Intimacy Changes Everything

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Where's my sweater? I gotta go. I gotta go.

I just, I have to go. Please, let me go. No, no, I don't, I don't need to talk.

I just need to leave. Okay? Please.

Okay, we're not in the scene anymore, and I, I can't do this. I need to go. It, maybe, maybe it's because I had to use my safe word.

I don't, I don't know. Wait, no, it wasn't, it wasn't too rough, it wasn't, I just, I needed to, I needed, I needed the scene to end, and now I need to go. Why can't you just let me leave, and we'll talk some other time? Yeah, some other time.

No, I'm not gonna put a time on it. What do you want me to say, I'm gonna call you on Thursday at eight? I, I, I don't know.

I, I just have to, I have to, okay, okay, I'm calm. I'm good. I need to leave.

No, no, I'm not dropping. No, no, that's not what it is. I just, I can't be around you right now.

Yeah, it was just, it was too much, and I couldn't do it anymore, and I, I can't do, you're not gonna let this go, are you? Okay, I understand that. I understand you're torn between respecting what I'm saying and wanting to help me, which, if you really want to help me, just, just let me have some time and some distance, okay?

I know you need to understand what went wrong so it doesn't happen again, but I don't know if I'm able to tell you that right now. Don't use my name. No.

No, you never call me by my name. You always call me whatever the name in the scene is. It's usually a pet name.

Baby. Kitten. Slut.

Yeah. I know that we're just us right now. Okay, okay, okay.

Yeah, we were, we were doing that, you were on top of me, you were holding my face in your hands, you were forcing me to maintain eye contact, I could feel your chest against mine while you moved in me. I mean, I know, I know pleasure is your thing, that that's what you like to do, to overwhelm me with it, but this was different. You were praising me, which you do a lot, but you were saying other things too.

You've never told me that you care about me, you've never told me any of the things that you were saying, and it was too much. I couldn't, I couldn't process it in the moment. Not with you touching me like that, not with you inside me.

When we, when we agreed to this, to the Dom Sub dynamic, it was supposed to be physical. It was supposed to be scenes, and then we go back to our lives, and that was it. We weren't together, we were just partners for a very specific reason.

And I feel like it's gone past that now, and I didn't, I didn't realize it until now. I didn't, I didn't want a relationship, I wanted fun, I wanted a Dom who could make me scream and cry with pleasure, and took great pleasure doing so. I wanted somebody strong, capable.

In the moment, I want to be taken care of, but outside of it, I don't know what I want. And the way you were talking, it made me feel like we weren't in a scene anymore. We were just us.

The way you were looking at me, the way you were touching me, the way you were moving, even. It was different. And I don't, I don't know if I can handle that.

What? I'm important to you. Well, you're important to me too, of course.

Consumed you? Well that was a bit melodramatic, don't you think? You're serious? Why didn't you say something before the scene? If, if you've been consumed by me, even when we're not together, that's, that's something we need to talk about.

That's what was coming out, wasn't it? That's why it was so intense, even though the actual physical stuff wasn't nearly as intense as we've gotten. Oh wow, okay.

Uh, I didn't expect you to say that. No, no. Um, okay, I'm starting to freak out again, because those are scary, scary words.

We work so well in what we have, and I don't want to lose that. By stepping outside of it, and possibly screwing everything up. Those three little words are, well, they're terrifying.

Well, I have no doubt you mean them. I can see it on your face. I've learned to read you pretty well by now.

So, what are you telling me you want here? What, what are you. ..

Me? Okay, well, I got that, yeah. But, what, what are you telling me we're going to be from here on? What are you, what are you wanting for that? Because clearly we can't just go back.

Even when you're trying not to acknowledge it, it's coming out in the scenes. It's coming out all over the place. Yeah, I'm open to talking about it, I'm still here, aren't I? Even though every instinct I have is telling me to get the fuck out of here.

Yeah. How do I feel? I don't know.

I wasn't expecting this. I was expecting to come, get my brains fucked out, have a million orgasms, be told I was a good girl, and then go home and sleep. That was my expectation when I came here.

That was yours too. Well, that's what I mean. If it's coming out without you even realizing it or intending it to, then it needs to be addressed and dealt with.

But if it keeps coming out, I don't know if I can do just this anymore. And I know now, well, now I know, that you don't want to. You want more.

Yeah, I'm thinking about it. You want to show me what you mean? What does that mean? Ah, no, we weren't finished.

In fact, it's a little uncomfortable now that I'm thinking about it because you've been edging me all night. Yeah. You want to just be together without that piece? Okay.

I don't know if it's because I'm still on the edge or if I actually think this is a really good idea, but, yeah, I'll stay. Okay. Don't say that.

I know, that's how you feel. But I'm not ready. If you want to make love to me, that's okay.

But don't use the words. It's too much. You want me to leave the lingerie on? You seem to like it.

Lay down, okay? Mm. Just kissing my skin while you run your hands over me is so nice.

Yeah. Pull it down over my breasts. Take them out.

You know you love them. And even though we're doing this without that, I still want you to take control. I still want you to be in charge.

Because it turns me on. I love how you are when you're like that. Mm-hmm.

Show me you love me by controlling my body, by making it sing for you. As only you can. Mm.

Slipping your fingers in the side of my panties. You gonna take them off this time? You just kind of pulled them to the side last time.

Mm-hmm. There's few things more glorious than when your fingers slide into me. So gentle.

Oh, yes. Oh, I am right there. You have been teasing me for far too long.

This is not gonna take long at all. You're doing it again. You're watching me.

You're staring at me. I am. I'm beautiful like this.

Thank you. Keep moving your fingers, please. Please.

Please. Huh? Am I allowed to come? Please.

Yes? Thank you. Thank you, sir.

Yes, it's right there. Oh. Yes, yes.

I'm coming. Around your fingers. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Oh, I needed that. You're too good at teasing me.

I know that look. Yeah, I do. Do you want me to please you now, sir? Well, I know this is about showing me how you feel, but I like to please you.

I want to please you. I do know what to do. Lay down, please.

Ah. I know you love my mouth. And I love your cock.

I'm going to pleasure you. I'm going to make you feel so good. That's how you make me feel.

Especially when you're looking at me like that. I love the way you're touching my head right now. Just gently.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

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I know there's very few things you like better than me sucking your cock. And it's one of my favorite things to do. Mm-hm.

I love worshiping you. I love you. Mm.

Mm. Mm. You always make my body feel so amazing.

You make me feel amazing. Mm. Mm.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

I love that you taste like me. You taste like us. Mm.

You were giving to me so nice before we stopped. Mm. Mm.

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Mm. , you love my throat. You've drained it well.

Mm. Stop. But you haven't come yet.

Oh. Okay. Mm.

Mm-hmm. Do we get the condoms again? No? Uh, well, um.

.. I mean, yeah, that part I'm not worried about, but we never. ..

We never do it without condoms. Ah. Yeah.

I want to feel you, too. Let me just get up here. Panties to the side again? Mm.

Ah, feel me sink down on you. Ah. Ah.

It's always such a treat when I get to have your cock. Well, sometimes you don't let me. Sometimes you just make me suck you off, and then you use your fingers or your mouth or a toy, and I don't actually get to have you.

Tonight I was having you. You're taking me so deep. You're.

.. Oh, making me feel so good. Making my pussy tingle.

Making me needy. I do. I do need you.

I need you to fill me. I need you to surround me. I need you to protect me.

I need you to take care of me. Ah. Ah.

Ah. You want me to move up and down? Gladly.

Gladly. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Ah, you feel so good.

It feels so good without the condom. Mm-hmm. Yeah.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

Oh. Oh, yes. Yes.

Your mouth on my nipple. Oh, I love it when you just torture my breasts for hours. Pitch them, twist them, clamp them, pull them.

Ah. Make me come over and over with just my nipples. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

They're so sensitive now from all the things you've done to them. My whole body is sensitive from all the things you've done to me. And I loved everyone.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

Yeah, I love fucking you. I do. You love fucking me too.

Yeah. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh, and you take my face in your hand.

That sends me so, so high. Mm. Mm.

Yes, I'm looking at you. Yes. Ah.

I feel what you're doing to me. Ah. Ah.

Ah. I see it on your face how much you want to do this to me. Ah.

Ah. Ah. How much you want me around you.

Yes. Yes. Ah.

Eyes open when I come. You want me to watch yours. Ah.

Ah. Ah. It makes me so hot when you look at me as I come.

When you watch me fall apart, you watch me explode. No one's ever made me come that hard before. Just you.

Ah. Yeah. Yeah.

Mm. Mm. Mm.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

Ooh. I thought we weren't going to say that. I thought you were going to put a pin in that for a minute.

I did squeeze you when you said it. Ah. I do like hearing it.

I love hearing it, actually. Ah. Especially while you're moving in me.

Yes. Yes. Ah.

You said it again. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Yes.

Yes. I want to come. I want to come.

But I want to tell you something first. Yeah. Yeah.

Feel my heat around you. Feel me squeezing you, massaging you, rubbing you. Feel my hands on your shoulders.

I love you. Yeah. That's why it scared me so bad.

Because I didn't want to. I didn't want to love you. I didn't go into this loving anybody.

But you. You changed that. You made me.

You made me want more. Yeah. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Ah.

One of my favorite parts of the time we spend together is when we just spend the time talking after. When you just hold me and you run your hands over me and you take care of me. But we talk.

We have a lot in common. We get along really well. Ah.

And we know the sex is good. Ah. Ah.

So yes. Yes. I love you.

I love you. And I want to feel you. Ah.

Ah. Because you got harder when I said that. You did.

You got harder and your hands clenched on me. Ah. You like that.

Just as much as I do. Ah. Ah.

Ah. Ah. Oh god, I'm going to go.

May I go, please? I don't need permission, but I like it. I like it when you tell me I can.

I like it when you control my orgasms. Ah. When I'm completely at your mercy.

Yes. Yes. Ah.

Even now, I'm riding you, but you're moving my hips the way you want me. You're essentially jerking off with my pussy and I love it. Ah.

Oh yes. Yes. Yes.

I'm coming. Ah. Ah.

Thank you, sir. Thank you. I love you.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Yes. Come. Come in me.

Yes. Oh, I feel every spurt. I feel every burst.

I feel every drop. I've never felt it raw before. I've never felt it so warm.

Oh god, my pussy is still spasming around you. Yes. Yes.

Ah. Ah. I love you too.

Ah. Mm. Mm.

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Yeah. Well, I've never stayed the whole night before. I agree.

I agree. It's time that I did. Okay there we go.

I never got to go extend the bomb tonight, but I might the next time. Hold on. Hold on.