Older Brother - Advice

Transcript

Alright, so, I know that things haven't been that great, at all, okay? And, I'm not gonna lie to you, because I've lied for Mom and Dad for a very long time, and I just feel like I need to tell you what the world is really like. And, you're not gonna like what I have to say, but I want you to understand that I am telling you these things because I love you, and, you know, we've been through a lot together, with our family, and we don't really talk about these things as much as we should.

The things we've endured, they're not normal. There's this fake idea that some people have perfect lives, and even those that might have the closest thing to a perfect life, well, they have some issues going on, too. And, I know that right now you're thinking about what I'm gonna say, but I need you to listen.

I know that you wish that things were different, and that our parents were different, and that maybe even I were different. And, I want you to understand that that is not bad. I've been in that same spot that you've been, that you are in.

I've been there. I wanted to have a different family, a different mother, a different father, even you. I can't believe I'm saying that, but I said I wasn't gonna lie, and I won't.

I'm not gonna be as vulnerable as I've ever been. I have. Sometimes things seem so bad that I wanted to have a different family, and I didn't want to be here anymore.

But that's something that I feel every single kid goes through, at least at some point in their lives. At least somebody, somewhere, might not feel that way, but I'm pretty sure they at least felt it once, just once, when life got too complicated to understand. Life is complicated.

There are things that we can make simple, but most of it is out of our reach to understand. And you might think that things will get better, and they do. That's a thing.

They do. But then they can always go bad again. I don't.

.. It's just very difficult, you know? But I want you to understand something, okay? It's something that people don't talk about.

Nobody will ever tell you this. So listen to me. As your older brother, listen to me.

You have to look out for yourself. You have to. Nobody else is going to do anything for you.

This world is cruel and harsh, and there are very few people in it who are selflessly, truly good. But even then, to find one of them to help you is nearly impossible. You can't be wishing on someone else's good fortune to help you out, because people aren't like that.

Some people like to make this fantasy that if humans are always good to one another, they're not. They're not. We're selfish, greedy, disgusting creatures.

And I'm here to give you the only help that I know I can give you, which is the truth. That is what it's like. Don't ever trust anybody except yourself.

You can trust some people with specific things, but the really important things are with your soul. Your life. You can't trust anybody.

You might be thinking I'm saying just some bullshit because I've been drinking a little bit, but no. I'm not. I wish it were, but I'm not.

This is the way it is. This is the way it is. And the only thing I can give you to prepare you for that is to tell you straight up, to tell you the truth.

Because I love you and I haven't been there for you. I haven't been the older brother that I should have been. So I want you to have this.

I want you to have what I wish someone had told me. That I wanted to help you. Alright? Alright.

Well. Um. Yeah.

I'm gonna go. Do you need anything? I was just gonna go to the kitchen again.

Is there anything I can get for you? No? Alright.

And don't stop fucking taking my shirts, please. Stop fucking taking them. Just don't take them.

Okay? Don't. I'll see you tomorrow.