[M4A] Argument With Boyfriend

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Baby? Baby? Where are you? Hello? Where the fuck are you, baby? Listen, I don't have fucking time for this.

I'm so fucking tired. What is this? Listen, I don't have fucking time for this.

I'm so fucking tired. Where are you, baby? In the bedroom? Have you still not gotten out of bed? You're still in bed? Oh, my God.

I've had a full workday, and you're just still, I don't know, what are you doing? Browsing your phone? Brain rotting yourself again? I've told you a thousand times before, this is unhealthy.

Stop doing that. Maybe a little bit is fine, but you're fucking addicted. I'm so sick of it.

You're just wasting all of your days just fucking scrolling social media, not doing anything. Meanwhile, I'm out working my fucking ass off in a job that I hate just so you can what? Lay here? No, I don't care about your fucking excuses this time.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know them all. You keep saying that. It's difficult to find a job.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's difficult to get yourself to do something. Yeah, I know you're depressed.

Fuck you. You know what? Fuck you, yeah.

I said it. I'm so sick of this complaining and whining. Why can't you just, you know, get up, grab a cup of coffee or something, look for a job, and, you know, don't give up after ten fucking minutes?

Do something with your days. I'm so sick of this. Did you at least make some dinner? Is there something in the fridge I can heat up or something? No? What? Have you not even eaten? Baby, I'm home late.

I worked overtime today. I know we're struggling. And you can't even be bothered to just, you know, do the bare minimum for me.

I fucking hate this life. I hate this life so much, and I hate that you're so comfortable, that you've settled for this, that you're not even bothered to make improvements, to do anything to get out of this, to help me. You're just fine with this.

You know, I'm really starting to resent you. I don't like living with you. But you're my partner, so I don't know what to fucking do.

Should we break up? Should we just stop this lifestyle? Should I maybe go off on my own in an apartment I can actually afford on a single salary? Is that what it takes for you to do anything? You lazy fucking slob.

Where did everything fucking go? We used to be so in love. Now you're just.

.. You're not doing anything. Are you happy? I don't think you are.

So why the fuck do you keep just wasting your days? Wasting my money as well? Look, I don't care all that much about the money, but you have to do something.

Both of us have to contribute. I don't know what to say anymore. I've had this fight so many times.

I don't want this. Maybe we're just better off splitting up. I'm struggling.

You're struggling. But at least I'm trying something. I'm so sick of this.

I hate it. I fucking hate my life situation right now. I want out of it.

And you know what? You're not helping me improve it. You're making it worse.

And you are actually dragging me down. Yeah, you are. You're making it worse for me.

I don't know what to do. I don't fucking know. Fuck! I still love you.

It's just I can't bear it. I can't take it anymore. All of this just stagnating.

Staying the same and settling for a terrible life. Could be worse, yeah, but I fucking hate my job. I'm miserable every day I come home.

I despise the thought of waking up to go to work, but I have to. And I know you're struggling finding a job, but there is a part of me that's resenting you. It's festering, and it has been for a while that you're not making enough of an effort.

I know you're doing some things. It's just not enough. You're not getting anything done.

At some point, I need to see results. I need to see you do something. I don't want to break up.

But you need to do something. You need to get your ass out of bed in the morning at the same time that I do. You need to do something like take courses, apply for jobs, you know, build some skills.

I don't fucking like. .. Just do something.

Help me out. I'm sorry. I'm just freaking out.

It's been accumulating for so long, and today was terrible. I feel like I'm so close to getting fired. I'm struggling at work.

We're struggling financially. You're struggling to find work. Our relationship is struggling.

We can't ignore all of this, our life circumstances. We can't. It's part of it.

I need you to be better. I know you're not feeling great, but it doesn't matter. I don't want to be dragged down like this.

Yeah, that's what it feels like when you're settling for it, when you're fine. I know you're not fine, but to me, I don't see the difference. This is something you can work on for real this time.

You need to convince me. I just don't believe you anymore. How could I? You've been.

.. You've not been making an effort. Not a good enough effort, at least.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. You know I don't like being this rough and mean.

I'm doubting if it can work out. Maybe it can, but you need to be better. I need to go think.

I need to take a walk. I need to clear my head. I'll be back.

Can you please make some dinner in the meantime? I'll see you then.