.

Wow. God, you feel so good against my skin. Do you remember the first time you saw me naked? I was so shy and so scared that you'd hate how I looked and the magic would be broken.

You were so sweet. I'd previously breastfed my child and what should have been boobs looked more like skin and I was so embarrassed. No one had ever seen them that way before.

I know what a shock it had been for me too when feeding had stopped. Yes, they're back now. But at the time, I wanted to feel your touch so bad, but was so scared.

I don't know why, because I should have known, but I said I didn't want you to see me. Do you remember what you did? You laid me down and slowly moved one of my arms to the side and held it there and straight away covered it with the other one.

And then you did the same and slowly moved my arm away too. I was so, so shy and scared that my world was about to fall apart. And you looked at my nipples the same way you looked at my eyes when they first met.

Tears all held up in my eyes. I can feel it all over again just thinking about it. You just lifted your eyes and told me to look into them and gently wiped the tear away with your thumb.

As you lowered your eye towards them and your lips were close, you lifted your eyes again, which then had a cheeky sparkly gleam in them and a subtle shift of an eyebrow and I knew that so well. I knew you were going to make me laugh somehow. And you said, I don't know what you're worried about, these are the bits I'm after.

And I just burst out laughing. And I laughed. It was just suddenly when one nipple was being rolled with the thumb and finger and your mouth clamped over the other, sucking me in and you just relit every sexual sensation, urge, cream and a goose bump.

And I'd all lay dormant and wait for just that very moment. You brought me back. You reawakened every little spark and ignited all of me.

And all of me was yours. You were my hero. Oh my god, do you remember when we fucked in that tree? You were so scared of heights and when you found out that weekend we had to outsource, you decided that was the night we were going to go fuck in a tree.

But you forgot to tell me. God, that was funny. It wasn't at the time.

Do you remember? Out of the blue, just coming up to midnight, you told me you had a surprise for me. And the next thing I knew, you'd taken my hand, leading me out of the house and minutes later you were helping me hit the fence into the park.

You knew exactly what tree it was going to be too. I still no idea what was going on. Getting up wasn't so hard with you behind me.

That was so much fun and you kept making comments about my arse. And there was that really wide, thick and sturdy branch and you told me to make my way up to it and walked me through every step to do just that. I sat on that branch and felt so proud of myself.

And you climbed up to sit right behind me and then you kissed my neck and for a split second I was worried I might lose it before you held me. Just you being there, I felt so safe with you. And then you told me to raise my arms.

You stroked your fingers along them as I did and any fear or nerves I had just melted away. I sat still with my arms up and you slipped my top up off and over my head and dropped it on the ground and I was like, what the fuck? Shhh, you said.

And I shushed. That little shush would always send me into the space where every little touch heightened and I'd melt into something like a blink. So hypnotic.

And then I did my brow and peeled it away slowly from my body as you kissed my neck and you dropped that on the ground below. I didn't even care at that point and you told me to lean forward, to lean my fingers and fold my arms around the branch as I laid it. And then it all burst out.

I didn't realise how subtle a reassurance that linking of the fingers was at the time. It's what we do a lot. Symbolic and somewhere in my subconscious must have recognised that and it was calming.

And then the sound of an unexpected flick of a knife. I didn't even know you had one but before that sound even had a chance to register, you sliced the sides of my knickers. It was the hottest fucking scene.

Your fingers slipped inside my kind of minion and one thought rushed through my mind. Like every single outcome that could possibly happen. From the worst, like what if I fell out of the tree and broke my leg and I had to explain to paramedics where I was practically stuck under a tree with a said broken leg.

I was thinking what if they called the police. All sorts of thoughts. Right through to the best and the best was right there in that very moment of you in a tree.

Wow that was so primal. That was so natural and raw and so fucking everything. And with each slow and gentle push of your fingers I could feel my hips rising and back launching like millimetre by millimetre.

Safely and slowly. It's in perfect balance. Oh yeah, thank god.

Feeling your hands sliding palm side up between the branch and my thighs as you pressed into that tree. Like for balance while gripping my thighs and your fingers were sliding there to get inside me. Fuck.

I was so impressed. You were so slow and gentle and rhythmic yet so solidly firm. Just melted me, ironed me and took everything you wanted from me in a way that I not for one second had any other thoughts going through my mind other than what was feeling right there with you and for you.

And even though you were so slow and so gentle you were so focused on holding the same pace. It was the most beautiful moment feeling you come inside me. I'll never forget it.

And we just stayed there waving at every last pulse, every last twitch, every tiny little movement, listening to every last shaky breath. That was incredible. And you remember what you did next fucker? Helping me to sit up again making sure my shredded knickers were still under me protecting my bits.

That was so sweet. And you told me to sit still and you would climb down first. And that was the perfectly logical thing to do and I thought nothing of it until I suddenly heard you chuckling and footsteps running away.

I didn't know what the fuck was going on. I was sat still bolt upright like suddenly in that tree like on my own. Oh my god every fear I had before that suddenly came rushing back and I sat there like frozen stiff.

And I moved my head so slowly to look down at the big drop and realise my clothes had gone too. I could not wrap my head around it.