Honey, I Need Your Touch.

Transcript

Hey honey, I won't be home for dinner, I still have some work to do, I have to work on a bunch of things for the meeting, I heard we're gonna have a last second addition to the panel so it's not looking too hot, but we'll see, we'll see how it goes, just hoping that no beep hits the fan I guess, I guess I'm just a little, well I should go, I'll be home a little bit late but I'll message when I'm on the way back, okay? Hugs and kisses. Who was that? How about for dinner? Oh, okay, he must be pretty busy then.

How have you guys been though? He's been pretty busy lately and seems kind of out of it, I guess is the right word? Well, I don't know, whenever we talk about him it's always about his next meeting or the promotion or that stupid boss of his.

Does he have any room to breathe? When you run that doubt of a ship, there tends to be a lot of spillage. As you know, he's the type to clean it up himself, or at least pass out trying to.

What I'm getting at is, he's not a robot, and I know you know that sweetie, you do, you know that more than anyone. I just, I just don't want to see you put all this on yourself, okay? That's good.

You just have to be there for him and I'm sure he'll be there for you too. Oh, you know, he's been good. He's in that whole keto thing, so he hasn't been able to eat much, so he's been pretty grumpy, but it's going good.

We're good. Oh, I think that's him. I think I should go, I didn't go.

Thank you so much dear for inviting me over so we could hang out and catch up. I really needed it, so thank you. It's fine, it's fine.

I'm already full on wine, thank you very much. Oh, Bailey, hey. Hey Nora.

Um, we're just about to leave actually. Okay, um, have you eaten? Don't you want to stay for some dinner? Oh no, no, no.

I already asked him, I welcome. I'll get out of your guys' hair. Thank you again so much, sweetie.

Remember, spill it, okay? All right, well, I'll go ahead and go. Have a good night, you two.

Drive safe. What was that about spillage? Hmm, you don't want to tell me about it? I mean, if it's between you two, it's between you two, that's fine, but if it's something you want to tell me, then I'm here.

Right. Oh, she never comes off as sharp, but she is scarily sharp. Well, what did you say? Hmm, right.

I'm fine, you know I always am. You don't believe me, do you? I can understand, but I am, really, I really am.

Honey, I'm being serious, I am. Well, it's kind of hard to tell if you believe me if you're not looking at me, you know? Could you look at me? Look, I know that I'm maybe not myself for the past however many days, but that's just like the motions of work, you know?

I'm totally fine. I've been, you know, having a lot of breaks at work and taking, you know, all the rest that I need at home. I really am.

If you believe me, then look at me. Look at me right now and say that you believe me. Please, honey, turn and look at me.

Please? I'm sorry. I'm still dirty from outside.

I just, I just really need you to believe me. I need you to believe that I'm okay. I'm okay, honey, I'm okay.

I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Hold me. Please. Hold me.

Hold me tighter, please. Thank you. Thank you.

I'm really sorry. I wanna go to bed. Okay.

Thank you. Thank you. Could you.

.. Could you lay next to me? I'm sorry if I'm asking for too much.

But I just really want you to hold me. Thank you. Thank you.

Thank you. Thank you. I.

.. I messed up today. Big time.

I messed up the presentation. That extra panelist. It was the.

.. the vice chair. My team leader said it would.

.. They were eyeing me for promotion. That's why they brought vice chair on board.

And. .. He told me 15 minutes before the presentation.

I was so nervous. So, so nervous. The presentation started off, you know, okay.

I had my marks. They had all their notes. But then.

.. Then the vice chair asked me something just completely out of left field. And I froze.

I've never frozen up in my life like that. And I. ..

I messed up the PowerPoint to start. There was some leftover text in one of the slides and it was so darn obvious. It couldn't have been more obvious.

I was stuttering my butt off too. Of course I was. Why wouldn't I be? And the vice chair.

.. I messed up his name. It's Vasselhoff.

And I called him Vasselhog. Hey, it's not funny. It's not funny.

It's not funny. Gosh, that is so stupid. This is all so, so stupid.

My biggest chance to nab that promotion and I blew it. They all left the room in like.5 seconds too. God, Chuckie gave me the most disappointed look.

The saddest look. He wasn't even mad. Just disappointed, I guess.

I'm just trying to put it behind me, is all. It's just. ..

It just feels like I'm. .. Like I failed you, you know? I know, I know, I know, honey.

I just can't shake the thought off my head. It's so stupid, but. ..

I was even scared to come home tonight. I was just staying in the car. I parked in the driveway and I just stayed in the car.

I really didn't know what to do. I don't know. I don't know.

It was all in my head, I know, but. .. I kept thinking that you were gonna be disappointed if I told you.

And I couldn't just hold something like this from you. And I'm glad I didn't. I'm glad I told you.

And I knew you wouldn't be upset or disappointed. I was just being stupid. Thank you, really.

Thank you. I. ..

I genuinely don't know what took over me downstairs. I. ..

I really try my best to act. I really try my best to be strong in front of you, in front of everyone, and just. ..

sometimes it doesn't work out. But I've never had that type of emotions come out of me in my life, you know? I've never once had some sort of issue with crying on the spot and just breaking down completely.

It's never happened before. I don't know. I'm.

.. I'm really sorry, honey. I really am.

And a part of me wishes that I. .. I could take it back, you know, that moment a while ago, but I know you would've.

.. you would've killed me if I. ..

if I didn't let you in on all these things that are going on with me. Just. ..

I just wish that I. .. I could've.

.. I could've handled it better. And that I.

.. that you didn't have to see that. Thank you.

I do. I. ..

I. .. I'd like you to talk.

I just. .. I just.

.. I just want to hear you. Yeah.

Mm-hmm. Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm. Sometimes I go back on. ..

the very first day that I asked you to be mine. I thought that I was so mature. I thought that I had everything covered.

You know, maturity-wise, at least. I figured that I'd been through so much, and I've. ..

I've. .. been able to live with myself just being myself without anyone else that.

.. I figured I could do the same with the rest of my life. And when I first started, that's just really how it went.

I didn't have anybody. I didn't have anyone. There's a lot of things going on in my head that's what I'm getting at.

A lot of things. And I'm really trying to piece it all together and move on from it, but. ..

it's just really hard. Oh, God. Just when.

.. when I'm with you, everything just feels like it's complete. You know, when you hold me, it feels right.

It feels like I. .. I really belong.

And I do. I know I do. Whenever you hold me, I feel so loved.

I feel so cared for. It just feels so right. You just make me feel so special inside.

And I couldn't thank you enough for. .. all the.

.. just. ..

I'm so happy that I'm yours. I'm so proud that you're mine. I just want you to show it off to the world.

Just how much I. .. Just how much I.

.. I need you right now in my life. Can I.

.. ask for another thing, please? Okay.

Thank you. Can you. ..

hold my face?