[M4F] I Loved You Then And I Love You Now

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Oh, hey, hey. There you are. Um, so, you must be pretty shocked to see me here.

Um, I didn't mean to just show up like that, but, ah, shit. I've thought about this moment a thousand times and now you're standing here in front of me, I've forgotten everything I wanted to fucking say. Um, yeah, I've been sitting here for a while, not sure how long, but rain's crazy tonight.

Thank God I thought about packing an umbrella. I saw you getting out of the Uber. We were out with friends.

That sounds fun. You look amazing. Wow.

Okay, you're right. I shouldn't say stuff like that. It's just, it's been two years and you're still the most beautiful woman I've ever seen.

I'm sorry that I'm making things weird. Look, I just didn't expect my brain to fucking short-circuit like this, like it's. ..

Um, Leah gave me your address. Okay, please, please don't be mad at her. I had to do a lot of apologizing and begging to get her to even listen to me and not hang up the phone.

I'm genuinely terrified of that woman. She'd go to the end of the world for you. Don't even want to think about what she'll do to me if I screw this up again.

But I'm glad you had a best friend like her by your side this whole time, you know what I mean? Um, right, I still haven't answered why I'm here. Sorry.

So, I saw you at the grocery store today. I, I know that sounds crazy as fuck, but I promise it was a total coincidence. As soon as I saw you, I ran away because I was fucking scared.

But I couldn't stop thinking about you all day. You looked happy. It's probably just wishful thinking, but maybe this is the universe's way, very weird way of telling us that it's time for us to talk about everything that happened, you know?

That we're both ready to meet again, maybe? You know, since you blocked me everywhere, which I totally understand, not, no shade or anything like that, but my only choice was to ask your friends how to get in contact with you, you know what I mean? And, and thankfully, I could somehow convince Leah to give me your address, which was, you know, whatever.

The rain's picking up. Uh, come, come here. I don't want you to get wet.

Shit, I didn't, I didn't mean to pull you in like that. I'm, I'm sorry. You're still wearing the same perfume.

I've always loved it on you. The smell reminds me of home. Okay, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry.

Hmm? No, no, no, we don't, we don't have to go upstairs. We can, we can stay here.

I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable. Are you sure? Yeah, I'm okay.

If you're cool with it, it's probably better to get out of the rain anyway. Don't want you to get sick. Lead the way.

Oh shit, this is a nice ass apartment. Always figured you'd be closer to an interior designer than I was. Um, shit, the only thing I contributed to our last apartment were light strips and a switch.

Home entertainment, I guess. Yeah, I guess those make some pretty fun nights together, huh? No, I don't need anything.

Thank you. I probably should make this quick anyway. Like, you know, it's late and I don't want to keep you from bed any longer or nothing like that, but I just thought it was finally time that you heard this from me directly, not like innuendos from friends or suggestions or random ass TikToks or whatever, but okay.

First and foremost, I'm sorry for everything, you know. You were right. I loved you back then.

I loved you more than I was able to understand at the time and it scared the living fuck out of me, fuck out of me. So I put up this weird front because I thought that was the best way to deal with all of it, but all I did was hurt us both. I'm so fucking sorry for putting you through that.

I shouldn't have disrespected you and our friendship like this, but like, to be honest, I knew I made a mistake the second you walked out of the door that day and it felt wrong to chase after you without dealing with my shit beforehand, you know what I mean? So you don't deserve some lukewarm, half-assessed love or mixed feelings and hesitancy. You should be with someone who could give you their all, you know what I'm saying? And I wasn't ready for that.

That's on me and I made other people suffer because of these insecurities and ultimately what happened between us finally made me realize there was a lot I had to work on, you know what I mean? Like not just for you, but for myself, like just growing as an individual. Yeah, I did, you know, I put in the work.

It wasn't always fun, but I needed it. I mean, growing and learning never fully stops, but I feel much better now, yes. And I have you to thank for that.

I just wish I didn't have to make you suffer to realize that I can go, can't go on the way that I did, you know what I mean? What are you doing? Your lips taste so good.

Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. What about your husband? Yeah, I can admit I don't like the guy, like at all, but we can't just keep making the same mistakes, you know?

Your, your husband, Leah told me you got married to crypto bro. You know, the, the guy you were with last time we saw each other. Why are you looking at me like I lost my, there's literally a ring on your finger.

What are you talking about? I mean, I'm glad that I could still make you laugh, but what the fuck is going on? Come on, stop, stop laughing and tell me.

Yeah, I, I figured Leah hates me, but that's, that's been well established. I could have got that myself. What does that have to do with this? Are you serious? If she only said that to fuck with me, then why are you wearing a wedding ring? What? What are you talking about? Holy shit.

The lengths women will go through just to fend off weirdos is insane. You know what? So you're just wearing the ring when you're out with friends and don't want anyone to, okay, that makes, that makes sense.

Okay. I'm, I'm here now. Cool.

Well, not really, but you know what I mean? No husband or wife. Then what about a partner in general? What I'm, I'm just, I'm just making small talk, you know? Um, nah, I'm single.

The last few years I wasn't open to anything. So, um, I guess you could say that I'm more open now. Maybe if the right person came along, but to be honest, it would be hard for anyone new since I've already found my person.

Oh, you can't even imagine. She's amazing. I've never, I've never met someone like her before.

My first love. Yeah. She kind of stumbled into my life one day and we became friends instantly.

I could just be me around her and without the fear of being judged, you know, opening up to people wasn't something that came naturally to me, but everything just felt so easy with her, you know, even falling in love with her was just easy, you know? I mean, you, falling in love with you was easy. I can't answer that question because it would be unfair to just drop that on you.

You know, I'm not, I'm not here to tell you that I love you. I came here to tell you that I'm sorry for what happened and that nothing of it was your fault. You know, I owe you that at the very least.

So yes, I also owe you complete honesty, but it's been two years. I can't just walk in here and say, Hey, I love you. Please forget about everything that happened and be mine.

It just doesn't feel right to do that. Like what kind of selfish, what kind of selfish? Ah, you're not gonna let this go, are you? Glad to see you haven't changed.

Still stubborn as fuck. And you still know me better than anyone. I swear to God, you mean like an open book, whatever.

Yeah. Yeah. Don't act, don't act dumb.

You know what I mean by that? Yes. I still love you.

I don't think I could ever stop loving you. If soulmates really are a thing, then you're mine. You've been on my mind every single day for the past two years.

You know, you always better hide in your feelings. Hmm. I don't know.

I might be talking about that huge smile on your face for one. Yes, baby is huge. Huge.

Light up a football field with that beam. I think I know what that reaction means, but I would love to hear you say, you know, just to be sure, you know? I mean, only if you want.

I understand that the last time you told me about your feelings didn't end well. That must have made you cautious for some reason. We couldn't just stop talking about the- way you do.

Fuck, you don't know how good it feels to hear you say those words. Oh, oh, no, I'm not. I'm not running this time.

That's the last thing on my mind right now. Get over here, baby. I love you.

I love you so fucking much. And I'm sorry that it took me so long to say this. Mm-mm.

Sorry, I got a- I got a bit lost there for a second. Are you- you sure you want to take this further? We don't have to.

Yeah, yeah, I'm- I'm more than sure. I swear, most of the time, my thoughts about you were very wholesome. But I can't lie, I've almost always missed having a good- having my good girl look up at me like this.

Yeah, you've missed Daddy too. Don't worry, I'm here now and I won't leave again. Daddy's gonna take care of you.

Let me take your clothes off. Arms up. Good girl.

As much as I love these pants and panties, they'll need to go too. Oh, and this thing. We definitely won't need that anymore.

I don't care if it's real or fake. My girl won't be running around with a wedding ring on her finger. Unless I'm the one who gave it to her.

What? Are you not my girl? Yeah, you are.

You always were. But let's make it official. Will you do me the honor- Will you do me the honor of being my girlfriend? Baby? Baby? Okay, I know I deserve it, but please don't leave me hanging like that.

I'll beg, no problem. Do I need to beg? I'll beg right now, hands and knees.

Please, please be my girlfriend. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I can kneel. Is that a yes? Thank God.

Yeah, I was definitely gonna kneel in front of you. Let my fucking pride get in the way of being with you again. Not anymore.

You know what? I think you were actually onto something with that, though. Let me go down there and worship you the way you deserve.

Yeah, you're just as beautiful as I remember, you know that? Heck, even more than that, fuck. Our memories can never compete with the real you.

They can never compete with touching, smelling, or kissing the real you. Mmm, and how I miss kissing these gorgeous eyes. I need to make up for all the lost time, the time loss.

Let me kiss you here. Here. And here.

All the way up to that beautiful pussy. Lean against the wall, baby. And put your leg over my shoulder like that, like that.

Good girl, I'm so proud of you. I can't wait any longer, baby. Daddy needs to taste you.

Mmm, fuck, baby, you smell so good. And you taste even better. Let's start with a few slow licks.

Mmm, yeah, you like that? I wanna hear you, baby. Come on, move for daddy.

Mmm, you're already so wet for me. But how about mixing some of my juices in there, huh? Wow, what a view, baby.

Such a sloppy pussy. I think it's my time to show that little clit some love, yeah? You want me to move my tongue like this? I'd rather suck on it.

Well, that's my answer. Mmm, yeah, you can have my fingers. Let's give this pretty pussy what she wants, yeah? Oh, fuck, that's it, baby.

Squeeze them nice and tight, baby. You still remember the rules? That's right, daddy wants you to come.

So what you're gonna do now is. ..