I Just Want To Cry Continuously

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I was just thinking about how much I just want to cry I mean there's I mean there's just a lot going on and I just I just don't let myself feel that you know usually it just it just feels too vulnerable to do that but I just feel like I really need it more often than not you know it's just so much going on inside me and I just and I just I just don't know what else to do about it but but cry talking about it will make me cry and thinking about it would make me cry so why not I just need to cry I just want to cry that's all but I just don't do it on the spot I just I just have to be really really in the mood for that I just really need to feel it you know so please I'm just I'm just kind of begging you to help me here this is just not something I could I just I don't want to just stuff this down and not think about it and because that's what I always do I just I just kind of try not to think about everything but I think that's the problem I think that's what causes all the problems just trying not to think all the time well maybe I need to think about everything and just be upset I don't I don't like being upset and I criticize myself for being upset but I just you know I just don't know what else to feel okay like I don't even know how to describe this to you just I just have a lot to feel it feels like you know just help just help me please I think what I'm asking from you is like can you like just I guess touch me in a way just but make it feel like really good like just like like don't hold back like you know what I mean I just want you I just want you to make me feel really really good like so overwhelmed that I can barely deal with it I think that would be good I guess this way I won't hurt myself or I don't know you know hurt anyone else or anything like that just thinking about all this shit so can you just make me like get out of my mind for a while just a little bit just yeah just like if I just like lay down in front of you just yeah you can just start touching me a little bit yeah like that anyway anyway you want the touches just touches alone just feel so good thank you your hands just you just feel warm I just feel comforted already I think having that contact just feels really good yeah you just you just keep touching me please it just feels really good when your fingers press into my skin like that it's like I can just feel your presence like you don't have me like I don't know how to describe it I'm sorry but yeah you could just you just keep doing that I could just God I just wonder what it's like to feel so normal sometimes you know how do people go every day without having a whole bunch of terrible shit in their heads I don't understand I hope you don't understand either I wouldn't want you to understand anything like that oh god I'm crying already great well I guess this is what I wanted yeah I guess I guess you could move on from what from that yeah you want to touch me more you can yeah I think it's just start good just go ahead and just just skip all the pretense and just go ahead and start you know rubbing me the way you want just go ahead God I'm so teary-eyed already okay no no this is exactly what I wanted it's okay just touch me please thank you oh the fact that I can look forward to you just being there just do this for me thank you I don't know what I would do without you being there just to touch me just to touch me I just I don't let myself do this I just don't let myself cry oh my god oh yeah I'm gonna feel sensitive I do I want to feel sensitive I do I want to feel every bit of it I will let it out I'm gonna let it out I am I am letting it out I swear I'm gonna let it out I am I am letting it out I am I am letting it out I swear I am letting it out I am letting it out Please Please Oh please Oh Oh please Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes No No Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes Yes God Yes God this is so This is so pathetic I don't care I don't care It just I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I.