[M4F] Experimental Therapy

Transcript

Let's see here, right on time, just like usual. Welcome. Sit down.

Well, uh, feels like it's been a while now. That's a good two weeks, right? You went off on a holiday, didn't you? Well, I hope that was something you needed.

Well, not that. .. I didn't hope that you needed it, but I hope it fulfilled whatever you needed.

That's what I meant. Well, last time we talked about. ..

Let me check my notes, just so I don't misinform you here. Last time we talked about some of the underlying things that you've been experiencing throughout growing up and in your adult relationships and the fact that you're struggling with letting go and being intimate with your partners and that you've been putting up this shield around you and that's caused you harm in a sort of self-destructive way in seeking relationships in your adult years. So what you're trying to do mostly is focus, at least right now mostly, we're steering into the thought of lowering your guard while maintaining your feeling of safety and autonomy.

So there's this. .. I'll call it experimental method.

It's not really all that experimental. It's. ..

I guess I can call it more alternative. It's been around for. ..

As long as this has been a thing, it's been used for this, I'll just talk about the benefits first and I'll present to you what it is. How does that sound? Okay.

So bear with me. This method is. ..

First of all, I'll just say it is not something that we typically prescribe. It is not legal to prescribe this due to the potential ethical exploits that could happen. Although it is also one of those things where if it works and if you just execute it properly, it can be so wonderful.

Just like with some drug trials that can end up badly if not controlled, this can also end up badly if not controlled. So you would need to do this with someone you trust and someone who has your best interests in mind, which is why sometimes a therapist would be a good fit in my opinion, in my professional opinion, of course. But you just can't do this to just anyone.

Okay. I'll say what it is. Are you familiar with BDSM? Gink.

Submission. This is what we're getting into. Please bear with me.

There's a variant within all of this where the focus is on completely giving yourself to another person. What I mean by this is that you would relinquish all control, all autonomy. You would not even be able to say no or exit or stop the treatment as it's happening.

You would have to commit fully. Obviously, this requires a lot of trust, and I know this sounds very scary. The benefit though is that you do practice relinquishing control.

My hypothesis is that this would allow you to lower your guard and feel in control almost paradoxically. By relinquishing control, afterwards or during, you end up feeling like you are in fact in control and that this should give you the confidence to pursue intimate relationships with other partners, not necessarily with this submissive kink involved, but just in general. What I want to do is try to help you relinquish control.

I believe that you have the ability to do that. I know sometimes you don't believe in yourself that you could, but how long have we been doing this? About one and a half years? I think you're ready for this, and I think I could give this to you.

We'll start off softly first, but what this is, it's a verbal contract. I am saying that I want you to submit to me, give all of yourself, your body, your attention, your obedience, all of it, even your confidence, your self-worth, and trust me with it. I'll take it from you, and I'll hold it, and I'll give it back to you afterwards.

But in the meantime, I want you to feel that you can let go, and you've talked about having some submissive tendencies and some lust for being degraded and being controlled, so I think this should be right up your alley. What do you say? Would you want to do this? Once you say yes, there's no going back.

We have to finish it once we start. You're willing to try? I'll take that as an unequivocal yes, then.

Why don't you lay back on the sofa, and I'll come over to you. I want you to forget that you're a confident person. Whatever confidence you've got left, it's all mine now.

I'm taking it. Whatever self-worth you have, I'm taking that too. Is that understood? I'm taking it, and I'm taking care of it.

I'm storing it away, but you need to be stripped of these things. You need to let go. Those are just distractions.

You need to feel what it's like to have let go of those things. Close your eyes. I'm going to get up here.

Can you feel me touching your shin? Stroking my fingers up over your knee and up your thigh. Over your hip and up your belly.

Let me circle around a few times. I can feel you breathing with your stomach. Your poor body is working so hard right now.

It's probably not even conscious. You're just fighting away all the things that you've learned to defend, but you need to unlearn it. I'm going to keep touching you.

You're going to feel violated. You're going to feel helpless. You're going to feel maybe like you regret this at some point, but you know it is going to come to an end, and I will give back everything that I've held for you.

You just need to let go for a little while. Trust me with it. I'm going to keep touching.

I'm going to go back over your tummy, over your pubic mound. We don't have all that much time today, so I'm going to get this over with, and next time we can book in a double session if you'd like. Can you feel me pressing down on your cunt? I'm going to keep rubbing.

Just lay there and let me violate you. Let me take you. Get taken.

Let yourself be. You have no control anymore of your body. You have no autonomy.

You have no self-worth. You have no confidence. I have those.

You just let me do what I want. Let me do my work. You're just a medium for me to do my work on, and you need to let go.

So let go of your pride. Let go of that sense of wrong. Let go of shame.

Let go of your guard. Let me in. I'm going to get my fingers inside your panties now.

How nice and warm you feel here. I bet this is making you feel all sorts of good, isn't it? It is for me too.

If you open your eyes, which you're not allowed to, but if you open your eyes, you could see how hard I am. I enjoy this too. And just because I'm professional doesn't mean I don't like this.

I'm going to get a finger inside now. You feel nice inside. Let me just get both fingers in now.

Can you feel me rubbing up against your spot? It feels good, doesn't it? You told me it's been a while since you've had a couple of man hands inside you.

I bet this is doing it for you, isn't it? You're a pathetic whore. Going to a therapist to get laid? That's quite pathetic.

I fingered two patients before you today. I washed my hands, of course. I'm getting lots of practice in these days.

Okay, you just relax. Bow your head back. Focus on your breathing.

Focus on me violating you inside. I'm inside you. I'm taking all of you.

I'm taking your bodily autonomy. I'm taking your guard. I'm taking your feeling of safety.

I'm taking your honor. I'm taking your self-worth. I'm taking your confidence.

I'm taking your shame. You just let me take it. Leave it.

Be bare. Fuck. Okay.

I need to. .. I need to be inside you with my cock.

You ready? I'm not going to fuck you until I come. But I am going to fuck you.

We don't have the time yet. I'm entering you now. You just keep closing your eyes.

I see you prepared your cunt thoroughly with my fingers. Oh. You just lay there.

Let me do the work. We only have a minute. Just a minute.

Next time. I'm going to book a double session. I'm going to finish this.

I'm going to repeat this a few more times. Just kidding. You feeling that submission yet? You're letting go.

Properly. You need to be bare.