Stranger - Bus conversation

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Hey, is this seat taken? No? You mind if I sit? Alright.

Thank you. What do you got there? If you don't mind me asking.

Oh. Nice. Cool.

I mean, it looks really cool, so that's why I had to ask, you know? Look, I'm gonna be completely honest with you, okay? We're kind of just you and I waiting for the bus.

There's nobody around. I'm probably never gonna see you again. Do you mind if I'm just, like, completely honest with you and talk about some stuff that I really want to say but that I can't say to anybody?

And I'm not gonna tell, like, I'm not gonna confess to, like, a crime or something. I'm not, like, that's not what I'm gonna do. I just.

.. Do you ever feel like you have to put a facade for everybody around you? Like.

.. Like everybody. Like, do you not feel like you're ever your original self? Like, I feel drowned in influence and morality and ethics and so many things.

I'm not saying I'm a bad person, by the way. I'm just saying that. ..

I feel like I'm drowning around people who I actually like, around friends. It doesn't feel like I can truly be myself, you know what I mean? I probably just sound crazy to you.

I'm sorry, I just thought. .. Well, yeah, that.

.. Yeah. So you do.

I really don't get it. I don't understand why I feel this way, you know? Right now I have so many people that are just around me.

Not that many, by the way, just a few people. And every single day I talk to them and I try to be myself, right? But I'm in my late 20s.

I don't even know who the fuck I am. I feel like everything that I do is just a product of the moment. If that makes sense.

And I know we're supposed to change, you know, through our lives. We're born small and we learn and all that stuff, but. ..

I truly don't know who I am. I don't know. ..

I just know what I look like. That's all I know. I know who I look like, I know what, you know, my body around it, all that shit.

But I don't know my spirit, I don't know my soul. That just sounds so crazy. I don't know what the fuck I'm saying right now.

Look, if you want me to stop talking, I will. Or if you want to join in and say something, you can. You're never gonna see me again, you know? You might as well just say whatever the fuck you want, because this might be the only person that'll be willing to listen.

Me. So you should say whatever you're thinking, because I can tell you're thinking about something. Something you really want to say, something you just want to blurt out.

You should do that right now. Trust me. Trust in me, because you'll never have to trust me once you don't see me again.

That's the greatest amount of trust you could ever count on, the greatest deal for trusting that you could ever count on. So, what did you want to say? Yeah, keep going, yeah.

Don't stop, don't fucking stop, go. Yeah, there's no judgment here, go. Right.

Right, yeah. I fucking agree. I agree with that.

I understand it. Well, I don't agree, I just understand your feelings about it. That's what I mean.

It's not my place to agree or disagree with what you have to say, with your feelings, your emotions, that's you. You're feeling all that, you know? Just like I am.

I understand maybe you agree with those feelings because you've had them similarly, but if you haven't had those feelings, then you can't really put an opinion on it, okay? I feel like that's the fairest way to be a human being to another. Your life experiences have shaped you to be a completely different person than I could ever be.

And same way for me. You'll never understand what it's like to be me. Something we don't understand as people.

We're all complex and different. And even though we might be specks of dust, every single one of us in the universe, we still are complex and completely different from one another. Even if we're the same whatever, we'll never be the same.

I don't know if that makes sense. Does that make sense? Does it? Yeah.

I'm not going to lie right now, I do feel a little bit better, but it sucks that I can't do this every day, you know? To have someone listen to you with no judgment. I'm so thankful for you listening to me.

I know you're a completely different person than me. You probably led a very different life than I have led. But I appreciate you just listening.

This kindness to a stranger, it's monumental, you know? It means a lot. So thank you.

I greatly appreciate it. And I promise that when this bus that's coming up the hill there, when it gets here, I'll sit wherever you want me to, like I'll sit in the front if you want, you can sit in the back, or vice versa, I don't want to bother you again. I don't want you to feel like you owe me anything.

I don't want you to feel uncomfortable, so just let me know. And again, thank you for this. It means so much.

You have no idea how much.