Episode 4 - Keep Your Feelings

Transcript

You did not send him home like that. Why didn't I? How many times have you left a dick appointment unsatisfied? Good point.

I'm tired of niggas leaving me high and dry, literally. Right? Why are we so worried about men when they aren't even worried if we come or not? You're right.

Yep. Damn. I need another drink.

Mmm. Me too. Yes? Two more, please.

No problem. She don't think we have a drinking problem. When it's wine, it's not considered a problem.

It's called being social. Mmm. Facts.

Plus, I've seen people drink way more than this on a flight. We'll be fine. I only have a few more vouchers left anyway.

Okay, now. Don't get me kicked off this plane. Thank you.

So, you don't care about sleeping with a married man. Mmm. What about one-night stands? What about them? Those are fair game too, huh? Absolutely.

If I want it and the opportunity presents itself, then why not indulge? What if you know that you shouldn't? Like, what if it could potentially get messy or come back to bite you in the ass? Oh, I'm no fool.

I do have self-control. Okay. Good.

But, there was this one instance when a fine-ass specimen walked into my office one day. I tried to be cool, but the powers that be. Mmm.

Ooh, where's my blanket? I need to get comfortable for this one. Okay.

So, this guy named Justin walks into my office to train me on some software. I was frustrated with everything. Work life, sex life, life life.

Just so wrapped up in my own shit. So, he walks into my office and I'm caught completely off-guard. I try not to mix business with pleasure, but sometimes pleasure walks into your office and introduces himself.

Yes? Hey, I'm Justin. I'm here to train you on the new software update.

Oh, hey. Come in, come in. I've been expecting you.

Sorry, my office is a mess right now. Let me move this out the way for you. Let me move this out the way for you.

I'm Jessica, by the way. Nice to meet you. We had this guy named Justin come in for a few weeks to help us train on new computer software.

He was average height, brown skin with a low scissor fade, and dressed really nice. Oh, I know who you are. And don't be embarrassed.

I've seen worse. Much worse. You must be pretty important, though.

What makes you say that? This office is pretty big. They don't just hand these out to anybody.

Oh, no. Honey, don't let this office fool you. Well, I want to be like you when I grow up.

You got jokes, I see. His cologne smells so damn good. My cookie almost jumped right out of my pencil skirt and into his hand.

Right. So I have my laptop, and we'll be giving you a rundown on the ins and outs of the software. It might seem like a lot at first, but don't worry.

It really isn't. Okay. Well, let's get started.

For sure. You're the last on my list to train, and then I get to go back home. Oh? Where's home? I live in Phoenix.

Okay, so that's where you're from? Nah. I moved there for work.

I'm originally from Rhode Island. Oh, okay. I've never met anyone from there.

They have black people on Rhode Island? Yes, they have plenty of black people in Rhode Island. Why does everyone always ask me that? What? I really had no idea.

I guess you really learn something new every day. Well, I hope I can make a lasting impression since I'm the first. Me too.

He made eye contact when he spoke as if he knew what he was doing to me. Yet, he didn't seem fazed. Smooth ass.

Talking about a lasting impression. Boy, the only way you can make a lasting impression with me is with money or good dick. And I have my own money.

After a few hours of boring ass lessons on software I've never heard of, I grew restless. Look, I'm sorry. I really don't mean to be rude, but this is a tad bit boring and I'm struggling to stay awake.

Can we please break for lunch? Yes, I was thinking the same thing. Are there any good places to eat around here? I'm starving.

Yeah, there are a few spots within walking distance. You like Greek? I could go for a gyro and a beer right now.

Let's go. We paused and went to a nice little restaurant up the street. We grabbed a table outside and looked over the menus.

So how long have you worked for the company? I've been there almost four years now. What about you? Almost seven.

Seems shorter than that, but time flies. How do you like it? I actually love it.

I never thought I'd say that about a company, but they treat me good here. Really good, actually. I can tell by that office.

You really like my office, huh? I'm just saying. What about you, though? Do you like it? I mean, you have to if you've been here for seven years.

I do. Some days more than others, of course. I travel a lot, so sometimes it gets tiresome, but for the most part, I love it.

Have you seen the city since you've been here, or have you been cooped up in the office and hotel room? I've seen enough, and from what I see, I like. I hope to explore a little more before I leave, but if I can't, it gives me more reason to come back.

Oh, good. She was here. Finally.

I'm starving. I had to change the subject. Quick.

If it wasn't for the traffic and commotion from the lunch crowd, you could hear water dripping from my seat. Panties wet. I knew he was talking about me just from how he said it.

Even how he looked at me was different. Talking about he hoped to explore a little more. He was so smooth with it, which was a turn on.

After we ate, we sat and talked for a little bit. The conversation was great. We talked sports, music, reality TV.

He was funny and charming. I know it's sad, but the fact that he could hold a conversation about something other than sex was dope. It was almost painful to head back to work.

Hell, I forgot we were even working. Felt like I had been kicking it with an old friend. Back at the office, after more boring training and staring at the computer for what seemed like forever, we finished and it was time to depart.

I was almost sad that it was over so soon. Well, it was nice meeting you, Jessica. I had a really good time with you today.

It sucks that it's already over. Maybe you'll need me for more training soon. Likewise.

Here, take my card just in case you're in town again and want to go out and see more of the city. I hate that you've been cooped up in your hotel for two weeks. Oh, for sure.

I'll be sure to use this. Don't act like you don't know who I am either. Boy.

Take care. I shook his hand and watched him walk away. Damn, did that really just happen? Did I really let him walk right out of my fucking office? I watched him shake hands with my boss, say goodbye to everyone, and get on the elevator.

I couldn't believe I let that fine-ass man walk away without even flirting. I knew he was flirting with me, but I ignored all his advances. I was really upset at myself for the rest of the day.

Sitting in my office, typing with Forrest, soaking with wet panties. When five o'clock came, I left the office and drove all the way home in silence. I got home, took a shower, put on an oversized t-shirt, and watched some TV.

I woke up around 9 p.m. , not realizing I had fallen asleep due to a phone call from an unknown number. Hello? Hey, it's Justin.

From work? Oh, it's not too rude to call, but I'm still in town, and you said if I wanted to hang, then I should call. I fixed my voice super quick, trying not to let him know that I was cheesing from ear to ear, or that I had just woke up.

Well, hey, what's up? I was actually just getting ready to head out and go get a drink. Do you want to come? I'm game.

I could use a drink. Can you come and get me? I don't know my way around, and if not, I can just catch an Uber.

Oh, no, don't be silly. You don't need to get an Uber. I don't mind coming to get you.

Where are you? I'm at the JW. You familiar? Oh, yeah.

That's on the way. I'll be there in about an hour or so. That cool? That's good with me.

Okay, bet. Be ready. I'll see you soon.

Okay. See you then. Bye.

I jumped up quick as hell and took a shower, because you have to take a shower when sex is a possibility. Did my makeup really quick, threw on a sundress, no panties, some heels, and put my hair in a bun and jumped on the road. It's like the Lord knew what I wanted, because there was no traffic and all the lights were green.

I made it to the city in record speed. Hey, what's up? Hey.

I'm about five minutes away. You can make your way down to the lobby. Shit.

I'm sorry. I'm not even ready yet. I had a last minute video conference that dragged on way too long.

Oh, no problem. What do you want me to do? Validate your car and come up.

That way you don't have to wait on me in the car. I'll even pay for it. That's if you want to.

Oh, okay. I can do that. What room number is it? Room 1328.

1328. Got it. I'll see you in a few.

Okay. Bet. Bye.

If I want, at this point, I knew the Lord loved me. No denying it. I got to the door and it was left ajar.

I pushed it open and almost fainted. Have you ever gotten so turned on that blood left your head and went to your private area? That's what happened to me.

There were roses and candles lit all over the room. I mean, I didn't think I was that obvious. This whole time, I thought I dropped the ball.

He read my ass, though. He was dressed, button up open, pants on, no shoes or socks. He walked over to me with this smirk on his face like he could see right through me.

I really tried to play tough as if I wasn't excited or turned on, but it didn't work. Wow. What? What is all this? Are you expecting someone other than me or do you greet everyone like this? I mean, I saw the way you were looking at me earlier, how you were talking.

You weren't exactly hiding your attraction to me. I don't know what you're talking about, Justin. And so what if I think you're attractive and flirted a little? A girl can look, can't she? I didn't know you would turn into Rico Suave and do all this.

Look, Jess, cut the shit. We aren't at work anymore. You don't have to front.

What shit? Front? Who's fronting? He stepped closer to me and looked me up and down slowly.

He knew I was bluffing and called it. All right, let's do this. If I touch your pussy and it isn't wet, then I sincerely apologize for jumping the gun and imposing.

You can leave and you'll never hear from me again. But if it's wet, then your ass is mine. Deal? Who do you think? Deal? All right, nigga.

Deal. If this was any other guy in any other setting, I would have smacked his ass for coming at me like that. Like I was some easy piece of ass or something.

But this was different. And he was right. I did want him.

I wanted him when he walked into my office that morning. So I slightly opened my legs as an invitation for him to touch. I tried to keep my poker face, but my pussy sucks at poker.

He touched it, smiled at my face, then laughed. As I thought. You ain't even got no drawers on.

Come in, sit out, and get comfortable. Do you not wear drawers after work? Or did you have your own hidden agenda? Both, actually.

I like being free. And I have plans. I guess I was moving too slow for you.

Any more questions, sir? Actually, yes. Do you want to skip the bullshit, or do you want to sit here and have pointless conversation all night?

Straight to the point. I like that. Let's skip.

I figured you would. Plus, we don't have time to waste. I want to enjoy every minute of this.

He took my hand and took me to the bed. He laid me down and took off my heels. He kissed my feet, then my knees, then my thighs.

He was aggressive, yet gentle, while taking his time, which turned me on even more. He started to eat my pussy. The boy had skills.

Right when I got into it and grabbed the back of his head, he stopped. He stood up and went to his suitcase. What? Did I do something wrong? Nah, not at all.

Hold up. He came back to the bed with two ties. You teaching me how to tie a tie? Girl, do you ever shut up? Relax.

I want you to know that you're getting a pass on talking to me like this, just so we're clear. Why? Could I turn you on too much? Maybe.

He took my dress off, then tied my hands to the hairboard and proceeded to finish. He undressed me and put a condom on and slid inside me. He put my legs up and fucked me like he was mad at me.

He must have known this is what I like. He must have known this is what I needed. While he's working his magic, I was losing my mind.

Who was this guy and why did he know me so well? It's like he knew my body. He stopped and untied me and flipped me over.

He put it back in me and smacked my ass. It was perfect. I felt like crying tears of joy.

It had been a month since I had sex last, but longer than that since I had dick this good. He was talking all kinds of nasty shit to me. Grabbing my hair, putting his thumb in my ass, everything.

I must have cum like five times in a matter of 20 minutes. I kept shaking. He turned me back over and laughed at me and laid next to me trying to catch his breath.

I do not cuddle at all, but this dick made me want to lay on his chest and talk about my dreams. But I tried to play it cool. Do you think Lloyd says she's five too or she's fine too? What? After all that, that's the first thing you say? Do you want something to drink? Yeah, that would be nice.

All that juicing, I'm shocked you aren't dehydrated. That's what you want right now? Why you bringing up old shit, Justin? I'm glad you find that to be funny.

I'm glad I amused you. Me too. I was faking anyway.

None of that was real. Oh my God. Why are you so annoying right now? I'm annoying after good sex.

Oh, so it was good? It was all right. Get me some water before I leave.

I'm sick of you already. He brought back over a bottle of water for me and laid next to me in the bed. Why you looking at me like that? You're beautiful.

I have no idea when I'm going to see you again. Low-key, it's probably best this way. Why you say that? I mean, what did you expect to happen? That sex would be so good that I would fall in your arms and try to date you long distance? Not exactly.

Damn, I can't think that you're beautiful. Yeah, you can. Just don't ruin a good night by getting all mushy on me.

Don't worry. You killed that. What? I just saw that sappy look in your eyes.

That wasn't a sappy look. I had something in my eye. I got allergies.

Nah, nigga. It's cool. You don't have to feed me lies after sex.

I'm not about to get my feelings. Don't worry. Shit, that was real? I just didn't want you feeling any type of way.

Don't worry about my feelings. They're mine. I'm a big girl.

I just wanted to have fun and bust a couple nuts. Well, did I do that for you? Did you enjoy yourself? Absolutely.

Trust me. The roses and candles weren't needed, though. I was going to give you the pussy anyway.

Well, shit. If I had known that, I wouldn't have wasted my money. Just because I don't like the sappy eyes, don't mean I didn't like the show.

Respect. You're cool as fuck. Definitely not what I expected.

Wait. What did you expect? I saw you days ago.

I mean, you are one of the only black women in a position of power at the office. You're not hard to notice with all that ass. With your demeanor.

All about business. Focus. I definitely developed a thing the first day I saw you.

Oh, I know. I dressed sexy on purpose. I ignored you on purpose.

I was the last to train on purpose. Damn. All of this was planned before you got here, boy.

If you thought this was your doing, then you're mistaken. Whoa, whoa, whoa. Wait a minute.

What? Sorry. Look at you all confused.

This is cute. Explain this. Well, we got your profile before you got here.

I scoped you the first day on some private eye shit and then put my plan into motion. Starting off with training and now we're here. I'm pretty good, huh? Actually, yes.

Damn. I feel like a piece of meat right now. Aw, poor Tink Tink.

It's okay. Don't beat yourself up about it. I don't know if I should feel violated or turned on.

A little bit of both. You got caught up in my web. What do you think you are? Some kind of black widow? Funny you should say that.

Actually, yeah. After he got over the shock of being manipulated, we sat up and talked for a few hours before I forced myself to leave. Well, Justin, I'm getting sleepy and I don't sleep over, so I'm sorry, but I have to cut this short.

Yeah, I have to get up in a few hours for my flight, but I enjoyed our time together. I know you did. I never met a woman so arrogant.

I know that, too. Thank you for a good time. No, sir.

The pleasure was all mine. I appreciate you. Let's stay in touch.

Who knows? Maybe they may send you to Phoenix for more training. Don't you wish? Actually, yes.

I got dressed and hugged and kissed him on the cheek. I wished him a farewell and took my walk of shame down the hallway, into the elevator, through the lobby, right to valet parking. I tipped the driver and looked in the mirror and smiled that I finally got some good D and sped off home.

Once I made it home, I showered and slept like a baby. I felt blessed. God really does be looking out for me.

Thank you for listening to this week's episode of Black Widow. Black Widow was created, produced, recorded, mixed, and sound designed by Eric Dizzee. Black Widow was written by Eric Dizzee and Brittany Ray.

This week's episode is starring Brooklyn Janae as Jessica and co-starring Carlos Bates as Justin, Evan Smith as Kim, and Alicia Ha as the flight attendant. Black Widow is strictly crowdfunded, so if you want this to continue, please head on over to www.blackwidowpodcast.com and start donating today.