[F4F] I've Been Thinking About You...

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The level to which I need you without reservation is unmatched. See, I don't think you really understand how much I fantasize and want you. And I know that if we were in the same room together, all I would have to do is look at you with my golden brown eyes and it would be this unspoken communication that once our eyes met, you or I would walk over to the other and we'd start talking and of course probably explore our shared interests and at some point I'd want you to come back to my place.

And I know that this isn't something that you normally do in the sense of what I'm about to describe, but just trust me baby. It's for your benefit, I promise. See, what I want is I want to get in the door with you and I don't want to waste any time.

And I know that normally you are always in control. I know that normally you are not used to taking direction, but rather giving orders. And so with your permission, I want to let you or allow you to let that go.

So with your permission, what I want to do, what I would love to do is slip a blindfold over you so you can't see what I'm doing. I want to pin you against the wall and kiss you hard, my hands up in your curls, feeling every inch of your body against me. And see, normally I'm a good girl.

Normally, I take directions very well. Normally, I'm a good girl that would get on my knees and crawl to you, making eye contact the entire time. Normally, I am a good girl that would say anything, do anything, get on my knees, flip over, beg.

I would put a gag in my mouth. I would be handcuffed, roped, even, in that lovely shibari style that I love so much that I think is so incredibly sexy. Normally, I would call you any name you want.

Normally, I would let somebody do anything to me that they wanted with my permission. But see, tonight, baby, tonight, I want to flip the script. And tonight, I want to show you how much I have wanted you and for how long I have wanted you.

And so when we walk in the door, I don't want to waste any time, as I said before, because see, I am a good girl. But I am also a very, very good dumb. Normally, I am a good girl.

But tonight, I would like you to simply let go and allow me to love on you. Allow me to pleasure you because see, what you don't realize is that there's this itch that I've been trying to scratch for a long time. And it's been I've been itching and I've been scratching and the harder that I itch and the harder that I scratch, the more I realize that nothing is going to scratch that itch, but you.

See, I am like a drug addict at this point, and you are the heroin that can fix it. And so what I want, with your permission and with your consent, is to push you against the wall and not waste any time. I want to kiss you hard with my fingers up in your curls, and my hands exploring your body, my nails running down your body, tracing up and down your spine underneath your shirt across the belt loop, the belt buckles on your pants, or your jeans, or your skirt, or whatever it is that you're wearing that day.

I want all of you, and see with your permission, I want to take a blindfold and I want to slide it over your eyes, not so that you can't see anything, but so that it helps you to let go. Because I know that you normally don't do this, and I know that normally you're not comfortable doing this. And so again, with your permission, I want to slide a blindfold over you, over your eyes, just so you can take it in.

So your sight is taken away, so all of your other senses are heightened. Because see, once your sight is taken away, we know that your sense of touch, your sense of taste, your sense of smell, and your sense of hearing all heighten. And that is what I want.

Because the things that I want to do to you, I want you to experience them fully. I don't want you to get caught up in your head about not being in control. I want you to simply listen, and do, and be, and be present with me.

And so again, with your permission, with that blindfold over your eyes, I want to take your hands, or take your face in my hands, and kiss you hard, and run my nails down your body, unbuckle your butt buckle. I want to slowly take your pants off, and slide them down to the floor, so that they're down by your ankles. I want to trace my tongue across your neck, while simultaneously running my nails further down, feeling how wet you are for me, how much you want me.

And I want you to tell me how much you want me, because I'm not going to do anything without you telling me first. Because as much as I want to be in control, I also want you to feel as though you're safe. Because you are safe with me.

I will never do anything to hurt you. I will never do anything without your explicit permission. You got it? Good.

And so as I'm tracing my hands down, and I'm feeling how wet you are, I ask you, and I lean into your ear, and I ask you in a breathy tone, tell me to feel you, tell me to go inside you. And you, through bated breath, trying to catch your breath, because see at this point your body is shivering in a way that normally it doesn't. Normally I would be the one shivering.

I would be the one up against a wall. I would be the one dripping wet down to my thighs, to the point where I couldn't stand it, at the point when you touch me. But see, tonight it's your turn.

Tonight it's your turn to simply receive. And see, I told you before that I am a good girl, and part of me being a good girl means that I don't have to ask you if something feels good, because I have learned the art of observation. Some might say that my hypervigilance is the result of a childhood, that it was not exactly glamorous, but see for me it is a superpower, because what that means is that instead of asking you does something feel good, or right there, or faster, or harder, or what do you want, I can feel it.

I can listen to every breath you make, every movement you make, listen to the twitches in your breath, the hitches in your breath, the moans that you make, how fast you move against me, how hard you grab me, and in that it is a silent communication back and forth in which primal ecstasy takes over. And so for tonight you're mine. Tonight you don't have to think about a thing.

Tonight, and just for tonight, it's you and me. And so with my hands down by your legs, and I feel how wet you are from me, how much you want me, I start teasing you just ever so subtly with the tip of my finger. Barely enough for most people to take notice, but because you're blindfolded and your sense of touch is heightened, you can feel it, but it is slightly just enough, it's enough to pleasure you, but it's enough to piss you off.

And I feel you push against me harder, indicating you want me to go harder, and so I do. I start feeling how wet you are, and I start teasing you, and you're so swollen for me, and I just, I have to, with your permission, I get down on my knees and I taste you. God, you have no idea, you have no idea how much I've wanted to do this.

You have no idea how many times I've thought about what you taste like, what you feel like, what you feel like on my face, as you ride my face, as I'm eating you out, as I'm licking you up, as I'm tasting all of you, as you continuously just get wetter and wetter for me. And so I let go of you, I take my hands off of you, and I tell you that you can touch me however you want. At this point, I'm on my knees, and I wrap my hands around your thighs to pull you in closer to me, and you take your hand, and you run it from the front of my head back, and you grab a clump of my hair in your hands, and you push me deeper into you.

As you moan for me, as you say, as you say, good God, girl, you're gonna make me come quick. And as I'm moaning, and I'm dripping wet, because see, you don't realize that even though you're not touching me, I am getting so much out of this, because as I'm eating you out, and I'm tasting you, and I'm listening to you in your hair, your hand is in my hair, pushing my head further and further into you, and my hands are on the back of your thighs, I am dripping wet to the point that it's down to my knees. You will have a mess to clean up later, but right now, it's all you.

Right now, it's all about you riding my face, and coming in my mouth, and don't think that once you come in my mouth that I'm done. Oh no, no, no, no, baby, no, no, see, I have been waiting for this for so long that I want to experience you to the fullest, and I want you to get the most out of me that you can, and so you're going to come at least three times for me, do you understand? Good.

And as you buck against my face harder, and I feel you getting wetter and wetter, I lift my head up away from you for just a moment to tell you that no one can fucking hear you, and you need to be loud, that I need to hear you, I need to hear how much this feels good, how good this feels, how much I'm pleasuring you, and so I tell you that if I get any traces of you being quiet, or demure, or polite, that I'm going to stop, because I know, I know that you are not polite, and demure, and quiet, oh no, no, no, I know how feral you can get, I know how primal you can get, I know what you normally expect from others, yeah, I told you I'm observant, and so I know that quiet, and demure, and thoughtful, and polite are not in your natures in this moment, I know that, and so I look up at you again with my golden brown doe eyes, and I tell you that if I get any traces of you being polite, or quiet, that I'm going to stop, do you fucking understand, say yes, good, and I feel you grab my hair harder, and push my head back into you, and I tell you to ride my face, ride it hard, give it to me, give it all to me, and you start breathing harder, and you start shaking up against the wall, using the wall as leverage in my head to steady yourself, because your knees are getting a little weak, and they're getting a little, a little out from underneath you, and I tell you that I want you to come for me, and you tell me that you want me to go inside you, and I say yes, and so I do, I put two fingers inside you slowly, and good God, feeling you from the inside, I'm pretty sure that this is what heaven feels like, touching you from the inside is like touching God, and it's a religion that I am willing to follow till my dying day, it is an altar that I am willing to pray to every single fucking day, it is an altar that I will give offerings to of my tongue, and my hands, and my mouth, and my breath, and my waist, and my body, and everything that I have, I will lay at this altar every single day, because again, touching you is otherworldly, touching you is on another level, and like I said, I'm pretty sure that this is what heaven feels like, so when I slide inside of you, and I feel how wet you are, and how tight you are, I go slowly at first, until you tell me otherwise, I go slowly at first, until you tell me otherwise, but I'm not going to stop eating you, I'm not going to stop tasting you, and I'm not going to stop fucking you, because I want you to come for me, I want you to ride my face, and I want you to come for me hard, do it, do it now, come for me, come for me please, and as I feel you shudder, and shake harder, and breathe harder, and get louder, I feel you from the inside squeezing my fingers so tight, but I don't stop, I do not stop, because I know that I'm going to ride this wave with you, and I'm not going to let up, and so you come, and you come hard on my face, and I am just in ecstasy, please drown me, please drown me, this is a drowning, I'm normally afraid of death, and I'm normally afraid of drowning, but this, this is a drowning that I welcome with absolute open arms, and so you come on my face, and you come hard, and you're dripping down my chin, as I lift my head up, you, your cum is literally dripping from my mouth, down my chin, and down my neck, meanwhile my cum is down to my knees, I am so wet for you, but it's not my turn yet, no, no, no, no, it's still all about you, so I come up slowly, kissing your thighs, as I come up, kissing your hips, your stomach, your chest, and you're disoriented, slightly, and out of breath, and I take the blindfold off of you, actually, no, take that back, I ask you if I can leave the blindfold on you, you say yes, you say yes, and so I grab for your hand, and I lead you to my bedroom, because as I said, I'm not done with you yet, and in the bedroom, I tell you that I have a surprise for you, where we both benefit, and I have a strap in my drawer, you see, and so I ask you, I take, obviously, I take your pants off, and I ask you to step into the harness for me, and you do, you're so good at following directions, and step into the harness for me, and I fasten you to my and I fasten it securely, and get it all comfortable for you, and ask you if you're okay, and you say yes, and I get on my knees in front of you, and I tell you to take the blindfold off, and you do, and I can see your eyes kind of readjusting, because you've been in that blindfold for a hot minute, so it's a little disorienting to be introduced back to the light, now you're in a different room, and so it's a little, it's a little up is down, and left is right kind of thing, and once you get your bearings, you look down, and see me sucking the strap, looking up at you the entire time, because I know that this is something that you would like, and this is something that I like, and me getting off, and you getting off is what this is all about baby, and you look at me, and you're a bit surprised, but also at the same time, you are so unbelievably turned on, and you tell me in that moment that you were not expecting me to do this, but once I've started, you will not stop me, even though everything in you tells you to grab me up off the floor, pin me onto the bed, and have your way with me, and fuck me senseless.