The Rain is Cold Tonight [M4A] [Break Up] [Toxic Boyfriend] [Angst] [Lovers to Ex] [Bad Ending]

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Trigger Warning. This audio will contain verbal abuse, domestic abuse, and yelling. If this is too much or triggering, I urge you to skip this audio roleplay entirely.

Your mental health is more important. Viewer discretion is advised. Yeah, yeah, I'm home.

God, it's freezing, ugh. Did you make dinner already? God, man, it's so cold out there.

Almost froze to death, jeez. Lucky for you, huh? Here in the cozy house all night long, hmm? Hm? Well, yeah, of course I came home late.

Work's been tough, you know. I mean, you should be grateful that I came home at all, tonight. I sure am.

Forget about that. Where's dinner? I'm starving.

I really hope you prepared a warm meal for me, my dear. Ooh, ooh. Spaghetti again, huh? I mean, it's better than nothing, I suppose.

Though what's up? Did you forget to buy groceries again and just end up using what's in the fridge? What? What's there to talk about? Yep, make it quick.

You know I don't like talking while eating, and it's better not be something silly. You know how long you can rant for if you get carried away, right? Well, naturally.

How many times do I have to tell you? My work is very important. I need to spend long hours there.

I specifically explain everything to you, bit by bit, every time you ask. Do you still not understand? You know, it takes a lot of dedication and hours to make that much money for us.

And it's not like I enjoy slaving away, I just need to, okay? We both know this. Antidepressants.

I go home, tired, and the first thing you bring up is asking if it's okay to spend even more money on those. I know mental health is important, and you're trying to fix yourself, but it's not like I don't believe in them, but god, they're not doing much from the outside looking in. You know that, right? Do you really need to add more? You know you're already on a high dose, right? What? What do you mean you talked about us in therapy? Darling, what's wrong? I told you you could tell me anything you had in mind, right? Why go to the therapist when you could just literally ask me? Go to me first? Tell me the problem first, honey.

We're partners, aren't we? Why go to the therapist about us, you know? Okay, I get it.

Maybe I'm not the easiest person to bring that stuff up with. I do admit I might get emotional at times, and I might be slow on the uptake, but I try to make it up for it. You know how much I work hard for us? For you? I just want the best for the both of us, you know? Even when I'm emotional, believe me, in my heart, it's for the both of us.

What do you mean it's just for myself? Do you really think I have that much of an ego? We've been together for years.

I mean, darling, baby, I love you. And that's why I've sacrificed so much of my work and time for our life. My life.

Your life. I. ..

do you really need that much attention? Did I really not give enough attention to you? Is this how you've been feeling all this time? I'm really sorry, I didn't know.

I. .. No, no, I tried, okay? And even if I haven't been giving you enough time together, you do realize I work so much so we can live together, right?

So you don't have to struggle all the time, right? I do want to spend more time with you, too, I just, I can't, okay? I just, I just can't.

I can't afford to. .. I'm working my ass off for our life.

I'm doing this for you. I'm suffering for you. Look, baby, I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to raise my voice like that, okay? I genuinely.

.. I'm sorry, I know, I know you have trouble with it, I'm just. ..

I'm sorry, okay? I know, I know, I'm sorry for the outburst, I know it triggers you, I do try to control it, I promise, but really, what do you want me to do? What am I supposed to do? You need to tell me what I need to do.

I don't get it. Come on, darling, just tell me. You know that's unrealistic.

You know how you are. We've tried that before. I mean, how many jobs have you lost, realistically? How many times did we have to take a loan just for bills? Baby, you know this is the only way it could work.

Like, there's no fairy tale where we just work together and spend every day together like a Disney couple. You. ..

I know you're a hopeless romantic, but. .. No, no, no, no, of course I believe in you.

Truly, you're a wonderful, amazing, best partner I could have, and I love you, darling. I just. ..

I'm trying my best, alright? I know your issues, so I'm trying my best for the two of us. You know that's not gonna work.

You've tried it before. How many times do you want to suffer before you accept my help? How many more failures? How many more nights of crying after rejection? You honestly talk like that, but you know it's never gonna work.

I'm telling you, it's pointless. It's useless, even. Just shut up, and listen to me.

Fuck. God. I did it again.

I'm sorry, babe. I'm really. ..

No, I swear, this is like the last time I apologize. This is the last time I yell, okay? I'm trying to not blow up on you.

I'm sorry. This is the last time I lost control. This is the last time, okay? I didn't mean any of that, really.

Really, I. .. You.

.. I can do better, honey. I promise, I'll spend more time with you.

I'll let you try to find a job. I'll cut down my own hours, and. ..

I mean, that's gonna take some time, obviously, but. .. Please, just.

.. Give me another chance. Baby, I love you.

I'm just. .. I'm just trying to make you happy.

I'm doing all of this for you. Believe me, please. If you understand that I'm doing all of this to make you happy, and that I'm trying to do better, then why are you.

.. What. ..

What do you mean, that you could do better? You're. ..

No. No, this. ..

No, you're not. You're not saying what I think you're saying, right? Darling? Darling? Hon? Oh, come on, please tell me I'm wrong.

Please tell me I misunderstood you again. I. ..

You're. .. You're doing this for my happiness, too.

No, what do you mean? Don't you understand? Baby, you're my happiness.

Everything I'm doing right now, the work, taking more hours, anything is for you. Everything I've done, every. ..