Nothing to Be Afraid Of

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So, do you wanna stay here tonight? Do you wanna go to your place? What do you wanna do? Okay, do you have a preference or? Okay, if you wanna just go home, that's fine.

Yeah, I just thought we were gonna, you know, do stuff. Yeah, and the last few times we've been spending the whole night, so. But no, if you wanna go, if you have things to do, go ahead, I'm good.

Maybe we'll text tomorrow and figure out another time. What do you mean you don't know? Okay.

I'm gonna go out on a limb here and say there's something bothering you. Well, normally, when we arrange for a meetup like this, you're barely in the door before you have my clothes off. So, this is a little different.

Are you feeling okay? Like, are you sick? Are you getting sick? No, okay.

Um, you're being kind of cold and I don't know what to do with that. Did I do something? I mean, last time you were here, we had a great night.

We had sex pretty much all night and then went to sleep together and you kissed me when you left. You never do that. And then now, it's been like days since I even heard from you and now we're supposed to be doing this and you're acting like this and wanting to leave.

So, did I do something? Did something change that I'm not aware of? Scared.

Of what? What are you scared of? Um, yeah, I do wanna know.

That's why I asked. If you wanna be done with this, if there's something about this that bothers you, I need to know. I mean, we can go back to just being casual friends the way we were before we started fooling around.

If that's not what you want, then what is? I'm trying to figure this out. I'm trying to help you tell me something.

I don't know, but you're kind of worrying me right now. You're. ..

Oh. You're right, that wasn't part of the deal. Feelings were never supposed to be part of it.

Is that what's happening then? You're starting to feel things? Um.

What does that mean? Well, that's a four-letter word, isn't it? Didn't expect that one.

Are you worried I won't feel the same? Because just between you and me, you probably don't need to worry about that. Well, if that's not it, what is it? Um, that's right.

Love does tend to bring a level of vulnerability with it. That's what you're scared of. What? Weak? How does being in love with somebody make you weak? You've been like really put through the ringer, haven't you? I don't think we've ever really talked about that, but if you think being in love with someone is a weakness and it gives them the ability to destroy you, then you've been doing it wrong.

Yeah. Well, yeah, when things like that go sideways, it hurts. Of course it does, but I mean, do you avoid everything that hurts just because it hurts or everything that could possibly hurt just because it could hurt?

Well, that's, I mean, I get it though. I mean, I do. If you've had bad experiences, then yeah, it makes sense.

Being in love is intense and it's terrifying, but it's supposed to be in a good way. Yeah. Okay.

I've been feeling the same way and I think that's why things were so different last time you were here. And it is scary. The unknown is always scary.

Change is always scary, but love shouldn't be. I can be there with you to work through that if you want. I mean, all cards on the table, I was starting to see long-term here, not just friends with benefits, but real, something so much more than that.

And I think we complement each other really well and we're great on our own. We're both independent and strong and capable and all of those things, but I think together we could be even more. I don't want you to be afraid of this though.

I mean, a little is normal, but not to the point where you're completely withdrawing from me, where you don't even wanna be around me. That's just inviting the hurt that doesn't need to be there, right? I'll just say it, I wanna be with you.

Yeah. And I know now that you want the same thing, you're just not ready yet. So we can leave it unsaid for now and just proceed with caution, I guess, until we're comfortable.

I think it's worth the wait. It's worth taking the time to get comfortable with this and to really embrace it, don't you? Well, that's the first smile I've seen since you got here, so I'm guessing that's a good thing.

Yeah. Yeah, we can do what you came here to do. Are you okay? You sure? Yeah, me too.

It is different. It does feel different, doesn't it? I wanna make sure that you're really okay, so hold still a minute.

I am getting on my knees. You like it when I'm on my knees. So do I.

Let's just get these pants out of the way. Mm-hmm. This is what I wanted to do when we set up this little get-together.

Mm-hmm. I love feeling your cock grow on my tongue and my mouth. And the way you're looking at me right now, that's different too, isn't it? Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm. No, I don't think we need words. I think we need action.

So let me show you. Mm. Mm.

Mm-hmm. Mm, getting there. Mm-hmm.

Mm. This is what we did the first time we hooked up. I'm pretty sure that's what led to the hooking up, isn't it? Mm-hmm.

Oh, and your friend just randomly drops to her knees and pulls out your cock and starts sucking on it. Yeah, things change. There we go.

Mm, so good. Mm, mm. Mm.

Usually you're watching me intently because of how turned on you are, but this doesn't look like that. Mm. Oh.

Fair. Mm. Mm-mm.

Mm. Mm. You're starting to relax, starting to feel a little bit better.

I do like doing this, I told you. The first time I ever felt your cock on my tongue was like pure bliss. Mm-hmm.

Mm. The only thing better is the first time you ever put it in me. Mm-hmm.

Mm. You want me to get up, why? Mm.

Okay. Why don't you come down here? Yeah, we haven't done it on the floor in a while.

Carpet's soft, as we have discovered. Mm-hmm. Take off our clothes.

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I can feel your cock against my stomach. Mm. Yeah.

Yeah, I want you on top of me. Mm. Mm.

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Mm. I do feel you between my legs. That's where you should be.

That's where I want you. Mm. Mm.

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Mm. Does that not feel absolutely glorious to you? Let's slide inside me.

You usually close your eyes when you do this because it feels so good. Now you're just watching me. Mm.

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Yeah, move. Oh, I love the way you're cradling me right now, holding me so tightly while you move inside me, mm. Mm.

Will you give us both what we want? Mm. Oh.

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I'm building. It's so good. Are you okay? You're just looking at me.

You have a really intense look on your face. Mm. Mm.

What? You weren't kidding before, were you? Okay.

No, no, no, no, no. No, it's not a problem that you said it. I'm trying to process.

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I like hearing it. I love you, too. Of course I do.

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If I didn't, I would have let you walk out of here and not given a shit that you were having a problem, clearly. You're important to me and how you feel is important to me kind of like I love that cock going in and out of me right now. It's the perfect rhythm.

Oh, your weight on me just makes it feel so much better. Yeah. Yeah.

Mm. Mm. Yeah, we can do the more extreme, kinkier things later, but for right now, let's just do this.

Let's just make love instead of have sex, okay? Oh. You twitched.

Ah. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Yeah. It's so good.

Mm. It feels like my whole body is building to an orgasm. Not just my pussy.

Oh. Mm. Ah.

I love how you feel me. I love how you feel inside me. It's like your cock was made for me.

It's perfect. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Yeah.

I like that you're speeding up. Oh, good. Yes.

Yes. Yes. Ah.

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Ah. Every time you say that, my pussy clenches. I love you, too.

Ah. Ah. Mm.

It's not scary. It's so good. It feels just as right as your cock in me right now.

No. No. Yeah.

I'm gonna come. I wanna come all over you. I want you to come with me, okay? I can feel your clothes.

Your balls are tightening up against me. And your cock is getting bigger inside me. It's swelling.

Mm. Ah. Ah.

Yes, come with me, please. Please. Ah.

Ah. Yeah. Yeah.

Ah. Ah. Don't break eye contact.

Keep looking at me. Mm. Mm.

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Mm. Yes. I love you.

Feel me, please. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Ah. Ah.

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I feel it. I feel it. Yes, I feel you pumping.

Fuck. Do you feel me squeezing you? Ah.

Ah. Ah. Slow down.

Ah. Yeah, just work that cock in me. Mm.

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Oh, that's so good. Fuck, so good. Ah.

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Huh. Huh. Huh.

Huh. Oh. Mm.

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Mm. Mm. I love you too.

Yeah, it's not just the sex talking. Mm-mm. Mm.

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Mm. See, not so scary. Is it? Mm-mm.

No, we'll figure it out together. I mean, we know the sex is good, so. Yeah.

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Mm. Mm. I love you.

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Mm. Yeah. We'll worry about the rest of it later.