The Words We Don't Say

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I didn't think I'd hear from you so soon. Well, our last words weren't exactly friendly, so I wasn't sure if we were gonna actually have a conversation or if that was it. Yeah, things are said on both sides.

And issues are issues, but you're here, which tells me that there's something you have to say, and, well, I have something to say too, so why don't we start with you, since you made the trip. Go ahead. Yeah, I understand that.

I understand where you were coming from and why you got angry. It wasn't intentional to not trust what you said. Go on.

You were very harsh with me. You were very, very harsh with me, actually. But not unfounded, necessarily.

Thank you. I appreciate the apology. Um, we need to talk about what started this and why we're fighting like this.

Our relationship has been very, very intense right from the beginning. A lot of emotion, a lot of sex, a lot of really good sex, but not a lot of room to breathe. And I think it caught up with us.

So when things started to get a little too real, we both panicked, and that's what happened. I know that's what happened for me, and it wasn't pretty, because I was afraid that this wasn't going to end up on the right side of things. My track record's not great.

A lot of not-so-great decisions in this department, and you have been an absolute breath of fresh air for me. So to think that something so wonderful was going to be not anymore was enough to make me panic, and I apologize for that. You told me that I could trust you, and you showed me time and again that I could trust you.

And, um, I need to believe that. And the fact that you're standing here and you came to me again tells me that, um, tells me that I can believe it, and that that you're not going anywhere. Right? Good, good.

Um, the, um, the thing is, and we've kind of talked about this a little bit before, but I think you deserve more of an explanation. Um, when you've been treated the way I have, and have the history that I have, the emotional scars of that are damaging. You know that I was in a relationship where, um, to say I wasn't treated kindly is putting it extremely mildly.

Um, he never hit me, but the emotional and mental abuse was enough. So it's hard to get past that. It's hard to, um, it's hard to believe the good stuff when the bad is all you've ever known.

And you are one big bundle of good that, that I some days don't feel I deserve. And it clouded how I think and how I react to things. And that's not fair.

So I'm sorry that I let that happen. I'm sorry that that became an issue. And I'm sorry that, I'm sorry that that's baggage I just, I have to carry, and will probably always be baggage I have to carry.

So, um, I don't, I don't know what the next step is. I feel like we're at an impasse, and what we decide here is gonna either make or break, um, where we go. So I'm gonna, I'm gonna stop talking now and let you, let you talk, because you're, you're giving me a look, and it's not a look I've seen before.

It's not a look, excuse me, it's not a look I know. And, um, my, my voice isn't gonna last around the lump in my throat. So I'm gonna let you, let you say what you gotta say, okay? Uh, really? You said it.

You said it. I don't know what I was expecting, but it wasn't that. Oh.

We, we talked about this. We, we, um, we agreed that wasn't a thing. We, we agreed that those, those words weren't necessary.

And you just said them. And, no, I don't know what to think. I don't know what to do with that.

Um, no, no, no. I, I, I wanted you to say them. Absolutely wanted you to say them.

But, um, I didn't ever think you would. And now I have to, well, I have to do something with that. Um, okay.

You mean it, don't you? Well, don't, don't say it again. That just makes it worse.

It just makes the, the disbelief worse. Please, please don't, don't say it again. Actually, no, say it again.

Say it, say it a hundred times. Say it. Please say it.

Just, just. Oh my gosh. Um, okay.

Uh, but, um, I'm at a loss clearly, which doesn't happen to me all that often. And, um, wow. That's all I can think right now.

That's, that's literally what's in my head right now is wow. I don't know what the rest of this conversation is going to look like, but I, I want to put a pin in it because I really, really just want to kiss you right now. Is that okay? Is that something that we can do? Okay.

You really don't care, do you? That I'm completely fucked up. That I will probably never respond to things the way I should.

You know that, right? Okay. That's not an answer.

Okay. Yes, you do. Okay.

Okay. Just the feel of your arms around me right now. It's what I've been wanting for days.

The sound of your voice. The feel of your skin under my fingertips. It's like, it's like not knowing something hurts until all of a sudden it doesn't anymore, and then you realized how much it did.

That's what this is like. Not being around you hurt that much, and I didn't realize it until I'm with you again. Until I'm with you again, and now I realize it, and I don't ever want to feel like that again.

Promise. Okay. That's, that's your fingers.

On the skin of my low back. It's like fire everywhere you touch. I know that look.

Please, make love to me. Please. Show me how much you love me.

Oh, your hands on my skin. Oh, yes. Oh, kiss my neck.

I love the feel of your chest under my hands. It's so solid, so real. Oh, god, your lips are burning fire everywhere.

Oh, please, please, please, please. Just, just take it off. Take the shirt off.

Take it off. There. Oh, yes.

Yes, drill your lips down my skin. That's my breasts in your hands. My nipples in your fingers.

You know exactly where to go, and exactly what to do. Oh, fuck. I'm gonna, I'm gonna lift your shirt, because I want to touch you.

I want to feel your skin more, more. I want to feel you against me. You're always so warm, and I'm always not.

Yeah, up, up, up, up, up, up. There, there, there. There.

Just like I know it would be, so warm. Breast against you. This is exactly where I want to be.

In your arms, my skin against yours. Take me to the bed, please. Oh.

You always startle me when you do that. Yes, just sit me down. You can throw me down for all I care.

Just lay me down and get on top of me, please. Oh, you're so gentle. Now let's get rid of these pants.

Oh. Mm. Mm.

Oh. Ah. It's been a long few days, and I think I've missed this part of you almost as much as the rest of you.

Yes, almost. I'm not gonna tell you I missed your cock more than the rest of you. It's a little shallow, isn't it? Mm.

Mm. Mm. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Your fingers between my legs. Yeah, just get rid of the pants. Please, just take them off.

Take them off. Here. Oh.

I'm so wet for you. That's how much I want you. That's how much I need you.

Please. Mm. Oh, yes.

Oh. Mm. Just put your weight on me.

Just, uh, press me into the bed. Mm. Will you slide that finger in and out of me, please? Please, please.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Please. Yes, yes, yes. Oh, fuck.

Mm. Yes. Oh, fuck.

Mm. That finger feels so good. Mm.

Mm. What are you doing? You're watching.

You're watching my face. Why? Why are you watching my face? Mm.

Oh. Oh. Mm.

Your arms. So sweet. Mm.

Memorizing my expression. You always know exactly what to say and exactly what to do. Mm.

Kiss me. Just, just, kiss me. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Fuck, fuck, fuck. I'm gonna cum.

You keep that up. Mm. What do you mean, that's the point? I thought you wanted to be inside me when I do.

Mm. I want you inside me when I do. Mm.

Mm. Yes, I know. There's a possibility for more than one.

Oh, God. Mm. Mm.

Okay. Fuck, yes. I'm not gonna argue with you.

Just don't stop, don't stop, don't stop. Don't stop, don't stop, don't stop, don't stop. Mm.

Please. Kiss me. Kiss me while I cum.

Please. I'm almost there. Please, please, please.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Yeah.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm mm. Oh. Fuck.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Oh, that's nice. Your fingertips running over my cheeks. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Do you feel that with your cock? Do you feel it? You did that.

It's all you. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Oh, yes. Just rub it against me.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. I'm ready. I'm ready when you are.

Please. Take me. Mm.

Show me I belong to you. Because I do. I'm all yours.

Mm-hmm. I mean it. Mm.

I love you, too. Ah. Mm.

Ah. Oh, fuck. Yes.

Yes. Ah. Ah.

Mm. Oh, you're so deep. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Oh, you're so deep.

Nice and slow. Nice and slow. Mm.

Mm. Oh, yes. Oh.

Ah. I'm gonna run my nails up and down your back just gently. I know you like that.

Ah. You're holding me so tightly to your chest. Ah.

Mm. Yes. Oh, God.

That feels so good. Oh, I can feel every inch of you. Fuck.

Mm. What? Wait, what? Ah.

Of course. I'll say it again. I'll say it a million times.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

I love you. I love you. Yes.

Yes. Ah. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Yes.

Faster. Mm. Mm.

Yes. Yes. Yes.

Faster. Faster. Faster.

Mm. Yes. Yes.

Yes. Ah. Oh, that hand under my low back holding me up to you, holding me open to you.

Yes. Oh, fuck. Yes.

No, don't be gentle. Don't be gentle. Bound into me.

Please. Please show me. Show me how much you want me.

Show me how much you love me. Please. Please.

Yes. Yes. Ah.

Mm. Mm. Yes.

Yes. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Yes. Yes.

Yes. Yes. Please.

Please. No. I know.

I know. I know. Mm.

I know we're not using anything. I don't care. I don't care.

I'm good. Please. Please.

Please. Ah. I want you to come.

I want you to come inside me. I want to feel it. Just you.

Nothing else. Just you. Please.

Please. Feel me. Feel me.

Just you. Mm. Mm.

Ah. Feel my pussy clenching around you. I want it.

I want you to come in me. Please. Please.

Mm. Please. Fill me up.

Own me. Show me that I belong to you. Yes.

Please. Please. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Yes.

I'm getting close. Yes. I am.

I am. Please. Mm.

Mm. I love you too. I do.

I love you. Please don't stop. Don't stop.

Go faster. Go faster. Mm.

Mm. Ah. I can feel you getting bigger.

Are you ready? I'm so close. I'm riding the edge.

I'm riding the edge waiting for you. Please. I can't hold it much longer.

Please. Please. Please.

Please. Mm. Mm.

Ah. Yes. Yes.

Please. Please. Please.

Please. Oh. Please.

Please. Please come. Please come in.

Please come in me. Please come in me. Yes.

Yes. That's all I want. I want to feel you explode inside me.

Please. That big hard cock inside me. Please.

Please. Please. My big hard cock inside me.

And yes. Please. Please.

Please. Mm. Yes.

Come inside your pussy. Please. Please.

Yes. Come on. Come on.

Come on. Come on. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Ah.

Ahh. Ah. Mm.

Mm. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Mm. Mm.

Ah. Mm. Oh, fuck.

Fuck. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Ah. Ah.

Mm. Mm. Yeah, I'm okay.

I'm okay. Are you okay? You look pretty dazed.

Mm. Mm. No.

It's perfect. So perfect. This is where I always want to be.

Mm-hmm. In your arms. Yeah.

Yeah. Always. Mm-hmm.

Mm. Why did you just ask me that? I think your orgasm scrambled your brain.

Oh. Oh, I think you're just actually trying to make me say it again. Is that what's happening? Mm.

That's okay. I love you. I love you.

Mm. Mm. You know, I think we should really fight more often.