I Broke the Rules...

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Um, look, I'm really sorry to have called you over so unexpectedly like this. Yeah, I got thinking about that after I called you. I'm really sorry.

Um, well, just about the fact that probably you had gotten really worried, thought that, you know, there was some kind of emergency over here, I, I didn't mean to startle you. And I'm, I'm really sorry. I apologize for having been a little bit vague and given that impression.

So forgive me. Cool. Thanks.

Um, all right. Well, yeah, I want to talk to you about something. No, you're not in trouble.

Um, it's just something, it's a little bit serious and I'm, you know, I've gone over this in my head, umpteen dozen times trying to figure out the right thing to say. And I just can't figure out, it always sounds good, you know, the first time I run through it and then I try it again and, and it sounds really strained and awkward. So, um, you know, the best way to do this may just be to do it.

So yeah. What I've been thinking about, I, I think it's best if we go back to just being friends again. Well, I, I know we're friends now.

I know, but we've, we've, I mean, let's not lie about what we are, right? Friends with benefits, I think is the term most people tend to use. And I just think that we ought to take away the benefits part and focus on just being friends.

No, I, I have not met someone else. No, it's not about. Okay, let's, let's dispel that myth right now.

You, you are great in bed and the sex has been incredible. It's not that at all. Not, not that.

One little bit. And I am not upset with you. I'm not trying to pull away from you.

I don't, I don't want you to think that anything, you haven't done anything wrong. I know, I know it's, I'm being vague. I'll just come out and say it.

You know, when we started out, we, we were just friends, right? And we got to trust each other. We opened up a bit.

Both of us were frustrated by the dating game. Neither of us wanted to be involved in a relationship, but we, you know, we wanted to have some fun. And so there were cuddles and snuggles.

And I mean, you were there every step of the way. We, we started hanging out more and we moved in some kissing, making out, touching, teasing, sex, right? But we had that talk.

After the first time we had that talk and we both decided that we were going to keep it casual. There was nothing more between, it was just sex. That's all.

We weren't interested in dating. We weren't interested in a relationship, not, not with one another, not with anyone. But we left the door open so that if either of us, you know, found anyone else we were interested in, we were free to pursue that relationship.

And we could call off, you know, what you and I were doing without penalty, without, you know, it being a betrayal, nothing like that. Right. Right.

And it's, it's been fun. It's been great. And I really, I really, really value your friendship.

I've really enjoyed what we've done together. It's been incredible. Well, that's the problem.

And that's what I'm kind of driving at here. Part of this agreement between us was that it was just sex. There was nothing more than that.

It didn't go any deeper than that. And I kind of, you know, may have reflected a little bit and realized that I wasn't strictly keeping to that agreement at this point. Well, what I'm trying to say is that I've been doing some thinking over the last several days.

And I've come to realize that you're not just a friend to me anymore. I've developed deeper feelings than that for you. That's exactly what it sounds like.

I've developed feelings for you. I want to be with you. I want to date you.

I've, you know, when you're coming over, my heart pounds and I get excited. I get happy. And it's not just being turned on or knowing that, you know, that I'm going to have some fun with you.

It's looking forward to the way I would to a partner. And that's not where we wanted to keep things between the two of us. Well, it is a problem because I really value your friendship and I don't want this to make things awkward between us.

I don't want to keep confusing myself and, you know, stirring up those feelings when it's impossible for things to go any further. You understand? What? I mean, I can explain it more if you want.

I'm not sure what you're asking me to do. Yeah. What are your thoughts on all this? Really? You don't have to say that just because I told you that I had developed feelings.

Yeah, but I don't know. It just seems a little bit, a little bit coincidental, maybe, that I'm confessing feelings to you and then you're telling me right at the same time that you have developed the same feelings for me. Really? And you're not, I mean, if this is real, if this is something you're really saying, really feeling, I want it to come from you.