The Barista Girl Part 4

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Alright, well, that's four days now, and still no sign of you. I don't think you've ever gone a day, maybe two, without coming in here. What happened? I just wish I knew.

What did I do to make you run off like that? It's like you couldn't get away from me fast enough. Oh, hey.

Yeah. Oh, you go on home. I'll lock up through the front.

Yes, I'm sure. I'm just about done anyway, no big deal. You go on.

Alright, have a good night. Bye. Oh, oh no.

Hi, sorry, we just. .. Oh.

Hi. It's you. Hi.

Um, sorry, we just closed, but I can make you something real quick if you like. Okay. Not here for that.

Then what are you here for? To apologize. Apologize for running away from me as fast as you could.

Yeah, that was fun. Walk me home. Um, I really don't want to get hurt here.

I let you in and you disappeared on me. Oh, I don't think this is a good idea. But then again, that look on your face.

You look like you're in pain. I can tell you feel bad. Alright, just going to listen and give you a chance to explain.

That is all I can do right now. Um, sure. Yeah, we can just go out the front.

I have to lock up. Okay. So.

Well, thank you for the apology. It is appreciated. Although I would love it more if I understood exactly what I did to make you want to get away from me so fast.

You panicked. Why? I mean, I thought it was a good kiss.

I know it was. You made my toes curl. Unless you thought it was bad.

Oh, geez, was it bad? Am I getting this all wrong? Kind of.

Okay. You were starting to have a panic attack. After you kissed me.

Wait, what? Oh my gosh, that's why you started running. Do you, do you have problems with anxiety? Oh, okay, here, here, just take a deep breath.

Nice and slow. Do you feel like another one's coming on? Okay, um.

Uh, okay. Can you see that bench down there? Way down there at the end of the block.

Yeah, run to it. As fast as you can. I'll meet you there, just run to it.

Run, run, run, go, go, go. I'll be right there. Hi.

Do you want to sit down for a minute or do you need to keep going? Okay. Can I join you? Okay.

You doing alright? Feeling a little better? Good.

How did I know it? About the running. Oh.

I've had some experience with panic attacks too. Yeah. Not often.

Actually not in a long time, but I used to get them here and there. I learned that I had an anxiety disorder. I started looking for ways to treat symptoms of anxiety attacks or panic attacks.

I didn't really want to take meds if I didn't have to. That's actually why I started taking yoga. Yeah.

Oh yeah, a lot. Other things too. Meditation.

Journaling, although I'm not really the best at that. I might be a bit lazy about it, but I'm just taking walks, you know, getting outside. Really makes a big difference.

But I would think for you, books might be your remedy. Maybe. I thought so.

Look, I don't want to put any pressure on you. This us, whatever this is, wherever it's going or gone. I mean, if you just need to pull back and take care of yourself, I more than understand.

Really, okay? I'm really sorry for getting defensive back at the cafe. I just, I didn't know what happened and I was.

.. It hurts. Yeah.

But now I understand, so we're good. Don't worry about, you know, taking me on more dates or meeting at the park if it's too much. If it makes you anxious, I certainly don't want to do that to you.

And it'll get better with time, you know. I promise it will. You have to work at it.

You want to get better, of course, because it really can take control of you. Obviously it is, right? Believe me, I know, I get it.

So just go easy on yourself. We're okay. Yeah, we're okay.

Does that mean what? I wouldn't want to try kissing you again. Mmm.

I don't want to get hurt, I don't want to get hurt, I don't want to get hurt. Oh, those lips. I'm.

.. Scarce, yeah. I mean, we're good, like I said, but I have to protect myself too, you know.

We suffer from the same thing. It could be absolutely dreadful. Or, yeah, true, it could be amazing.

Oh, what do I do? What do I do?