Making the Right Choice

Transcript

I know I'm the last person you expected to see, and I'm sorry that it's come to that. Yeah, I'm aware that our last conversation wasn't a good one, and that I said some not so nice things to you. It wasn't my intention to hurt you, and it wasn't my intention to humiliate you.

I didn't know you were going to say what you said. I didn't know you were going to tell me how you felt. I had just started seeing him, and that was all I could see.

And then my best friend's standing there telling me that he's been in love with me for years. I didn't know what to do with it, and I handled it really badly. And for that, I'm sorry.

You have no idea how sorry. Yeah, I have been staying away and avoiding everything to do with you. Intentionally.

I should have apologized before now, but I didn't know how. I didn't want to do it wrong and make it worse. The thing is, ever since you told me what you told me, I've been caught between two minds.

And I don't know what to do with that. On one hand, I had this new guy that I was thinking I was falling for. I could see myself falling for.

He was practically perfect, you know? He had the intelligence and the personality and the good job and all the friends. My parents loved him.

And he was a nice guy. He was lovely to me, treated me nicely. And I thought, you know what? This guy could be my happily ever after.

He could. And that's what I was fully anticipating going ahead with when you dropped that bomb on me. But then I saw it differently.

And I didn't want to see it differently. I didn't. I didn't want to see that.

I didn't want to see my perfect little world completely turned on its head. Yeah, I know I'm not superficial. I know I'm not shallow.

But I felt like it. The reason you're my best friend is because you're unlike anybody I've ever known in my life. You challenge me.

You make me think. You make me laugh, unlike anybody else. And when I get too serious, you force me out of my own head.

There's a lot to be said for being that person to somebody, you know? And I had to ask myself, if I was going to spend my life with somebody, was he going to be able to be that person for me? As time went on, and I spent more and more time with him, getting to know him, seeing how my relationship with him evolved, I realized that would never be a thing.

And it made me miss you even more, in a completely different way. You're just staring at me, like you're waiting for me to puke or something. It's almost a horrified expression on your face.

I had to get myself together. I had to figure out what I wanted and where I was at. But I did.

And I ended it. I had to. It's all good on paper and treats you nice, being a nice guy.

It's all well and good. But there has to be more than that. There has to be something below the surface, you know? And there just wasn't.

The only reason I know that there wasn't, and that there never could be, was because I already had below the surface. I already had that with you. And I was too fucking stupid to see it.

But I see it now. Okay, it's your turn. You can say something now.

Staring at me is getting a little disconcerting. I know. I know it hurt.

And I'm so sorry. Well, I can't do anything but apologize. What do you want from me? What do you want me to say? Tell me what you want me to say and I'll say it.

Yeah, I fucked up. Yeah, I made the wrong choice. That's what I'm telling you.

Yeah. I missed you. I missed you so much it made me physically hurt everywhere.

It was an ache that I just couldn't get rid of. It was gnawing in the back of my head. Is that what you wanted to hear? Yeah, I did.

Of course I slept with him. I thought I was going to end up with him. No.

There was no fire. No passion. It was nice, but it wasn't anything to write home about.

Let's just put it that way. And not through any fault of his. There's just sometimes not chemistry, you know? Do you really want to hear about that? You're being a little bit masochistic.

Well, I don't know if there would be with us. I would imagine. Because everything with us is so much deeper.

So much more real. You said that, yeah. You said that you want to be with me that way.

You were very clear about that. Yeah, it is something I've thought about. How do you think about being with somebody in a relationship and not think about that? So, yeah.

Okay, bottom line, I fucked up. I made the wrong choice. And now I'm making the right one.

If you'll let me. If there hasn't been too much damage. I didn't see what I had right in front of me when I had it.

And now I do. And I'm really hoping it's not too late to make the right choice. You still smell like you.

I missed that smell. Yeah, it's comforting. It's home.

Your home. Does that mean it's not too late? Oh, thank God.

Yeah, I'm relieved. I was panicking all the way over here. I'm wondering what I would have to do to prove to you that I was serious.

That I meant it. That I was a complete fucking idiot. I wondered if you'd say that again.

I was hoping you would, but I didn't think it'd be today. It makes me feel warm everywhere when you say that. It's so weird what three little words can do.

I love you too. In case it wasn't obvious. I want to do something.

And it's probably completely off the wall and completely out of character, but I don't care. Do you trust me? Okay.

Hold still, okay? Yeah, I'm on my knees. And I'm going to take these pants down.

What do you mean, what am I doing? Well, I'm not baking cookies, that's for sure. What do you think I'm doing? Your cock is about two inches from my mouth, and you're asking what I'm doing.

It's a very silly question. Well, I wanted to show you how much I care, and how much chemistry we have. And I thought that this would be a good way to do that.

I know I don't have to, I want to. Mm-hmm. I love you.

I'm going to worship you. The way you deserve. This is such an amazing cock.

I guess it is mine now, isn't it? Just like I'm all yours. Mm-hmm.

You look so happy right now. And I'm pretty sure it's not just because my mouth is on you. Although, it has something to do with it.

Again. Mm-hmm. I do love you.

Does it sound different when I say it with your cock in my mouth? Yeah? Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm. The way you're running your hands through my hair right now feels really good. So gentle.

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

I do enjoy this. Because it's yours. Mm-hmm.

It's the most perfect penis I've ever seen. Mm-hmm. And the fact that you're watching me is turning me on.

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

Oh, that's quite the smile. Oh, mm. Oh, slow and sensual.

Oh, mm. Take my time. Savor you.

Enjoy every lick. Every suck. Every taste.

Mm. The first time, first of many. Mm.

Oh, the ear cock is in my mouth. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Ah.

Ah. No, it doesn't have to be fast and aggressive to make you come. Ah.

Mm-mm. If you're close, you're close. I'm good with that.

I want you to come. Mm-hmm. I want you to give it to me.

All of it. Oh. I love you.

Oh. And I love seeing you happy. And I love that you're all mine.

Mm. So by extension, this cock is all mine. Which means your cum is all mine.

Ah. And I'm looking forward to tasting it. Oh.

Mm. Mm. Just swallowing every drop for you.

Mm. Oh. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. You like that tongue? You like that tongue? Mm-hmm.

On that little spot. Mm. Ah.

I know you do. I love you too. Mm.

I love you. I want you to come for me. Oh.

I want you to fill my mouth. Mm. Let this perfect cock explode for me.

Please. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. You can thrust, please do.

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Mm-hmm. Let go. Mm-hmm.

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Mm. I love you. Keep coming.

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Wow. Mm. Mm.

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Well, that was perfect. Here, I'm just gonna put your pants back up. There we go.

Yeah. Mm. Mm.

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Mm-hmm. You look happy. Ha ha ha.

Me too. I do love you. And I am sorry that I put you through that.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

But I know where I wanna be. And I know who I wanna be with. And it's you.

There isn't another choice. So. ..

Mm. I know what's below the surface here. And it's everything I've ever wanted.

You are everything I've ever wanted. Mm. Mm.

Mm. I love you. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Mm-hmm. Mm. I'm glad to hear that.

Mm. Ah. Mm-hmm.

I think we have some time to make up for.