Just Chatting

Transcript

Hello, hello, hello! That is a reference, but it's fine. I have echolalia.

I repeat, sounds are like, and that is a sound I like very much, and maybe you get the reference. So I'm coming to you live from my closet. Hi, hello, my name is Jay.

If you're listening to this, this is probably not the first thing you've ever listened to from me, so I'm not going to really introduce myself too much. I do porn. This is where I post the audio porn.

But this audio in particular will be mostly safe for work. I won't be moaning, probably. Yeah, so let's chat.

I didn't think this through 500 times in my head before I'm speaking it to you, so it is going to be very rambly, but I know that's what you like and what you're here for, so. .. I'm really into this game on my phone.

It's called Marvel Match Classic, and I'm kind of obsessed with it right now, and I am hankering to play it as I talk to you, but I feel like I'll just get distracted, and then there'll be a lot of long pauses. Should I leave in my yawns? I don't know.

I'll listen to that in editing and decide if I'm going to leave them in. I hear a weird noise outside. I think my neighbor's vacuuming.

Anyway! Okay. So hello.

Welcome. So I can't record with my laptop in the closet with me because the fan's really loud if I'm doing a longer piece, so I can sneak it in if it's a short piece, but if it's a longer piece like this, will be, because if you give me the chance to talk, I never shut up. The fan will turn on, and it'll be really loud.

So I don't know. Basically, what I'm trying to say is I don't know how long I've been recording. I don't know how long I've just said nothing, staring at my big blue microphone.

Anyway! So this is the kickoff to the Oakleo 4 for 4 challenge, and now that I have almost completed it, we are in the homestretch. I think the hardest part will be, okay, well, not the hardest part, but another additional hard part will be actually posting all this content because Oakleo currently does not have a scheduler, so I will have to post them manually on time every day, which will be a lot for me, especially since I have travel during the days I will be posting.

That will be very interesting, but I can do it probably. I just have to, you know, set an alarm and be aware, which I assume I will be because it's not like something I can forget because it's like hanging over my head forever. And if I do forget, yeah, I've decided I'm going to leave in the awns.

If I do forget, I don't get the bonus, and that would be a lot of wasted effort in a way and a lot of wasted audios in a way because to compile 16 audios, that's four months of audios if I maintained a normal schedule. But I'm just going to splat them all on you at once, and I hope it is good. I'm going to alternate free and paywilled audios, and we're just going to see what happens.

If you are listening to this or any of my audios because we also don't have a play count or any analytics yet. I'm not bitching. I'm not bitching.

I love Ocleo very much, but they are a little baby company, a little startup company. And so we don't have all of the bells and whistles of like a site that's been around longer. So if you are listening, please God comment.

Or at least like. At least like. Preferably comment because me specifically, but creators in general.

We can't tell if anyone's listening, so please listen. And if you do listen, please let us know because we can't see it. Like when we like back on GWA when I did GWA and I still have audios posted there.

I'm sorry for the sniffling. There'll be a little bit of that, but I'll try to be conscious. There's a play count on.

Oh, fuck. Where do we post our audios when we do GWA? Soundgasm.

Soundgasm, which always has issues and Ocleo doesn't quite have the same kind of issues that Soundgasm has. I don't think I've ever had Ocleo just straight up fail on me the way Soundgasm does go down. I guess my only issue with listening on Ocleo is scrubbing.

So if you try to fast forward or rewind an audio, that's quite difficult to do in app. It kind of won't do that or will play the whole thing out. Comment.

I'm going to lose my train of thought a lot in this and that's fine. That's fine. But this is the kickoff for the 4 for 4.

I hope you like them. There are a few pieces I'm really excited about. And so I will write in the captions like, hey, this piece in particular, I'm really freaking excited about.

And I hope you like them. I really do. But anyway, that's enough about me.

Tell me about you. Not so interesting. Thank you.

OK, so I did ask you guys for comments on what you wanted to hear me ramble about. Yeah. So let's go to my comment section on the Ocleo post first.

And then I'm going to do because I did them on Twitter as well. This will be my 50th post, which is kind of cool, kind of everybody. I'm saying.

OK, so I have three comments on my little blurby thing. Fifty nine percent of you wanted me to do the challenge. OK, cool.

Delete that post. Delete. Come on, delete it.

OK, fine, don't delete it. OK, it's fine. The app is freezing.

It's fine. It's fine. We'll figure it out.

The comments are going to be so sad. OK, well, for at least a new idea, that sounds very nice. OK.

OK, OK, OK, OK, OK, OK, OK. The comments. First comment.

This is by. Dare to listen. Thank you for your comment.

You are a role model in the industry. You know, I would like to be. I am very much a little tiny fish and I feel like I'm getting to be a smaller fish.

The more. The less commercial bookings I have, which at this point is none, which is interesting. It's very interesting how life and careers change and your trajectory moves.

Anyway, anyway, I try to be a role model in the way that I. Present myself and run my page, my only fans page in particular, is like my main platform, and it is currently free. One hundred percent free.

Which is crazy. I've never done anything like that, but sex work CEO. Who I worship.

Gave that as as a recommendation for Black Friday, so it is on sale at one hundred percent off, which is crazy. If you would like to follow my only fans and look at me, well, the person you are currently listening to, you can find my only fans. Is it anywhere on my profile? I don't think it is.

It is not so. You can just go to only fans and search. I think it's real.

Is it J. Taylor XX? Let me see.

J. Taylor XX is my only fans. You can find it there or you can find it on Twitter anywhere else where I can put my link tree.

A clue is not one of those places, but it is free. And that's insane. So anyway.

Yeah. So trying to be a role model on how I run my page. I run my page.

So anyway. Yeah. So trying to be a role model on how I run my page.

I run my page very transparently, very honest and earnestly. It's kind of a. It's very a happy place.

So I try to run it like how I would want an only fans to run. So I'm at this point like there have been times where I've slipped, but currently and for like the last two or three months, three or four months, somewhere a handful of months. I've been very consistent with my posting and my pricing.

I don't like the word cheap. I do not like it associated with my content contextually. And yeah, contextually, it is not a positive word.

You didn't hear that. But I charge what I would want to pay. Which is not a lot.

So it is a very, very, very good deal. I am also as I'm a content manager, so I run only fans accounts for other people. And my page is the best.

So if you're looking for like very authentic, real interaction, that is my page is the best. But anyway. Okay.

So. So. Okay.

Yeah. So role model in the industry. I would like to know how it is to be on camera compared to real life.

I mean, doing the hot stuff, the hot stuff. Is it the same? No, not.

No, I'm so sorry. I or maybe not. Sorry.

So fun fact about me. I have a very, very spicy, very spicy neurodivergent little brain. And it's very hard for me to be super vulnerable and real and raw in a situation that is as intimate as having personal relationship sex.

I can like I've definitely gotten there. Like it happens, but it's difficult and there needs to be a lot of like parameters filled and it has to be kind of the perfect situation. Whereas for porn, because I completely understand how that works and I know how to do it.

I can. Turn on that part of myself, so it's not so much playing a character. As just not.

Oh, my God, letting the other shit get to me. So. Like if you're my boyfriend and you want to have sex with me, like it has to be completely a perfect situation.

For me to not. Become anxious. Anxious or nervous in this situation.

But if it's porn, like, let's go. Like, it's fine. Like, I'm good to go.

And that is a very comforting and freeing thing for me. And kind of why I love it so much. And with audio.

I'm gonna bring this back to audio. Audio. Allows me.

To have fantasy sex. With you, my listener who I project whoever I want to be you. Because the majority of my audios.

I do have specific people in mind. Even if that's just like a general. What's the word? Placeholder person for a lot of them.

They were written for like specific people or specific people in mind. So when I prefer them perform them in my closet. I'm fucking those people and that's really fun for me.

And it's a way to kind of be super creative. And I really enjoy that. I'm rambling and I don't know.

How we got here. But we did. Okay, so is it the same? It is not the same.

It is not the same. Okay. I'm gonna be real honest.

A lot of performers will talk about how real life intimate. Like relationship sex is better objectively. I don't feel that way.

Is that bad? Is that okay? Don't I don't think it's bad.

I don't think it's bad. I don't think it's bad. And I'm gonna tell you why because that's just one part of me.

So. Yeah, so I when I have really if you've watched my scenes yield. No, when I have like really good porn sex.

Shit's bomb, dude. It's so amazing. And I do have relationship sex like that.

But it has to be. It takes a lot more to get me in a situation and in a mindset where I'm able to deliver that kind of. Reciprocative energy as a partner.

Whereas when I'm performing, I'm just I can kind of go into it a lot easier. If it's someone I like. If it's someone I don't like.

Then I kind of dead fish. I don't care. It's just make you come and get you out.

Okay. So which do I enjoy most women or men? I.

Okay. I love giving sex. Okay.

I love giving sex to women. Like I love. Topping that feels like a kink thing.

I like to like eating pussy is my obsession. And like doing that is an unreal thing for me. Like I love it.

God, I hope this is recording. I'm going to go on for so long. We're on like the second part of comet one.

And so that is fantastical to me to be able to do that. But it's also kind of hard for me to relate to women in porn because. Well, because they're performing.

We all perform in porn and that's fine. But for men, there's I often feel more of a connection. I feel like I'm getting more into them and I kind of trust that that is realistic in at least some way.

Like there have been many a time where I've had what I thought was many a time makes me seem like I'm bad at sex. There have been. Sometimes where I've had incredible sex with women that I loved that I was friends with.

And. They told me afterward that it was all fake, like it wasn't pleasurable for them and I get off all the time. Like I am an orgasm machine if I'm having good sex.

But for them, it just it's all performance, which is fine. And we love them for it. That's OK.

But. As a partner in those scenes, I have to kind of just get over that aspect and like not like, oh, I'm going to make you come. I'm going to keep trying until it happens.

So, like, it's cool. You perform. You do your thing.

I'm over here getting mine like we're good. So, yeah. So, like, thinking abstractly, women.

Oh, my God. So hot. But men have always had a power over me.

And I have a lot more orgasms with men when men are good at sex. They're incredible at sex. Like the scatterplot of good at sex, like women are all kind of in the good.

Access like they're all pretty good men around the gamut a bit more. So men can be disastrously. Awful.

Or like good or like incredibly amazing. And so that's always fun to figure out who's incredibly amazing. So I have more orgasms.

With men, I guess men, I guess the short answer is men. But I hate saying that I like men more because I'm. I'm very.

Bisexual. I'm very much in. What's that? Akinsey three.

Like in the middle. Thinking about it too much. Okay.

Next comment. What made you start making audios? This is.

M. This is Kimzie. Thank you, Kimzie, for your comment.

I started making audios. I started making audios. Thank you, Kimzie, for your comment.

I started making audios. My first two. Which is switch and first time.

Scroll all the way back. You'll find them. I made those.

Because I thought it wasn't. I thought it was an easier way to make content than video porn. Which in a sense, it totally, totally is.

Let me adjust. Sitting on the floor. Because I'm just sitting in my closet right now.

And I haven't showered in like 36 hours. I haven't showered and I don't look cute. I don't look especially cute.

I always look kind of cute. And so I thought it would just be an easier way to make content. And so those were the first two.

And they were. They were both made for the same person. Someone in particular.

Someone who. I wonder if he's listening. That would be so cool.

If you listen, I'll send him a link and he'll listen. And I'll be like, oh my gosh, he's. He adores me.

He's an artist. One of my artists. My pet artist.

He'll like hearing that. Like I'm a little thrill. And so I recorded them both for him.

Because it was a way to verbalize the fantasies I was having about him. And I wanted to share them. And it was, I mean, they're both improvised, but they're much faster than writing them out, which I also do.

I, I write a lot of. My scripts and I do. Erotic prose as well, which I have kind of slowed down on.

I'm looking to get back into that, but there's. I have a lot on my plate right now and I'm trying to figure out how to organize the plate. But that's why I started.

I started. I made those two because I wanted. To share.

Kind of a really erotic sexual thing. And if you're an audio fan and this isn't your first audio ever, and you've been listening for a while, you kind of know that audio erotic content is much more intimate and much more real than watching a video. Even the videos that I loved that I.

They kind of really move me, I guess, in a sense, they don't really hold a candle to how. Right there, audio can feel a believable voice artist. Which isn't, which is unfortunately not very common.

That was that was shade. I'm not trying to be shady. I'm sorry.

I believe a good voice artist, which is super common. Will make you feel can make you believe anything like anything's happening. And you're on a spaceship.

You're in a medieval wood. You are a dragon like whatever. It just you're like, OK, yeah, let's go.

But for a video, even the best video I could imagine. You're still watching something that already happened and is not happening right now. And there's the whole world around you.

Whereas with an audio, you're hearing it straight into your fucking brain and your eyes are closed. You're not looking at anything else. And you're kind of focused on what's happening in the moment.

Unless you're doing that thing or you try to multitask and see how long it lasts, which I do sometimes. Where was I going with this? I don't know.

So that's why I said, oh, why did I start making audios? Fucking a man. This is this is going to be a ride.

This is a ride. Yes. OK, so that was the first two.

And then I discovered Fade by Night. And I discovered Fade because before he before he did the name change back with his old name. But he's Fade by Night everywhere else.

It doesn't matter. I my sister. She's my sister.

She's my sister. I my sister. Was considering doing like erotic storytelling.

Like having an OnlyFans and being like, oh, we could dress up in lingerie or masks and like just tell dirty stories. And it'd be like super pretty and like literature, like she meant like literature. And I'm like, oh, my God, that sounds amazing.

You can just do audio content with no video. And this like, like sent me down a rabbit hole because I got excited. So I started researching.

So I told her a bit about audio and then I her husband. I'm like, because, you know, we're we joke. We're a family of jokesters, I suppose.

I'm like, he can record, too. There's a huge market for male voice artists. And this is before I knew Fades.

This is before my big, super giant audio crush. I'd only had one big, super crazy audio crush before. But he and I like his content changed.

He made it all very like comfort content. And that that's not what I listen to. That's not what I listen to.

So he's still we're still on very friendly acquaintance terms. But anyway, so I searched up like male erotic voice audios because what's his name? Cardlin.

I think Cardlin audios was the one I was thinking of. He does. He does this.

He does. He did this one where like you were a princess or like you were captured by a knight or something. And like, it's very atmospheric and like sound effects.

And it's I never heard anything like it. And so I sent that to my sister. And the next recommended one, which has since been removed, but it's here now on Ocleo was the at least the new one is the original.

May have been lost. Oh, wow. That's crazy.

The original or it might be on. It might be on. It might be on Reddit.

It might be on Reddit. I'm not sure was the demon. Wait, no, no, that's not what happened.

That's not what happened. The first one that was recommended to me was. I think it was the Sith Lord audio from Fade.

Was it? Or was it the demon gangbang one? My story so far has been that it was the demon gangbang.

And I clicked on it. It had to have been because the way the story goes. I clicked on it because I thought it sounded like the silliest, dumbest thing I'd ever heard in my life.

And if you listen to Fade and have listened to Fade, and if you listen to Fade and have listened to any of his group scenes, you know, they're really not dumb. Like, I had never heard. And like the first, the first demon audio, the second one's definitely freaking scarier because he's improved on not that he was bad before.

He was amazing before, but he's definitely up leveled his sound design. So the second one's scarier, but it's. It's unreal.

Like it's, it sounds like you're really in hell getting gangbanged by demons. And I'd never experienced anything like that before. So I listened to that one and I'm like, holy shit.

And the next one up was the Sith Lord, which I sent to my friend, Sonia. And I'm like, oh my God. And then I binged all his audios in two days that were on Pornhub.

And then I found him on Patreon. And then I listened to everything on Patreon and Patreon. Patreon didn't have the community aspect I wanted.

So I eventually moved to Discord. But before I moved to Discord, I reached out and commissioned him. It was the first time I'd ever like subscribing to his Patreon and commission him was the first time I'd ever paid anyone for porn.

But I became very interested in his content. Very interested. It's been two years.

I've been a fan for Fade for two years. Why has the time has flown? I just blew my mind.

And so I listened to his sleep paralysis demon audio, which I pretty positive has to be on Oakleo. And it just inspired me so much. That I immediately wrote a piece of my own.

That was the same thing. Imitation is the highest form of flattery. And if I'm inspired, I will do my own thing.

And my own version of your thing. And he's never expressed any animosity towards that. So either he's lying, which I don't think, or he's just chill and he understands.

We do not have the same fan base and it's fine. But I wrote a monster. I wrote monster in your closet.

In like two hours. And then I immediately recorded it. And that was my first like monster audio.

My first like fantasy audio. And I posted that on a GWA. And.

The response is very good. And so I kept creating and I thought that it would be a good funnel to my paid content. My only fans.

And I learned very quickly that that was not true. But that didn't upset me. I got over that real quick.

And I kept creating because I thought it would be a good funnel to my paid content. And I kept creating because it is such an incredible creative outlet to me. So for the porn I do, the majority of it.

Is pretty. I guess amateur is the right word. And it doesn't for the most part.

There are a few scenes that have, but it doesn't for the most part creatively fulfill me the same way that writing and voicing audios can or does. My audios. The really good ones.

My bigger pieces that aren't like fluffy. If that makes sense. Like I pour my heart and soul into them.

So it's more of me as a person than any porn I've ever made. And it's very, very important to me that they are listened to. So yeah, that goes back to please like and comment.

Please tell me you're here. I feel like it's post-apocalyptic and I'm like got the radio. Like is anyone out there? Like please tell me you can hear this.

So yeah, so that's why I started creating because I just couldn't not. I had to. And the satisfaction of making something really cool.

Like the praise is really amazing and I've gotten some incredible praise on my audios. I'm shifting. But like I've had audios that like people obsess over like siren siren people love that one and then they asked me for sequels and I'm like no you have to commission it because I don't do sequels.

So yeah. Yeah. They mean a lot to me and it's really important to me that you listen to them and thank you so much for listening.

I'm going to take a little break and see how long I've been recording because this is just going to be so long. It's going to be so long. Okay, it has been over 30 minutes.

I hope you're having a good time. I assume that you are if you're still listening to this when I listen to rambles, which I do I always do stuff at the same time. Like I'm not just like sitting there staring at my phone listening to ramble usually like a podcast like I'm just hanging out with a buddy.

As to me doing a podcast. Fuck because I've thought about it. I don't know what the point would be like the point would be me to talk to my cool friends and I do have cool friends but like why who would care who cares and it's just like it's just like another bitch doing a podcast like that's kind of how I feel about it.

So I don't know about that. I'm just I just want to go on everyone else's podcast. Okay, go back to the comments the comments the comments the comments Mark.

Hi Mark. I love hearing your stories. You are such a great talker.

Well, thank you. I am talking my ear up my own mouth off right now. Would love to know where you draw your inspirations from and what your process is.

I feel like I've talked about that a little bit but I'll talk about it more because why not I get inspired by so many things other audios other porn anything that kind of flips that little switch in my brain like ooh, that'd be cool. I have a client whose content I manage who is fucking cute. I have such a crush on her and she has some hot storylines and I've kind of taken some of those.

I have one upcoming that so it was so hot. So I kind of adapted it. I've had a couple of her where I took her things.

I got a weird text. Oh God. Okay.

Anyway, that was it. I don't want to read that text right now. Anyway, we're good.

Fuck threw me off hardcore. My inspiration. Inspired by all sorts of things.

If you tell me your fantasies like as if as a fan. Sorry, I'm making noise. If you tell me your fantasies I and I'm kind of my interest is peaked.

I can come up with an audio about it probably.