Pregnancy Series: The Miscarriage!

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I just want to hold you in here. No, baby, it's okay. It's okay to cry.

It's okay to let it out. No, no, you didn't do that. No, no, you didn't do anything wrong.

You didn't do anything wrong, okay? It's okay. I'm here.

I'm gonna pull the car over, okay? No, it's okay. I love you.

I love you. I love you so much. I can do that, baby, yes.

I'll hold you. I'll hold you so tight. I never want to let you go.

I never want to let you go. I love you. I love you.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

I love you. I never want to let you go. Baby, I think you need to get something to eat.

You don't feel like eating. I understand, baby, but could you please try for me? Okay? Okay, I understand.

You don't want anything to eat. Just take us home. Okay, baby, I can do that.

Baby, I was thinking maybe I can give you a bath and we can talk. Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? Okay? And a massage that just holds you throughout the night.

And if you feel like talking, you can talk. And if you don't want to talk, you don't have to talk. You just want to go to sleep.

Okay? Okay? Elise, let me take your clothes off, okay? Lay down and I'm going to get in the bed right beside you.

Okay, baby? Mm-hmm. I don't want you to worry about anything.

No, please, baby. I don't want you to worry about that. Right now, the most important thing is you and your well-being.

Everybody else, everything else can wait. Okay? No, you don't have to call work.

No, you don't have to do anything, baby. I don't want you to worry about anything. Give all of your burdens, all of your stress to me, okay? I'm going to take care of you.

I'm going to take care of us. I made a promise and a vow in sickness and health, for better or worse, till death do us part. And I'm in every word of that, so don't worry.

But you trust in me and know that I got you and I got us, okay? I know it's very hard to see right now because of everything that's going on. And how recent the trauma is.

But one day, one day we're going to look back and we're going to smile and say that we got through something that very few people experience. And we bounce back. And we came back harder than ever.

And we're going to have a bond and a connection that's going to be so strong and so unbreakable because of all of the adversities and obstacles that we face together in our relationship and in our marriage. Nothing. Look at me.

Nothing in this world can tear us apart. The only thing that can stop me from loving you is you. I will never give up on you.

I will never give up on us. I will never give up on what we're creating and what we're building. My love for you is always going to be forgiving, patient, gentle, kind, understanding, and everlasting.

You may not know this, but I need you right now as much as you need me. You give me strength, baby. To be able to endure what you just endured.

Oh, my God. I could never imagine. And I won't try to, baby.

But I'm here. I'm so proud of you. And I love you so much.

You made it all the way up to nine months carrying our baby. And you didn't do anything wrong. You know, as life goes on, there's one thing I'm learning to accept.

We don't have any control over anything that happens in life. We like to think that we do, but we really don't have much control. The only thing we control is how we respond to the things that happen to us.

And I'm choosing to respond with love, kindness, gentleness, happiness, and great memories. I can't let what happened and what took place rob me of all the beautiful memories that we experienced throughout the pregnancy. Oh, my God.

We had some great memories. We stayed up all night talking about what it would be like when our little baby girl was gonna be born. How intelligent and smart she was gonna be.

I'll never forget the smile on your face. I'll never forget the light in your eyes, the glow in your heart, the warmth in your smile. That's what I'm choosing to focus on, baby.

That's what I'm choosing to focus on. I'm trying my best to hold it together, but this is really hard. It's really difficult.

And I couldn't imagine what you're going through. I've never been through anything like this. You've never been through anything like this.

We've never been through anything like this. But we do have each other. And one thing I know is I love you with everything that's in me.

Everything that's in me. Everything that's in me. I don't ever want you to feel alone.

I don't want you to ever feel like this was your fault. And I don't want you to ever for one second let it cross your mind that you think that I blame you for this. I love you.

I love you. It's okay. It's okay to cry.

We cry together. Come next to me, please. I'll dry your eyes.

And you dry my eyes. We're brothers. We're teammates.

You know, I'm starting to realize that what we have is more beautiful and greater than anything that I ever could imagine. We're not just friends. We're not just lovers.

We're not just married. We're forever partners. We're soulmates.

You were made for me and I was made for you. Baby. Absolutely.

Absolutely, baby. You would've made a great mom. You're gonna make a great mom.

It's eating me up. And I know you can't help it because everybody grieves differently, right? I don't want to see you do that to yourself.

No. It wasn't your fault. Baby, no.

I don't blame you. I care about you. You're what's most important right now.

You're what's most important right now. I could never hate you. I could never stop loving you.

There's nothing that you can do to make me stop loving you. I refuse to ever stop loving you. The commitment that I made to you is eternal, baby.

You understand? It's eternal. Okay, baby.

It's okay to go to sleep now. I love you so much. Baby.

Baby. It's 3.30 in the afternoon. You've been lying in bed all day.

You haven't eaten anything since yesterday. You haven't taken a shower since we left the hospital. I'm concerned.

I know, baby. I know. I ran your bath water and I made you some lunch.

I'm gonna give you five minutes to get yourself together, okay? And then I'm gonna go bathe you. Come on.

No, it's okay. Is that water too hot? It's just right.

You're so beautiful. I think sometimes I forget how beautiful you are and how lucky I am to have you. Everything about you is beautiful.

I love your eyes. I love your hair. I love your skin tone.

I love how soft your lips are. I love your nose. I love your ears.

Even though I think one's a little bit bigger than the other one. Oh, did I see your smile? Oh, did I see a smile? Oh my God, a smile for the first time in 24 hours.

I think I seen a little smile. There you go, my baby. It's good to see you.

It's good to see you again. I miss that smile. Last night I had a beautiful dream.

I had a dream that you was pushing out our baby girl and she was the most beautiful baby in the world. She had a head full of hair and these puffy cheeks that looked just like you. She had eyes like your mom.

And as the dream continued, I could see us taking her to school on her first day of school. I could see her running track in high school. She was so good, baby.

She got so many medals and she was so smart. I could see her in the 12th grade and she meet a boy and you know I don't like him at all but you tell me to ease up because she likes him a lot and they share their first kiss together. They go to the prom.

She graduates high school and she's off in college and then she falls in love with that same guy. And they get married and we're old and we're gray and we're looking back on our beautiful creation, our happy family and then I wake up from the dream and realize it was all just a dream. That we won't get to experience this, baby.

But I'm holding on to the dream. Maybe it won't happen.