Toy Training: Session One

Transcript

Hey, I'm Faye, and it's been a while, but I've been meaning to record this because I kind of want to document my journey a bit. Normally, I just get off of a vibe on my clit, right, and I'm not that experienced with penetration play, if you will, so I'm practicing. I'm going to practice today, and I thought I would narrate my progress as I go, because some of y'all said you wanted to hear it.

So I have my trusty-dusty rabbit, it's not dusty, but it is old, I've had it for quite a few years, and right now it's the only toy I have, I'm hoping to get another dildo at some point, one that's a bit more realistic in shape, just for fun. This one is black, and I believe the total length, it's not too much, well, it's a lot for me, but the total length is about, insertable length, about four-ish inches, yeah, that's about the total insertable length, and I'm going to try it, it's a bit more thick towards the head, and then it tapers down. Okay, I'm going to sort of talk you through my process, and hopefully it'll be entertaining for you, but I'm going from kind of nothing, to get a baseline, because this is going to be a little bit of a series, so I'm going from zero, to get a baseline of how long it takes me to feel sort of ready and prepared to practice.

Alright, so, first things first, I like to focus on how I'm feeling, rather than escaping into an audio, and I'm doing these, so I can keep tabs on my body's response to that physical sensation of being touched out here, rather than the mental stimulation of an audio or a video, if that makes sense, and I'm on my bed, on my back, and my legs are open, wide, I'm holding the tip of my dildo right, right at my entrance, but I'm not trying to put it inside yet, I'm just circling my hips, just to give it some warmth, getting my body used to it, it's been quite some time since I've done this. These are still a little cold, I'm going to squeeze between my legs and tell you what happened last time. I had a friend, and we were on a call, and they talked me through fucking myself with my dildo for the first time, and it was, god, it was, it was something special.

There was a lot of, a lot of praise, and a lot of encouragement, you're so patient with me, and it gave me the confidence to keep working on it, if you will. Okay, so now the tip is more pressed against, oof, that ring of muscles that is just so, so, so tight on me. It's so sensitive, and I, I'm just gently rolling my hips while I'm still, uh, just, let me, the tip pressed.

It's just such a small movement, but it feels really, really good, and I haven't even, I haven't even really pushed it in yet, let me, uh, I'm running, let's have a dog, my slip, just trying to get some wetness going, and I'm imagining being teased that way. Okay, okay, I'm gonna see if I can just place it inside, uh, uh, just the tip, uh, just the tip, uh, what am I feeling? I'm feeling, I'm feeling a stretch, it feels a bit unfamiliar because it's been a while, and it feels, it feels different, I'm, I don't even know what sounds I'm making, to be honest, so this should be entertaining, uh, just the tip, and it just, it shoots these, these amazing shocks of pleasure for me, just the tip, I'm bucking my hips a little already, and I just, uh, uh, and again, this is just the, the barest tip of my dildo that's in right now, I haven't even properly tried to push because I need to make sure I'm very, very ready, uh, what I like about this practice is it's, it's all up to me, you know, I can just make sure that I'm not uncomfortable, and I don't have to worry about disappointing anyone, I can just practice at my own pace, you know, it's nice, it's, uh, uh, I can't, I haven't even pushed it in further, I just, I just really like this feeling, okay, all right, I'm gonna, um, okay, I'm gonna take a deep breath, and then on the exhale, I'm going to push a little in, okay, so this, this technique worked for me last time, I'm taking it very slow, I'm working with my breath, kind of like yoga, okay, so I'm gonna take a deep breath in, okay, now this is a practice breath, and I'm making sure all my muscles are relaxed, relaxed, relaxed, no tensing at all, I'm gonna take a deep breath in again, and breathe out, oh, and I'm gonna hold it there, I just pushed a little bit more in, I'm gonna hold it there, take a couple more deep breaths right here, move my hips, okay, okay, I'm gonna try again, after a couple more breaths, ah, it just feels so good, uh, okay, okay, I think I can take a little more, I think I can, yeah, no, this is light work, I can do this, I'm totally talking to myself, I have to gas myself up so hard, like, yeah, yeah, you can take that dick, oh my god, okay, okay, let's do this, all right, uh, breathe in, head out, oh, okay, it's a bit more, okay, okay, it's a bit more, so now I'm gonna, I'm gonna take it out, ah, and then I'm gonna breathe in and then put it in again, okay, okay, okay, it's, it's about where it was, again, this is not a lot, this is like, I know it's barely an inch, but for me, it, it feels like a lot, so I'm just, I'm just resting for a second, I'm just, uh, huh, my hips again, but I'm not gonna pull out, uh, right now, I'm gonna keep it in, this is still a pretty new way to play for me, because, um, I make no secret of it, I just, I haven't really been dildo shopping in a while, and also, the clit is the most effective way to get off, so, and I'm a busy woman, so, but let's, let's indulge ourselves today and take a little extra time, right, okay, I don't even know if I'm gonna come in this section, session, I can't even talk, um, but that's okay, I just wanna, okay, I just wanna practice, if that's all right with you, oh, I make no mistake, this does feel good, it's just, it's just working some new muscles, you know, okay, all right, all right, okay, I'm gonna take a deep breath in, and I'm gonna try, I'm gonna try and push in a little more, now that I've had it in for a couple minutes, okay, okay, breathe in, and breathe out, and breathe out, okay, okay, I gotta pull up, I gotta get, gotta get this a little better, I'm like, I'm pushing in, okay, I'm brushing myself, I can't rush, I can't rush, uh, okay, okay, in a little more, yes, uh-huh, uh, uh, in a little more, just a little more, just a little more, yes, oh, oh, I don't stop it, I just, I have to see if I could just a little more, because it feels so good, and now I'm just bucking away, okay, uh, oh my god, oh, inside, oh, oh my god, I'm trying to figure out how to describe this, it, the toy has to be only about an inch inside of me, but it's hitting all these sensitive spots, and I, uh, it just feels so good, I'm gonna pull it out, I'm gonna pull it out, oh, fuck, I know I'm gonna be sore tomorrow, like, fuck, okay, okay, okay, oh my god, fuck, fuck, fuck, I just, I just have the very tip, oh, fuck, I just have the very tip inside, uh, and I'm, uh, uh, sorry, I'm, uh, I'm plugging up my hips into it, while the rest is pressuring all my, all my foot and shit, oh my god, that feels so good, uh, uh, oh my god, if I turn on the vibes right now, oh my god, I think I have to, I think I have to, because this is just the first session, I'm just, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, oh, fuck, fuck, oh my god, yes, yes, uh, uh, um, help, please, help, please, please, uh, uh, yes, yes, fuck, fuck, oh my god, fuck, okay, for, uh, uh, uh, for, uh, uh, for documentation purposes, I have to say, uh, uh, uh, uh, um, um, okay, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, focus, I have to, I have to get this out, I have to say it, so that way, I know for the next time, okay, okay, this feels incredible, yes, but still, at this time, I only have about an inch, uh, inserted, have future sessions, I need to practice having this inch, or, or, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, that the, uh, my perforations are, uh, uh, are really, really good, uh, uh, uh, especially inside me, oh my god, fucking hell, okay, yes, yes, oh, fuck me, please, please, fuck me, oh, please, please, oh, I want to feel you stretching me out, please, oh, oh, oh, this feels so good, oh, I'm dying, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, this feels so good, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, I'm dying, oh, oh, yes, please, please, farthiest point in the world, oh, oh, farthest point ever, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, okay, i'm just i'm just like okay, fuck.

i'm trying to describe what's happening but really it's just a lot of it's just a lot of a lot of hip movement just a lot of staying up into my toy rather than having it go down or up into me i'm just i'm thrusting up into that first little bit of my toy and ah okay the vibrations do their thing i just oh oh i feel so dumb right now like genuinely like what the fuck uh uh i negatively feel stupid thing oh yeah uh i'm not wearing a bra and my boobs are moving too like oh this is so hot to me right now oh my god yes please oh fuck me fuck me please oh oh my god i need to get fucked i need it i need it so badly uh should i turn up the vibration hi yeah i should i should i really want to get off so bad uh okay okay let's see what happens okay i'm gonna try something i'm gonna try to take it out all the way and then putting it in while it's vibrating okay take it out that's it oh my fucking god oh my god oh my god oh i can put it in so much further right now i am so wet okay okay oh fuck me this is oh this is almost too much i gotta pull it out i'm gonna pull it out and rest it uh yes uh uh yes please yeah yes oh yes please please yes please oh fuck fuck fuck oh okay okay i almost feel like overstimulated right now holy shit uh i'm gonna be so sore tomorrow okay but like in a good way you know like like i want to be sore like this again okay i'm gonna i feel like i'll let myself just move however i need to move to feel good and then i'll be back at this again maybe maybe tomorrow morning before for work oh that'd be fun okay let me let me just focus for a minute i'm feeling as good as i as i can oh yes yes yes oh fuck oh oh yes fuck oh i'm gonna come oh my god yes oh fuck huh oh fuck that was oh my god what the fuck oh oh my god okay okay oh it's so sensitive okay okay oh my god oh my god i have to turn this off now turn this off or or alas alas no oh my god okay okay okay that's enough that's enough okay okay okay okay fuck okay well that was that was the first session i checked i checked and it's still just about an inch of insertion judging from the light spots on my table okay okay today is the 18th of february 2024 current insertion inside 15 minutes is oh inside 30 minutes is uh is still about one inch and we're trading as needed all right see you next time.