Loose ends and a few memories

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I want to tell you a story that I alluded to in a previous track but I'll tell it as if you don't have any background info or haven't heard those previous tracks but first my friend who I mentioned in the beginning of a recent post and who is my most consistent listener and critic and helpful voice of encouragement whom I know in the face-to-face non-digital realm pointed out to me that I never indicated whether or not anything had come of my stated desire to have a experience with my Aunt Katie and her twin sister Carrie at the same time. My answer to that is no, that did not happen. Reason being, upon being in her presence we yeah kind of finagled reason to be around her, the two of us and a couple other people too but just to feel it out.

I think my aunt had a sense that this would be the case but upon that happening I just was not feeling the energy at all. What I had perceived as her like confident, assertive side as a you know basically a kid as an adult man did not appeal to me and my aunt just came across as infinitely kinder and less reactive and more confident and her sister really just had this negative like I don't know it was not jiving so that did not happen but no real disappointment there so rest easy you know it is no loss from what I could tell although you know I say that but and some complaining you know attention-seeking quick to comment and quick to give an opinion energy coupled with my aunt and I's reticence to be talked to in that way could have made for an interesting dynamic little brat taming vibe if the two of us kind of both teamed up on her in that way so maybe hmm maybe I'm eating my words maybe it'll still happen maybe she'll chill out as she gets older because if she's aging anything like my aunt I don't care she's 85 years old and I'm not one to say that I'm really not unless I was 85 years old I'm being weird age is a weird thing in our society people are beautiful at all ages so there's that this friend has a real ear for the details and they also wanted me to share that my aunt's older daughter was in college close by and was occasionally home because it previously said that she had moved out and then mentioned her hearing something through the wall she went to college a couple hours away and did come home somewhat regularly I guess to lend itself to some believability and integrity around the story those with a above-average attention for detail and concern about such things you to rest easy I was not lying there is a simple explanation to be had and there it is now for our story I had a crush on my mother's best friend I accidentally let her real name slip on another recording I think I'll leave it off for now we'll just call her mom's best friend but it's out there that is her real name I've had a crush crush on on mbf since I was very young since sexual desire entered my realm she is very tall and very tall six foot three I'm just barely six feet she's a great I like my a true six feet you know I'm not padding that for whatever to sound good but she is noticeably taller than me which I have always appreciated because somewhere along the way as I got into my early 20s very late teens things developed a pretty flirty vibe between us we'd always had a special kind of connection attraction but she never expressed it so directly until I was a little bit older and the reason I say I appreciate that three inch height difference and even going on four inches she has this habit when hugging me hello of pulling my head into her chest and yeah sort of cradling my head and rubbing along my hair and scratching my head a little bit and giving me a kiss on the top of the head and she asked she always brings my cheek right atop her breasts and occasionally if we're not being observed she very deliberately like lifts and scoops her chest and it gives a side to side wiggle and it's a very sensual hello hug but she's so graceful and smooth and such a good person that nobody seems to even notice that it's out of place or if they do they're not offended by it it's probably just it just looks maybe so natural she's so confident in doing so but in a couple times I have felt either the underwire of her bra or one of her nipples if she was not wearing one brush against my face and once like along my lips just very hot and she always smells so good my aunt I'm a big perfume fan and collector my aunt Katie always wears Dior hypnotic poison which if you've not smelled it is like a very distinct almondy vanilla like musky spicy kind of mysterious dark smell and mama's best friend also wears a Dior perfume but it's a very floral see a misty or blooming bouquet and I think that both choices are perfect embodiments of their personalities and aesthetics so I always associate that smell with one of these greeting head cradled sensual caress against the breasts of mom's best friend hugs she used to have me take a nap in her bed somewhat regularly over the course of I would say a good four to five years and it only stopped because the situation from which it would arise you know I wasn't over there at a time I would have taken a nap I loved those naps so fucking much I mean we're talking back you know I was a kid basically her own kids and my brother and stuff will be out playing and I usually was with them but occasionally I would say I wanted to stay inside and just read a book or something and or I was tired I wanted to maybe take a nap she would always wait until they were outside to suggest it I guess it might have made her kids feel awkward which I liked because it was like our secret and then she would bring me into her room and say it's quieter in here you'll sleep better she'd sort of tuck me in not sort of she would pull the blankets back and let me hop in and then pull them over me and give me a little kiss on the cheek and a little stroke of my face and walk away close the door you know never anything inappropriate of course she's beyond your reproach in that way which is the only reason I share this you know I never I don't mean I never felt conflicted about it then or now and just thought it was a beautiful acknowledgement on her part that I had this attraction and that we did have a certain fondness for each other I think she knew she was treating me to a delightful sensory experience and then I got to you know smell her sheets and pillows and roll around and these silky high thread count sheets and some a lot of times I did doze off into a really heavy nap occasionally if I could tell she was somewhere else usually doing laundry the laundry machine was in the basement if I could hear that door opening and closing I knew I had a minute or two or if she was outside cutting the grass or going for a run I knew I had a few minutes and I'd often go into her underwear dryer smell her lingerie she had a large collection of sexy sexy lingerie and found on different occasions various toys and vibrators and Kamasutra VHS tape and then another unmarked VHS tape which I popped in one day when she'd go into the grocery store and that contained videos of her using one of those vibrators I thought it would be videos of her her husband having sex which I saw it did indeed feature mama's best friend live starring in the lead role but no one else ever came on screen it's just her going from touching herself through her clothes down to her underwear down to nude down to using her fingers and then on to the vibrator and then penetrating herself with the vibrator pretty vigorously yourself with it until she built up into an obvious orgasm and their voice rolling and moans intensifying it's very very sexy her body was beyond what I could have possibly imagined I wanted her so bad ever since that day. The desire's really been unshakeable the whole time there's probably not been a period of longer than a month maybe two where I have not actively fantasized about mama's best friend in the last 21 years yeah I have self-pleasured thinking about her and vividly imagining an encounter between the two of us easily once a month if not more and at different periods daily for 18 years and the tension and flirtation has grown so palpable recently and it was very rarely spoken about though but I mean what do I mean by that hmm she says things to me like I miss you so much when I don't see you you need to come visit more often you know even if it's stressful to see your parents just come visit me it would mean so much to me I miss you so much when you're not around or this is such a treat to see you twice in a month it makes me feel like you're here all the time which would be so amazing or she stands so close when we talk one day she had her foot in between my two legs and her thigh on a sort of downward sloping angle and so close to me that my dick was then her other leg was back behind her so she was still balanced but she stepped in so close like that with her one foot in between my legs like in their actual foot was through them not just in line and so close that my dick rested on her front thigh and she kept you know coming forward until that was the case and and I was you know felt very good and she rolled her thigh gently back and forth very much aware that she was rubbing my cock and basically positioning herself so that I was mounting her leg like a fucking dog in the middle of a social event you know they came to family events at my house often that's how this was in full view of many other people and again nobody ever felt it out of place but this was not just a incidental thing this she held that position for minutes I got hard and at one point really was almost thrusting onto her and kind of caught myself like laughed amidst what we were saying and she gave me this very mischievous smile she's got such a.