I beg your forgiveness after a breakup!

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I'm here to see her well you can tell her that is Andre okay I don't I don't mind waiting oh she doesn't want to see me um well look you tell her I'm gonna be here and if you have to call the police or security or whatever you have to do I'm going to be here until she talks to me okay I'm not leaving without her can you could you come here for a second please could you at least talk to me listen just hear me out I know I messed up baby I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you baby it's just a habit I miss you and okay okay I'm sorry yes I know I should leave with an apology and you are right I'm just really nervous right now I'm gonna just be honest with you I'm gonna put everything out there my life has been in total shambles since we've been apart I love you so much I miss you so much and I know in your absence that you are the only woman for me I fucked up baby baby I fucked up I thought the grass was greener I lied I manipulated you I cheated on you I betrayed your trust and to be a hundred percent honest I do not deserve someone as good as you yes yes and I understand that but all I'm asking you right now baby I'm begging you right now is to just give me an opportunity to show you I know you feel what I feel nothing has been the same since you left my life I thought it was gonna be easy to get over you but it's the hardest thing I've had to do in my life I'm tormented at night I think about all the different things that I did to you I think about all the different things we could be doing together and I realized that I made the worst decision of my life and I know it's not gonna be easy I know it's not gonna be something that just happens overnight but all my praying every single night is that you just give me an opportunity to show you something different baby you deserve to see me at my best and you saw me at my worst I can't blame my past or anything that I've been through for what I've done to you and what I put you through all I know is I just want a chance I'm asking for a chance baby to just be with you again you mean the world to me baby you are everything to me do you understand that I love you so much and I just need you to know that baby I need you to understand that I need you in my life you won't accept me right now and you won't forgive me right now but I'm willing to work on the trust aspect of things my biggest fear is losing you and I didn't realize that when I had you in my life I thought you'll always come back to me I played with you I lied to you I cheated on you I used you I abused you I did whatever I wanted to do because I was fucked up I was hurting baby and I took you for granted it's the worst decision that I ever made and I know I do not deserve you I don't deserve to even be having this conversation with you but all I'm asking for is a chance since you've been away from me everything's been different all I can do is think about how amazing you are how dull everything else is when we first stopped talking I thought it was gonna be really easy I was sleeping with so many different women giving my body away freely and yeah in the moment it felt good the orgasms felt good but when it went away all I can do is think about you and even in the midst of me doing it all I could do is think about you it lacked depth the connection wasn't real I just want my woman back I just I need you back in my life I'm begging you to come back to me and if you say no I will respect it but I had to put myself out there I had to take this opportunity I had to take this risk in this chance because I'm hurting every single day of my life I regret every single thing that I ever did and everything that I ever said to you that wasn't uplifting motivating encouraging or letting you know that you are so special and important to me baby I'm willing to live with it because I know I messed up and I know at this moment I don't deserve you I don't deserve your time I don't deserve your energy but I'm praying and hoping that you remember the good times the moments that we share I want you to look at the life that we could have together I know you told me that you were sorry for everything that you did and when you told me you was breaking it off I said I wasn't sorry and I don't forgive you I was hurting baby but I do forgive you you were being a bigger person something I couldn't do something I couldn't be in a moment and it was just too much for me my pride and my ego has always been a problem baby I love you I need you I miss you so much I want to show you I've changed I want to show you that I'm willing to change I just need a chance okay please I'm begging at this point because I look in your eyes and I see forever baby I can't sleep I'm tormented at night I can't eat I know it's not your job to ease my pain but I'm messed up because I fucked up and hurt you I'm hurting because I hurt a good person I never had nobody in my life like you to treat me good despite all the bad that I did to you you love me despite all my flaws and my imperfections and I fucked it up I can't live with that I just want to repay you right so um if you just give me this chance baby I promise you I won't mess this up okay and I know it's not gonna happen overnight right please please please just let me finish please I know it's not gonna happen overnight but just don't don't don't cut me off don't don't don't take your love away from me please baby don't do me like I can't make it I'm not strong enough to make it baby and I'm not trying to put the guilt or the pressures on you cuz I mean I know that's not your bag right but I'm fucked up okay and listen this is what I did I don't want you to you don't have to answer me right now okay um you remember that tree house that you wanted to go to in Atlanta yeah the one with the surrounded by nature right it has the outdoor tub and all those different things well I booked it for this upcoming weekend I booked it for this weekend and I got a plane ticket with the access code to get into the treehouse for this weekend you got two days to make a decision I won't bother you I won't hit you up I won't say anything you won't hear from me ever again I'll be praying that I see you that you show up if you do I know that it's hope for us that you're willing to work on it I just want to show you how special you are to me I just want to spoil you cater to you whine and dine you I'm gonna give you everything that I never had the opportunity to give you I'm being blind baby by my ego by my pride by my manipulative ways I've been fucked up and scorned by my past and different things that I did and the different things have been done to me and then the one person that I get in my life the one person the one person that treated me solid I fucked it up I fucked it up okay I fucked up so let me make up for that okay please just just let me make up for that I need to make up I need to do this okay so no be quiet don't don't say that okay just please think about it and think about it and if I see you this weekend and I know it's still hope and I know we could be together then I know it could be something okay I'm leaving right I'm out but just if I see you there and I know you still love me hey listen I'm at the airport now and I just touched down in Atlanta I'm about to grab an uber and head to the treehouse I didn't see you on a plane so assuming that you decided not to go and that's okay I understand I accept it for what it is I I treated you really bad and I can acknowledge that for what it's worth.