I Just Need to...

Transcript

So I have to say, the biggest problem I've been having lately is simply finding the time to record. Um, I'm sure those who have followed me for years, you guys have noticed a significant drop-off, like, in the last year or so, and partly that was due to COVID, and the carryover from that, which is my child has such acute anxiety right now socially that I can't get them to go to school, so they're working from home all the time. And while I'm very open about who I am and what I do, especially with my own family, um, it's never easy to say, hey, I know you've got school today, why don't you stay down here, because I need to go upstairs and record myself orgasming for a lot of people.

Uh, it seems like the stress of COVID continues on, even when COVID itself seems to kind of be lightening up a little bit, and, you know, we're getting to the point now where schools are starting to lift their mask mandates, and because of my autoimmune diseases, I got vaccinated a while ago. Actually, almost exactly a year ago, um, and then of course I got my booster a few months ago. So, you know, the world is slowly righting itself, but not fast enough for me.

Not fast enough for me to produce the content that I used to be able to pull out easily, like, you know, four or five audios in a week, and lately I feel like I'm struggling just to wiggle in one. Um, but, you know, that's life. The thing of it is, though, is it's not just that I'm not creating audios, it's if I'm not creating audios, I'm actually not masturbating either on my own time.

So my stress levels have been, whew, like, through the roof for probably a good six months, if not more. So I'm pretty sure, like, at least half of my audios in the last six months is me just going, I'm really stressed out and I need to cum, I have no good story, I have no idea or topic, I just need to not think. And I feel like I've been really repetitive with that lately, but conversely, I only get so much time.

And I get so desperate needing to just relax and cum that I can't formulate a pretty story, I can't formulate a topic to discuss. All I can think of is I need to get naked, I need to crawl in my bed, I need a toy on my clit, and I just need to fucking cum. I just need to relax and let my body do what it needs to do.

And hopefully I will feel better. And, you know, I think most people don't realize the importance and the therapeutic necessity that sex and even just a regular orgasm is. It doesn't matter whether or not you have a partner.

You need to take that time with yourself, for yourself, by yourself sometimes, just to settle correctly into your body and feel human. And we're all so busy, it's kind of crazy, it seems like most of us now are working from home, but we're more busy than we ever were. There's no time for anything.

Well, that may be the case, but today I am demanding we take some time to just get naked, lay down together, and cum. Because I don't know about you, but I know I seriously need it. And I keep thinking that once I get, you know, this blockage out of my system and I'm loosened up and I'm relaxed, I can finally record some more, I'll be honest, I don't know if I'm going to have the time, but I will do my best.

Most importantly, though, is I think we just need to make a small pledge to ourselves that we are going to take at least, we'll start slow, say at least one day out of the week to stop, let everything just go, pick up a toy, and cum. It doesn't have to be in a big rigmarole, it just needs to be some time with you by yourself, or me by myself, and just enjoying the moment of relaxation. Because I don't know about you, but I fucking need it.

In fact, I'm not even going to fuck around with this, I'm grabbing the Hitachi because power. I keep meaning to do more stuff with my motor bunny, but frankly, that thing is like revving a Harley Davidson in the house, and unless I am all alone, like for a couple hours, because it takes some time to get it out and set it up, yeah, I just can't record with it. So I'm going to have to do more bunny recordings for you later, but for now, this is just, let's just take some time together, you know?

It doesn't have to be fancy, it doesn't have to be crazy, just, let's just relax and get out your favorite toy if you have one. Mm. Mm.

Ugh. Mm. Wrong button.

I was trying to turn it up and ended up turning it off. Oh, there we go. It's been.

.. It's been a good week, it started out great, I went to an Imagine Dragons concert on Monday and that was the bomb. We had the best time, it was so uplifting and so positive, I've carried that energy with me all week, and I've just been kind of dying to lay down and.

.. Spend some more time with my own body. It's because I have been feeling so upbeat this week, I just wish I hadn't been so busy.

God. Oh. Oh, God.

You never know how bad you need it until you finally, finally start reaching for that orgasm. Oh, fuck. Oh, fuck.

God, my pussy's already dripping. Oh, fuck. I guess I really needed this more than I thought.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh, yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Oh, yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Oh! Oh! Oh, God.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Oh, I need to cum. I need to cum. I need to cum.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh! Oh, God. Yeah.

Oh. Oh, please. Oh, I need it.

I need it. I need it. Oh.

Oh, my God. Oh, hell. Oh, my pussy's so, so wet and drippy, and I need to keep cumming.

It feels so good. Oh, please. Please.

Please. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh, yeah.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh, it feels so good. Oh. Oh.

Goddamn. My pussy is so wet. Oh.

Oh. Oh, it needed some attention. Oh.

Mmm. I don't know if it's been getting nearly enough attention lately. Oh, everybody's been so busy and there hasn't been anyone around to fuck me the way I need it.

Oh, the husband's been working and. .. Oh, everybody else that I play with has been busy and.

.. Oh, this pussy needs some attention so bad. Mmm.

Mmm, I feel so empty. I don't like feeling empty. I need something to fill me up.

I need something to make me feel all fulfilled and. .. Oh, to make me cum again.

Mmm. Mmm, got my favorite, like, nine-inch-long dildo. I'm gonna slide it in my pussy.

Oh. I need to be filled. I need to be penetrated.

I need to be fucked. Just having a vibrate on my clit isn't enough. I need.

.. I need a cock. I need it.

I need it, please. Oh. Oh.

Mmm. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

Oh, here, here. Oh, here. God, it feels so good to fuck my pussy.

Mmm. Mmm. Mmm, slide that all the way inside me.

Now I'm gonna put that. .. Oh, it went right back on my clit where I'm all full.

Oh. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah. Mmm, yeah. Yeah.

Oh, yeah. Mmm, yeah. Oh, I love feeling so full.

Oh. This is the way I'm meant to feel. Oh.

Oh, falling. Oh, yeah. Oh.

Mmm. Mmm. Oh, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Fuck me. Fuck me.

Fuck me. Fuck my pussy, please, please. It needs it so bad.

It's been so neglected. Please, please. Fuck my pussy.

Oh. Yeah. Yeah.

Oh. Oh. Oh, make me cum.

Make me cum. Make me cum. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Yeah. Oh, fuck my pussy. Please, please, please.

I need it. I need it. I need it.

I need it. I need it. Fuck me.

Fuck me. Fuck me. Fuck me.

Fuck me. Fuck me. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah. I want to squirt all over the cock. I want to squirt pussy juice all over that cock.

Oh, yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh, my God. Oh. Oh.

Oh. Oh. Oh, my God.

I can't stop shaking. I'm sweating and I am in a puddle. Oh, fuck.

I needed that. Oh. I really just need someone to, like, wake me up and volunteer to fuck my brains out.

You know, at least once a day while my husband's at work. That would be awesome. Oh.

Until then, it's just me and my wonderful dildo and Mr. Hitachi. Oh.

I can definitely say I already feel so much better. Mmm. Mmm.

Yeah. I think I need to make a point to just stop at some point every day, just once a day, and do this. You know, I'll shoot for once a week to start, but my end goal is to have at least one orgasm a day for, like, a month or something.

And I will try to share as many of those as I can.