The Breakup [M4A] [Manipulation] [TW: Mentions of Suicide] [Emotional] [Begging] [Humiliation] [Mild Gaslighting] [Bad Ending] [Sweet?]

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Trigger warning. This audio will contain mention of suicide, mention of self-harm, and mild gaslighting. If this is too much or triggering, I urge you to skip this audio roleplay.

Your mental health is more important. Viewer discretion is advised. Hey, thanks for meeting with me.

I know you didn't have to. So, uh, do you want anything? I'll pay for it, just let me know and I'll go order it for you.

Oh, uh, are you sure? Oh, okay, right, um, do you want to try mine then? It's not coffee.

Oh, you know how much I love coffee, but it's kinda too late for me to drink, so I just got some hot apple cider. Here, try a sip, it's really good. Why not? I.

.. Oh, babe, come on. We used to kiss a million times a day, and we practically shared everything.

We are still the same people as we were last week, so what's the difference? I don't understand why you're being so hesitant about it. If you're acting like I'm a stranger to you, I just.

.. Fine. Why did you come here anyway? If you're just gonna act like this, I.

.. What? Worried about me? Why? Because of how I was on the phone last night? Look, I was just really upset, okay? You don't have to worry about me, I.

.. Kill myself. Ah, yeah.

I. .. I honestly don't know why I said that.

You know, it's funny. Remember when we first started going out? I didn't even really want to, and now look at us.

I'm the one who can't be without you. And remember our first date, or I guess we could call it a first date, maybe? You know, the one where we took that long walk through the park? And then you kissed me, suddenly, out of the blue.

And I pulled back and was like, ooh, what the hell are you doing? I. ..

I just wasn't expecting it. I didn't even think of you in that way. Really, I wasn't even sure if I wanted to be friends with you.

I just. .. I felt so stupid after that.

It was like, I can't believe I did that, you know? It was just a reaction, but I felt so bad for you that I stayed up all night thinking about it. Thinking how bad it must have made you feel, and how embarrassed you must have been.

I even asked a couple of my friends, and they told me I completely blew any shot I might have had with you, and the only way you would even talk to me again after was if you really, really liked me, and. .. I'm glad that you did, because we ended up together.

Even after we went out a bunch of times, and I somehow never got the hint when you kept saying you wanted to come over to my place, I don't know, I just felt so nervous whenever I'm around you. It's like I didn't want to even be with you romantically at first, but then when you got your hooks in me, I went crazy for you. I was so unsure about us at first, but you stuck it out with me.

And now you're unsure with me, and I'm trying to do the same. Why am I saying all this? Because I'm trying to remind you of our past.

The things we did, and the things we went through to build our relationship. So maybe you would change your mind about the breakup with me. Is it working? Ah, no.

I just don't get it. We were happy together. I know things weren't perfect, but we were happy, weren't we? That's what you said last night too.

I still don't understand it. Look, I know you came out of a long-term relationship only three weeks before we started dating, but you were the one who pursued me. We were together for a year, and now you suddenly feel like you aren't ready for a serious relationship?

Something just doesn't add up. If it's something that I did, or how I am, why can't you just tell me? I can work on it.

We can work on it together. Baby please, I need you. I don't know if I can make it through this life without you.

I'm sorry, I'm not trying to make you feel guilty, it's just, usually when someone breaks up with me, they just don't say another word. But you talked to me for an hour last night on the phone, and now you're sitting with me in a coffee shop. I just, I just thought that meant maybe you still care about me, and I'm sorry, I'm just, I'm just not used to not being able to touch you.

I can't do this. They say only the soul knows what love is, and when you told me you didn't want to be with me anymore, I felt like my soul was being crushed. I've been in love before, but this is different.

This is more than that, something deeper, and I know you felt it too, no matter how much you're probably going to say you didn't right now. You can try to convince yourself of that, but you'll never be able to convince me. So when I said that I couldn't live without you, it's because it's what I truly feel right now.

I'm not saying that because I'm suicidal or that I want to cause harm to my body or something. It's because it honestly feels like I'm dying inside, baby. The only thing keeping me from completely breaking down right now is the fact that you're still sitting right next to me.

I really thought maybe, maybe you were my soulmate, and it feels like everything that makes me, me, is going to die without you. Baby, please look at me. I need you, I really do, more than you know.

For the first time in my life, I feel like I just want to give up without you. Wait, please don't leave. I just, am I really that bad? That even though we were happy and everything was fine between us, you literally can't stand being with me just because you don't feel ready to be in a serious relationship?

I don't believe that. No matter how hard I try, it feels like it's so bad that you have to force yourself to be with me. Look, we can't control when we fall in love or when we meet the right person, so why fight it? If it's really just a serious relationship, then we can figure something out.

We can, I don't know, take a break, or cool things off for a bit, just please don't cut me out. You know I'm crazy about you, and I knew you were crazy about me too, at least at one point. I really don't understand why you have to focus on all that now.

Why can't we just be happy together? You know that's all I want. Just a rebound, babe, I.

.. Okay, I'm sorry, I won't call you that anymore. But come on, how can you say that to me? We were together for a year.

We did everything together. You even used to tell me how much better I was than your ex. And now you're saying I was just a rebound from them? I.

.. No, no, I don't believe you. Look me in the eye and tell me that.

You can't, can you? You can't even look at me right now. You haven't even been able to all night.

You can't even look at me, because you know. You know that as soon as. ..