No Touch Diaries: Day 26-30

Transcript

Okay, it's five minutes to midnight. It is September 30th, 2023, and I, Faye Sinclair, have successfully completed a 30-day no-touch challenge. 30 days.

720 hours. I mean, how many minutes is that? I'm going to look it up.

30 days is 43,200 minutes. And because I'm dramatic, 2,592,000 seconds. I'm not the type of person who needs to get off every day.

I'm not even the type of person who thinks about getting off every day. There are some weeks where I hardly think of it at all, even with my chosen creative outlet. But the last couple of days, I have been just dying for this moment.

If I had to go longer, I could. But honestly, I can't see a world where I would need to go longer than 30 days. I did my hair today, so I'm already tired.

But I feel fresh and clean. I'm so. ..

You know, while I haven't had a lot of, for lack of a better term, engagement during this time, I've still had a lot of fun. For the most part, I didn't notice a large difference in my day-to-day. Alone, the first week was the hardest.

And then I had a brief resurgence of desperation, I think around day 12 or 13, I can't remember. And then there was that one hands-free orgasm. It feels like it was so long ago.

And I had a lot of hours when I was just, you know, watching videos or listening to snippets of audios. And it was difficult, it really was, to maintain. But there were only a handful of days when it was truly, honestly difficult.

The first seven days were actually not bad, after the initial adjustment. I don't know why I said the seven days were the hardest, because they weren't, they were the easiest. It was the days 10 to 15 that were the hardest.

I'm so sorry. I'm high, and I'm very distracted. I am so distracted.

Because, what time is it? It is 11.59. Holy shit.

Okay, okay. It's 11.59, which means that in just a few seconds, I'll be free to do whatever I want with this ache between my legs. Five, four, three, two, one.

Ah, yes. I did it. I did it, I did it.

On the East Coast, at least, it is October 1st. I've done it. Willpower isn't that hard for a person who's used to exercising it.

You know, growing up repressed as fuck, you kind of learn to tamp down your base urges. Especially if you share a space, it's kind of, you have to get good at it. Someone asked me, like, oh, I don't even know how you do it.

How do you do it? Honestly, you just write it out. You acknowledge what you're feeling.

Ignoring it makes it worse. You acknowledge the hunger. You acknowledge what it's doing to your body, but you make a conscious decision not to do anything about it.

And it's a difficult decision most days. But you can choose to do it if you feel like it. I know a lot of people were like, what the hell is the point of this challenge? Like, why would you intentionally deny yourself? And I think I might write something about it, but I did write a thread not too long ago before I started the challenge, detailing why I enjoy it so much.

I wonder if I can find it. Let me see. Let me see if I can find it.

Okay. Aha! Here it is, here it is, here it is.

Why I like no-touch challenges very, very much. A thread. Number one, excitement.

These challenges break up my routine, heighten my awareness of my body and desire, increase my sensitivity to stimulation, and invite me to explore my body outside of that one erogenous zone. Number two, delayed gratification. It's a hell of a high, extremely underrated in my opinion, and I personally get a lot of pleasure from that exquisite torture of not yet.

Number three, confidence. Keeping promises to myself makes me feel strong and powerful. This may be silly to some, but these challenges remind me that I'm in control of my actions and that my willpower is a force to be reckoned with.

Number four, spectacle. What can I say? I love to put on a good show and I like giving you all something to talk about.

You love it too. Look how many comments were on my post less than 24 hours in. You want me to suffer and share that suffering every step of the way.

Kinky. And number five, the payoff. When it's over, after so many days, the payoff is unforgettable.

Phase triumph, anyone? It's a powerful enough feeling to make me want to do it all over again. Some folks will never get excited at the idea of using self-imposed celibacy as a part of their sex life.

That's okay. But I promise, I'm doing this for my own pleasure, not punishment. I hope this clears up my reasons for ya.

And thread. I hope that clears things up. Like I said, there's an ache between my legs right now.

Besides cleaning myself in the shower, I haven't touched down there at all. And of course, the bathroom. But you knew that.

But there's been no anything, no attention. And now I'm just painfully aware of that fact. But it's past midnight.

I suppose that means there's nothing stopping me from. .. Should I? Should I? I have barely brushed my fingertips over my panties and I'm like, and I'm shaking.

I'm so sensitive, I'm so sensitive, I'm so, I'm not even, oh my god, this is embarrassing. Oh my god, fuck, fuck, I can't, I can't talk, I haven't even, I've just brushed, my finger, I'm using my middle finger, brushing up and down the slit, oh my god, I'm just, I'm not used, I'm not used to it anymore, okay, okay, okay, I'm putting my hand down my, my panties. Oh my god, it's almost too much, it's almost too much, I haven't, I gotta, I gotta go, I gotta go, I gotta go, I gotta go, I gotta go, I am non-verbal, I'm, I'm non-verbal right now and holy fuck, it's almost, it's almost too much, it's like I can't even, I haven't even been able to touch my clit yet, I'm so sensitive, I'm gonna need to take this slow, but I've officially touched myself, officially the challenge has come to an end, I've done it, now I have, I need to get reacquainted with myself, I just got verified on Gone Wild Audio not too long ago, so expect something in October now that I'm allowed to make some authentic sounds, oh wow, this was, this was an interesting month, wasn't it?

Thank you so much for being here with me, oh man, I so look forward to the next time I have an audio diary, but I don't know if I'll be doing a no-touch challenge anytime soon, this was, I feel like I've done enough this month, oh man, I don't even know if I'm making sense, that was such a strange sensation, I'm gonna have to revisit it in a little bit, I gotta just remove the fan noise as much as possible from this audio and then I'll share it with you, whoever you are, I hope you enjoyed it, and don't worry, I am absolutely going to make sure I come very soon, well that's all for the no-touch challenge, buh-bye.