When You Confessed Your Love For Your Gangster BF [Preview] [Sweet]

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I see your face, and every single one of them, as much as I try to forget about you, I cannot. Why? What is it about you that's so different from everyone else? You decided to leave, you did not want to be involved anymore, and I don't blame you.

What happened that night still haunts me. The people that I trusted the most would do that to me, would do that to you, even though they're long gone. But there's always somebody else that wants to hurt me, and they know the thing that hurts the most would be to lose you.

I should have no weaknesses, but you are my only weakness, and in order to put an end to this, I need to be ruthless, but I cannot get you out of my head. The more I try, the more I think of you, every fiber of my being is telling me to seek you out, but I cannot put you in danger again, not that you would want to see me anyway, after all I put you through. I wouldn't blame you, if you saw me walking by, but you didn't even turn around to see me, to make sure your eyes weren't playing tricks on you.

That it is me, the man you swore to never leave, and yet I haven't seen you in months. I have no ill will towards you, and I wish for you to be happy. Without me, all I am is danger.

I want to be, what you wanted me to be, so badly, and yet deep within me, I know what I was raised to do, it's second nature to me. Once they decided that I was a liability, that they would use you to control me, that is when they messed up. I chose the path of least resistance, some might not think that, I will be going to war with every single syndicate, until there is nobody opposing me, and then, and only then, will I maybe feel comfortable reaching out to you, but I don't know if you would like the things that I have done, and must do, in order for you to be safe, and for you to be safe, I need to be away from you.

This time last year, you and I were together, I still remember that day, especially when I have my phone reminding me of every single moment we spent together, it's supposed to be beautiful, but it's just a painful reminder that I don't have you anymore, you told me you loved me, that day, we were cuddled up together, holding my arm, squeezing it, as hard as you could, almost to prove a point, my strong girl, you looked up at me, and said you felt safe, in the arms of the man that you love, wait, did you just indirectly tell me that you love me, it's a very sneaky way to profess your love for me, isn't it, oh yeah, yeah, you're, you're taking the easy way out here, why don't you look at me and tell me that you love me, you're saying the man that you love, I feel like you're taking the easy way out here, so now you're turning it on me, why haven't I said it, no, no, no, we're focused on you, so look me in the eye, who do you love, look at me and tell me, who is this man that you love, you, you loved me, I want you to say it, say it, I love you, I love you so much, I've been dying to say it, ah, what a memory, now I'm dying to see you, everyone is staring at us, as we dance to imaginary music, and no one else can hear but us, I thought I lost you forever, but I was just not looking in the right place, you were always here in my heart, in my heart, where I'll always keep you, we danced until everyone that was staring left, it didn't matter, they could have been there or not, I don't want you to leave, I don't want to leave you either, I want to stay dancing with you, even after my legs can't take it anymore, I want to keep holding on to you, don't leave, stay with me, I can feel your grip loosening, you let go of me, you told me to follow you, but I had a terrible feeling about it, you walked into traffic, then suddenly you were on the other side, waving at me, as soon as I stepped foot in the road, a car was about to hit me, and then I opened my eyes, it was all a dream, it was all a dream, you're not here anymore.