[F4TF] A Summery Christmas Beach Proposal To Be Ourselves In [SFW] [romantic] [proposal] [nervous] [beach] [its summer in the southern hemis

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Hey, um, are- are you okay? That was. ..

a lot earlier, and. .. I know we got away from it, but.

.. Well, I said some mean stuff to you, and. ..

I'm. .. worried of like, getting to you.

Yeah, like. .. You.

.. didn't deserve to be talked to like that. Yeah, that wasn't okay.

Okay? Who you are isn't up to debate, okay? Even if it can feel like it.

Point is. .. No matter what they say.

.. You're still a girl. Okay? And a really pretty one.

Yeah. I really, really like being around you, and. ..

Well, it kind of broke my heart to. .. See your family talk to you like that.

Yeah. Look, um. ..

I. .. Understand things aren't the best at home.

And moving out. .. Doesn't feel very realistic right now, but.

.. We, um, we have each other. Okay? Everything will be okay.

Okay? Luckily. ..

Barely anyone's at this beach. I don't know how. It's early Christmas Day.

Maybe everyone's having lunches still. So that gives us about. ..

An hour, probably, before a bunch of families start coming in. Yeah. And.

.. I feel like you needed some euphoria. And with the beach the way it is.

.. It's the perfect time. So if you're comfortable.

.. You can drop your towel. And reveal the cute swimsuit.

I'm really looking forward to seeing it. Yeah, you haven't budged. You haven't shown me what it looks like.

It's been, like, a little secret. Oh, I see. You wanted the grand reveal.

Okay. Let's see it, princess. I look so pretty on you.

I love it. Yeah. The colour really compliments you.

Yeah. I love it. See, this cute girl in the swimsuit.

.. This is a very valid girl. And even if.

.. Your family can't see the real you. ..

You can. And so many other people that. ..

Aren't stuck in their old ways. Having people that care about you. ..

Can mean everything. And we know that. ..

Well, holiday season's hard for any queer person, really. It's. ..

complicated. You run into family you haven't seen. ..

You have to explain suddenly having boobs. .. You have to explain your life story.

.. And maybe they'll say something nice afterwards, but. ..

Not today, sadly. Yeah. Know that.

.. I think what they said was cruel. Okay? Look, this.

.. Is. ..

Two girls on the beach, okay? This is a valid lesbian relationship, okay? Because you're a girl.

I see a girl. I hear a girl. I.

.. If I could smell, I'd smell a girl. You know? I.

.. Just everything. You don't need to reach a certain standard created by cis people to be valid.

Because sometimes cis people don't reach the standards that are set. Generally, standards for gender are very unfair. But.

.. I wanna be with you. Yeah.

I just. .. Love seeing you like this.

You seem happy. And that's. ..

What matters, really. So. ..

If it's okay with you. .. I wanna kiss.

.. Kiss. ..

My girlfriend. As the waves come in. And.

.. Touch our toes. Just the waves.

Yeah, it might be a bit cold, but. .. Maybe we should test the water first.

That's cold. Okay. Maybe.

.. We could try. ..

Kissing on the sand instead. Okay. You.

.. Kiss like a girl. You.

.. Feel like a girl. All the senses are adding up.

Yes, I'm sure you smell like a girl, too. Yes, I know I don't have a sense of smell. But.

.. That's ruining my analogy of how valid you are, okay? I'm trying to tell you you're cute.

Yeah, I can't. .. I can't smell the perfume you're wearing.

But. .. You seemed really happy when you picked it out, so.

.. I'm sure it smells great. Euphoric, right? Does perfume stay on when you go in the water? Okay, fair enough.

I just didn't know. I thought about that. Well.

.. My inability to smell aside. ..

How about we get into the water? Come on, it'll be great. Sound good? Yeah? Okay.

So. .. It's gonna be cold, but.

.. You know, it's either. ..

You know. .. 40 degree weather, or.

.. The water. Or.

.. I think this is a good idea. Yeah.

Okay, it's cold. It's cold. Can you hold me? Oh my god, it's so cold.

It's such a contrast. Christmas fun, Christmas hate. Okay.

Okay. Okay. Okay.

Knee deep. Knee deep. Yes.

Of course, that could hurt. The wave hit my boots. What do you think's gonna happen? Okay, come on.

This will fare. Okay, let's try to get further in. Okay.

Well, we've done the hard part, so. .. I guess this next bit will be easy.

Yeah, I haven't. .. Grown to go swimming in.

.. Who knows how long. I just, um.

.. Never quite get a chance to. Never quite get a chance to.

No, it's not because of you. I'm happier to be here with you, though. If that's what you mean.

Beaches are. .. Kinda what you make of it, really.

At the end of the day, it's just some sand and some water. That. ..

People spend. .. Hours.

.. Just. ..

Being here. And. ..

Making their own fun. I think that's beautiful. Like.

.. Everything's what you make of it, you know? Maybe.

.. Putting on an outfit. ..

Doesn't mean anything. But. ..

It does to us. And. ..

That's. .. All that really can matter.

What we feel. Even if it's the silly little things that. ..

Well, there's. .. A cute swimsuit.

Kids use such euphoric joy, then. .. That's pretty amazing.

Like, maybe someone would be like, It's just a swimsuit. But it's a swimsuit that allows you to feel confident in your own skin. And that's.

.. Important. Okay? I know this year was really tough.

I know. .. Being trans these days is really, really tough.

But. .. There are those moments where.

.. It's all so worth it. There are moments of joy where.

.. Things are better than they ever could be. When you remember.

.. A time where it wasn't that great. And you.

.. Realize, in the grand scheme of things, how far you've come. What I'm saying is, I.

.. If no one else is gonna say it, these holidays. ..

I'm proud of you. With all my heart. And that's why.

.. I love you. A lot.

I love the way you're kind to others. I love the way that. ..

You're really funny. I love the way you humor me when I. ..

Talk about the things I enjoy. I. ..

I like seeing that. .. Brightness in your eye when you get to slowly be yourself.

I. .. Love getting to just.

.. Be in a place that. ..

Used to be really dysphoric. Bleachers used to be so dysphoric. And yet.

.. Right now. ..

I feel good. Like. ..

I get to wear. .. This cute swimsuit.

And. .. You do too.

It's. .. Kinda beautiful.

I know this isn't the Christmas you were expecting. I. ..

Know that. .. Family outing could've.

.. Gone so much better. I.

.. Know the feeling of. ..

Walking past families doing their. .. Christmas dinners and.

.. Kind of yearning for something similar. But.

.. As myself. ..

I'm not saying this is perfect but. .. I hope.

.. I hope. ..

Splashing and splashing in this. .. Bit of water.

.. Um. ..

Makes you happy this Christmas. You're. ..

A really. .. Beautiful, kind and courageous woman and.

.. I know family can really. ..

Bring us down. And it's. ..

Awful. But. ..

What. .. Isn't awful is.

.. I guess the holiday spirit. Being with the people you love and care about.

Is what. .. This whole thing's all about.

And. .. If.

.. It's. ..

Not. .. Your blood family.

.. Then. ..

It's. .. The people you.

.. Love. ..

And hold dear. It's the. ..

People that you can hold close. It's the. ..

It's the people you can. .. Really depend on when.

.. Things get scary. Things.

.. Often. ..

Don't go how you expect. But. ..

When we're still here. .. Isn't that.

.. Incredible? That.

.. We get to just. ..

Be. .. It's.

.. Our girls. Finally.

We get to be girls. In a beach. In a beach.

In someone's awesome suits. In. ..

Some nice water. The occasional. ..

Disruptive wave. But the thing is. ..

I get to. .. Be with.

.. Who matters the most to me. And.

.. It makes my heart warm. ..

When I get to. .. Be with you.

I know coming to terms with. .. Being trans and.

.. Also being into women. ..

Is tricky. But. ..

Even if things. .. Are tricky.

.. I want to. ..

Overcome those challenges. .. With you.

I. .. Love you a lot.

With. .. All my heart.

From. .. The cute smiles to.

.. The way your hair sits when we talk. Um.

.. I know this isn't. ..

How you. .. Could have ever expected this to go, but.

.. Um. ..

Will you. .. Um.

.. Will. ..

Will you marry me? Yes, I'm serious. I mean this isn't.

.. Will you expect this to happen? It's just.

.. I was. ..

Gonna do it. .. After that family gathering anyway, and um.

.. I. ..

Want to be with you. Even when things are hard. Being trans is beautiful.

Getting to be ourselves is beautiful. Taking control back and. ..

Being able to. .. Be who you truly want to be.

And. .. If you want to be with me, um.

.. I would um. ..

Nothing else could make me more happy. So. ..

What do you say? Um. ..

What do you say?