The Barista Girl Part 5

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No. No, I mean don't talk. Just kiss me already.

Oh, no, don't apologize. That was gorgeous. I don't care who sees.

No, you don't. Okay, okay. Let's just take a breath for a second.

Um, actually, follow me. Yeah, come on. You'll see.

Ah, let's go upstairs. You want to sit here? Okay.

Well, we're in the library because books bring you comfort, right? In the same way that animals bring me comfort, so I thought maybe we could talk a little bit. Plus, I love it here.

This building is so beautiful, and it's one of the oldest in the city. Yeah. Mm-hmm.

I do too. I love the smell of a library. Oh, yes.

You can start. Oh. Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no.

No, you're not a mess. I mean, you do tend to sway hard in opposite directions, but I get that it's because this is so new, and I don't know, maybe environments we've been in? Maybe.

You do? Oh, that makes me really happy to hear. I'm really comfortable with you as well.

It's just. .. What? Your last relationship? Wanted you to be perfect.

What do you mean? Mm-hmm. Oh.

Oh. That's mean, actually. I mean, not feeling like you always have control over your feelings is something everyone experiences from time to time, but that doesn't necessarily mean that something is wrong with you.

It's just something you have to kind of work on, learn to work through for you, though, so you can be happier and more peaceful in life, not because they need you to be so others don't think that you're odd. That's really bad. I'm so sorry you had to deal with that.

I really am. So, what happened? Did you go on the meds? And don't feel like you have to answer if it's too personal.

I totally understand. It helps them, but not enough. And then you broke up? Seriously? Wow.

I imagine they could only work so well because you were feeling so, so much stress to try to be perfect, as they said, and I mean, that's just going to give you even more anxiety. It's so much pressure. You needed love and support and patience, not, I guess, an ultimatum is what they gave you.

Like, if this doesn't work, we're over. Wow. Can I ask why you stayed in the relationship at that point? Oh, it was your first serious one.

Yeah. Oh, no, I get that. It totally makes sense.

No, not at all. First relationships, you feel like you're supposed to do anything to make it work. Otherwise, you're giving up, right? You're a failure at love.

But I mean, no, never mind. You don't need my opinion here. I just, I just really wish that you'd been given more support when you were learning about your anxiety.

That has to be, had to be so scary and so isolating. And I want you to know I really appreciate you sharing that with me. It does explain a lot, yeah.

So now what? Can I have your phone, please? Can you unlock it for me first? That's okay.

All right. There. I just texted myself, so now you have my number and I want you to text me or feel like you can call me anytime you need someone when you're feeling an attack coming on and you can't get control over it, okay?

Or you can also use it to, I don't know, maybe ask me on a date sometime. No pressure, though. None.

Not at all. Oh, you're asking me now? Dinner at your place? Wait, seriously? You cook? You love to cook? Yes, I would love that.

Tonight? Oh, your roommate's gone. I gotcha.

Yeah, would eight be okay? So I can have time to get home and shower? Okay.

Can you text me your address? Got it. Okay.

So can I bring anything? All right. Well then, I guess I'll see you at eight.

I am too.