Trying To Sound Interesting While Watching A Pretty Morning Sky

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I don't really know what to say. I feel like I have everything to say, but not really much to say at all. I don't know.

I guess I just feel weirdly, I guess, silent right now. I don't know. I usually could think of anything, but right now, all I can think about is just doing this.

You know what I mean? God. I just had kind of a—I had an okay day at work, I guess.

I just—it's just that I've basically been up all night, and it's like near 7 a.m. now, and I have to get up at 12 to be at work at like—and I have to be at work at like 3. So basically I came home yesterday night at like 9, like I always do, and I stayed up pretty late editing and doing all kinds of stuff.

And now I just want to do this before I go to sleep. I thought maybe I would do like an improv or something, but I really can't even think of a story right now. So I'm just really being myself right now, I guess.

I don't know what else to say. I just try to, I don't know, make this quick, I guess. Like I said, I have to get up soon, and I don't want to do this for too long.

I know usually I could take a while and do this, but I don't want to take a while. I don't want to make this fast. But I don't like going too fast.

Oh my God. I'm just trying to get myself off. I just want to get myself off and go to sleep.

It's Friday here, and I'll be off for the next two days, so that's really good. Oh God. I'll have so much time to just relax and do whatever.

I won't have to worry about working. Oh, that's the best. It's always the best to think about that.

Oh my God. Oh. There's always like a million fantasies running through my head, you know? And when I do this, I can never just focus on one.

It's like I'm just constantly running through different scenarios all the time. Just so many different ways to be felt. So many different ways that I could be fucking other people or doing other things, like things with my mouth.

I don't know. Anything with my hands. Oh my God, just so many possibilities for things that I could be doing.

Just in my head all the time. That's why I love doing this, I think. I think because I get to get all the fantasies out.

And I get to make up new ones. Fuck. I'm just trying to think about things to say.

You know, I'm just saying things. But, yeah. Oh God.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. It's like, oh my God. The funny thing is, I write a lot of stories, but most of my fantasies really don't ever have a story.

When I think about it in my head, I just put a story behind it, mostly. I just get straight to it in my mind. Usually, but I can come up with a story pretty well, I think.

So, I guess I just like to try to do it, like to try the stories. I hope they're okay. I do my best, I really do.

I love doing my creative things. I used to not do it so often anymore, but then I started doing this. It's like all the ideas I just couldn't have are just starting to happen now.

It feels good. It feels good to know that I can write again, I guess. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Right now, the daylight is coming through the blinds of my windows right now. It's always really nice to see the sky, I think. I just think it's really pretty, I don't know.

These are dumb thoughts, but these are things I think about. It's really nice. I know I've been up for a while, but it's just nice to look at it.

I think. And I wonder things about the people that listen to these kind of things. Not even just me, like listen to others and stuff.

Like, what do they think about this kind of thing? What am I trying to say? Like, what do they think about the sky? Do they like looking at the sky? I don't know, like, what do they like? I just want to know.

Sometimes I want to know what you guys are like. I'm always wondering things. I guess that's why I'm always imagining stuff, because I'm always wondering things.

I can't help it, I guess I'm just so curious. I just want to know so much, I guess. I have a really open mind.

I like to know a lot, I guess. I don't know, I'm just basically just really rambling. I really don't know what to put, like what to put, what to say.

I'm just being honest, I guess. Is this what you do when you do this? There's still so much to learn about all this.

I have a lot to learn about a lot of things. It's like I'm an adult, but I can barely register it sometimes, you know? I'm working through it.

I'm working through it, I'm really working through it, I promise. I'm faking. Oh, fuck.

Just, yes, help. Please. Fuck, oh God.

Yeah, I really don't know what else to say. I'm just trying to come, that's all. That's all I can think about right now.

I guess I'm just trying to be interesting or whatever. Again, I guess I just said I still have just so much to learn about it. I'm going to learn so much, I hope.

Fuck. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Yeah. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh, fuck. Oh. Oh, yes.

Oh. Mm. Yeah.

Oh, yeah. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Eh.

Mm. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh, I'm coming. Oh, I'm coming.

Oh. Oh. Oh, fuck.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Shit. Oh.

Oh. Oh, my God. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Mm.