...... I can't sleep

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I can't sleep I don't know why I get like this sometimes I'm sure you do too I haven't been drinking too much coffee just my usual two in the morning I've even tried the old grab a midnight snack trick but still nothing mmm sometimes my brain just doesn't want to shut off I just keep thinking about the most just random unusual selection of things that have no impact on my life and will never have any impact on my life I'm sure you've had the same some nights just no matter what I do she cannot fall asleep it could be the weather it's getting a little bit hotter it's not too hot it's 20 degrees maybe 20 degrees Celsius that is to my American sweethearts I do like it cold I sleep I do like it quite cold but 20 degrees is enough to keep me up all night I've tried watching TV I've been watching a lot of TV all night the trick is to find something that is not too interesting so you don't get engrossed it also has to be just interesting enough that you don't start drifting away from it and thinking about random stuff which is really the biggest problem I have just cuddle with me you don't need to do anything just cuddle baby yeah what else might be just having a strange effect on my sleep the tree outside no I can't hear it yeah it's not making any noise but it's a very special kind of tree I come from they call it Malika to Lille means Queen of the night but I think if you if you google Queen of the night in English you get a totally different tree so it's just a local name for it yeah I've researched it I think it's called night jasmine in English definitely looks like jasmine and the flowers do but during the day it all the flowers are shut smells of nothing during the night it opens up all its flowers and has such a powerful powerful smile yeah you smell it no no it's not perfume or any kind of scent or anything inside the house that's just a smell coming in through the window it is lovely maybe I'm just not used to having such a strong scent when I'm trying to sleep no I don't know I get like this even when I'm not around this particular tree but it's been something that's difficult not to notice and then starts me down the rabbit hole of thinking about the trees in the yard and which ones need work which ones needs gardening etc I'm spending a lot of time in the garden these days you know a lovely crop of chilies and peaches look great the papayas should be ready soon oranges I'm a little bit worried but I'm sure it'll be fine hmm maybe this year we got the first couple of limes knowing thing is I know I'm gonna wake up at the same time tomorrow even though I don't work even though I don't have any alarms I'm gonna spring out of bed bright and early for no goddamn reason stay with me don't go you know for a long long time whenever I thought about being in a relationship the one thing that really truly appealed to me the one thing that made me yearn to be in a relationship whenever I'm single which is most of the time is just falling asleep next to someone and walking up and to have that same person just be there you know I don't know what it is about that just feels and sounds so romantic to me just to fall asleep looking at your face and you wake up looking at that same beautiful face.