The Night You Lost Your Virginity: Part I & II

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I love you so much. No. I mean it.

I really do. Oh, no. Baby, please try your heart.

It's okay. Look at me. Give me a kiss.

Have I ever made you feel pressured to do anything that you didn't want to do? Look at me when I tell you it's okay. I mean that.

It's okay. Because I love you, that's why. And I never want you to feel pressured or rushed to do anything.

Especially lose your virginity. I understood the situation whenever we first started talking and dating. And you told me it was a virgin.

And I told you I respect it. I told you I was willing to go as slow as you wanted to go. That it was no pressure.

I wasn't interested in getting to know you because of your body. Everything I told you was true, baby. Everything I've told you has been true.

But why are you crying? Come close to me, baby. No.

No, listen. Please don't fight me on this thing. Come close to me.

I want to be next to you. I want you to know that I love you. I want you to know that you're safe right now.

We need to talk about this. Baby, it's 3 o'clock in the morning. You were sitting on the edge of the bed crying.

Because of what? I really want to know. Because you feel, I feel, that I'm ready to have sex and you don't want to have sex.

Okay, then what? You want to have sex but you're afraid? Baby, what are you afraid of? It not being good? Ow.

Now, why did you hit me? Okay, I'm sorry, baby. I know you're being serious but do you know who I am? No, I mean that in all seriousness, baby.

Do you realize how much I love you? I'm understanding. I'm patient.

I'm ready to show you whatever I need to show you to let you know that sex is not that important. And whenever we do take it there for the very first time, I understand you don't have any experience. I want to walk you through the process.

I'm going to be there with you every step of the way. I don't want you to feel no pressure. I don't want you to feel rushed.

I want you to take your time and know that everything is going to be okay. Because your man is here for you. Your man has your back no matter what, okay? Just lie here beside me, baby.

Thank you so much. Well, I tell you all the time how I feel like I'm used up and I'm not worthy of you. You've never shared yourself with anybody and here I am.

I got fragments and pieces of myself all over the world that I've shared with random women who I've never had any type of feelings for. And sadly enough, some of them I don't even know their last name, baby. You don't even know how much I respect you, how much I admire you for doing what you did.

It takes a woman of courage, a woman of discipline, a woman of respect to restrain herself from sexual intercourse until she feels she's ready. And I will never be the one to put pressure on you. If you ever choose to share that precious gift because that's what it is, baby.

It's a gift that should be shared by two people who are in love. That is the perfect way to lose your virginity. If you ever choose to share that with me, I will always be grateful for that.

Always. Okay. So it's no pressure.

Dry your eyes. I love you equally today as I did yesterday and as I will tomorrow. You're the love of my life and the light of my eyes.

I respect you more than any woman I've ever known. I'm happy to have you in my life. I feel lucky and I feel grateful.

I feel blessed to have you in my life. And what we have is just so much more than the physical. We're best friends.

We cook together. We have sex together. It's just so much more than the physical.

We're best friends. We connect on a level I never connected before. And I mean that from a mental and spiritual level.

I mean, you know, sometimes when I'm saying something and you could finish my sentences or even when I can't find the words to say what I mean, but you already know what I mean. That doesn't come easy, baby. That's because we're connected.

What we have is supersedes the physical. Because of the love and the connection that we have with one another. When we do decide to share our bodies with each other, it's going to be explosive.

Oh my God. I really think we're going to have one of the most amazing feelings in the world. I really mean that.

You enjoy the aural. I enjoy performing the aural. In fact, if you want me to, I can go down on you right now, baby.

I would love to taste you. Really? You were saying that you enjoy giving me aural.

How you feel about doing the 69 right now? No, I mean, I never want you to feel pressure. You've been feeling that lately, haven't you? It's not pressure.

What is it then? You want to have sex? You at war with yourself? About what? You still don't know if I'm deserving? Ouch.

It hurts a little bit. But it's honest and it's real. And I've always respected that about you.

I'd much rather for you to keep it real with me. I understand. And you went this entire time without sharing your body with anybody.

If you don't want to give me your body, baby, you don't have to. My feelings for you won't change, okay? You're not obligated to do anything with me.

It does. That turns you on. It makes you want to share your body with me.

Mmm. What do you want to do to me? Oh, no, no, no.

Don't tell me. Show me. Show me what you want to do to me.

Oh, my God. Why do I love you so much? You are right.

You are right. You are one of a kind. I love when we just lay here, baby, and look each other right in the eyes.

I feel like I can see into your soul. I see so much pain. So much fear.

So many things I want to protect you from. I wish you could see inside my soul, baby, and read my heart. I just want you to know that you're safe.

And this goes far beyond losing virginity with me and anything. I just want you to know that I always got you. I couldn't let nobody harm you.

I wouldn't be able to live with myself. That includes me. I'm patient, baby.

I'm understanding. I'm gonna wait until you're ready. I'm gonna be here right by your side.

I don't care how long it takes. If it takes another six months, if it takes a year, if it takes two years, I think you're worth it. I think you're worth it.

I think you're worth it. Well, it's easy for me because I love you. You don't think you would be able to do it? That's honest, and I think a lot of guys wouldn't either.

I never dated a virgin before, and you taught me so much about myself, but also about you, and you taught me a lesson in patience. Anything as amazing as you, anything as wonderful, as beautiful, as kind, as gentle as you is definitely worth waiting for. And I just don't mean the physical.

I mean every aspect of you. I think the closer we get, the more layers appeal back of who you are as a person. And the closer we get, the more intimate I feel like we're becoming.

So, come to me. Let my fingers dance through your curls, and let me kiss on your body. Let me put your mind at ease.

And I want you to know this. I want you to hear me. Matter of fact, turn around, baby.

No, turn around. Look me right in my eyes. No, I'm not cross-eyed.

It's silly. You see, you got jokes. You can never be serious for more than five minutes.

Look me in my eyes. You know I love you, right? Well, do you? Okay, good.

I want to wait. I want to wait until you're ready. I feel like I'll be cheating myself and cheating you out of one of the most amazing experiences that we can ever share together.

It's no pressure. I'm not putting no pressure on you, so I want you to take the pressure off for yourself, okay? I don't care about the sex, baby.

Don't do that. Yes, I care about the sex, but I'm not overly emphasizing it or not making it this huge deal of priority. No.

What? Baby, no, I would never cheat on you. Have you lost your mind? I love you.

I'm being serious, okay? I love you. I'm being serious.

I love you. I respect you. Us not being intimate.

No, listen. Listen to me. Us not being intimate, it's not a reason to justify me going out and sleeping with someone else.

I'm so glad we had this conversation because I had no clue that you had these kind of thoughts. No, I don't want to spend time with no other woman. Baby, listen.

I'm going to be honest. You suck my dick so good. Listen.

Listen. Yes, we did. We had that conversation several times.

You suck my dick so good. Baby, I don't even be thinking about the sex sometimes. Sometimes.

Sometimes, okay? I'm going to put emphasis on sometimes because sometimes you suck me so good. I'd be like, oh my God, I just want to put it inside.

I just want to feel my woman. I just want to connect with you. And I think it's more so not even a feeling.

It's just a connection because I've expressed to you so many times that the deepest and the closest you can ever be with somebody is when you insert yourself into their body. That's the perfect time for energy to be exchanged. I'm physically inside of your body.

I'm penetrating your body. I can't be any closer to you. Our minds, our hearts, and our bodies are in alignment.

We're synced together. I want to feel that connection with you, but I only want to feel it when you're ready. Okay? That's really all there is to it, baby.

I'm making you horny. No, no, that's the AC. It just came on.

Come close to me. Closer. Come here, girl.

Come here, girl. You like it when daddy get on top of you, don't you? I got your hands locked behind your head.

What are you going to do? I got you pinned down. So if I really wanted to take advantage of you, I really could.

And you know there's nothing you can do about it. Ooh, what if you wanted me to? Baby, I mean, what are you saying right now? You ready for us to have sex? Are you sure? Let's try.

Okay. Are you positive, baby? I just.

.. I don't know, is the moment really right? I don't want to.

.. No, no, no, I get it. No, and you do, you do.

You know when you're ready, baby. But you just told me 10 minutes ago that you was afraid and you felt a little bit pressured. I don't want you to feel persuaded because of the conversation.

It's okay to wait. Baby, look at me. Look at me.

It's okay. How about this? Your body, your body, your body.

Lord help me. Okay, how about this? How about you relax? You lie down on your back.

I slide my finger inside your mouth. And you suck on my finger. And you think about me being inside your mouth.

While I go downtown. And I lick and I kiss and I suck all over that pussy until you come in my mouth. How about we start there? And if.

.. If and only if you feel good. After we do that.

And we can go from there, okay? No pressure. No rushing.

No anxiety. I want you to forget about the conversation we're having now. Forget about how you was feeling 10, 15 minutes ago.

All I want you to do is relax. I want you to understand that your man got you. I want you to know that you are perfectly safe.

I want you to know that I love every inch of your body, baby. From head to toe. You are so beautiful, so gorgeous.

So amazing to me. And then I want you to think only about how good my tongue feels. Licking and sucking all over your clit, baby.

Okay? That's the only thing I want you to do. Now when I go down, there's only one rule.

You cannot let me come up until you come. I want you to grab the back of my head and force me down. If I try to come up to breathe, don't let me breathe.

If I die, I fucking die. I mean that. I want you to come hard.

And I want you to be a little aggressive, okay? I want you to take the power in this situation, do you understand? Force me to eat that pussy.

Make me suck on that pussy until you come, okay, baby? I'm going downtown, so relax. Oh, that pussy tastes so good, baby.

You're so fucking wild, baby. You want me to spit in it? Wild, baby.

It's so fucking good. Oh, I like that. I like that.

Do what I fucking say, okay? Yes, ma'am, I got you. Now you want me to suck it up?