On My Knees (script written by u/Teasedtotears)

Transcript

It was such a simple command. Kneeling for you beside my bed. A ritual for you.

The last thing I do before I sleep. I lower myself to the floor, naked, and set my phone alarm for 30 seconds and set it on the bed. I can feel the roughness of the carpet digging into my knees and the tops of my feet.

The weight of my body now centered on those two spots. I squirm a bit in discomfort before hitting start on the timer. I cross my wrists behind my back as you have instructed.

I imagine your hands cinching rope tightly around my wrists as you've done so many times before, binding me and making me even more vulnerable. I think of your touch, your kiss, but it only reminds me of how very far away you are right now. I bow my head and close my eyes.

Time. It is only 30 seconds, but those seconds are now yours. Time.

It is the only thing we can't make more of. Once it is gone, it is gone forever. It is the most valuable thing I can offer, and I am on my knees offering it to you.

Simply because you told me to. Because it is what you want. I feel my heart racing a bit as I start to feel the seconds drain away.

Such a simple request with such a profound meaning. My life literally draining away to please you. And with each second that passes, I feel more open, exposed, and vulnerable.

I try to keep still, but I have to adjust to myself because the pain in my knees has grown more intense. It's only 30 seconds, I tell myself. 30 seconds that I have given to you and that I can never get back.

I want to feel this way. Giving up something that is valuable and precious for you. I need this.

It is right where I belong. I feel my submission grow deeper and deeper. The desire to exist for another.

To find value and meaning in my sacrifice. To give you what is precious to me. To offer it willingly.

The alarm shocks me back to the moment as it chimes, pulling me back uncomfortably to reality. It has only been 30 seconds, and yet it feels like an eternity. 30 seconds that no longer belong to me.

My gift to you. As I stand, I feel the pain in my knees and feet subside. That was a gift to you, too.

For that time, even though you are far away tonight, I could feel myself with you. Your presence. And my desire to please you grows even more intense.

I am aroused as well. My head is swimming. But now it is done and you are gone.

It hurts a bit, wanting so much more. Aching to feel things and to give more. To be more for you.

It was only 30 seconds. Yet for me, it was so much more.