Dad - I'm Proud

Transcript

Hey there, kiddo. How are you doing? Good? Good, that's very good.

No, I just, um, I need to talk to you. You know, I haven't been talking to you for a while now and I feel like there are some things that I have to say that I've never told you or that I should be saying a lot more. If you give me a minute, it'll only take about five minutes.

Okay, all right, why don't you sit down on the bed, yeah. I just, I need to stand because, you know, that grandpa died about a month ago and it's very hard on all of us, but it's been very hard for me. You know, grandpa wasn't that great of a dad to me.

He, uh, he was never really there, ever. He provided for us, for me and your aunt, right, but he was never really there for me as a father and I always thought that I was doing more than him. I would always compare myself to him when I was being a father to you when you were small and to your siblings and the truth is I was just a little bit better than him, but nowhere near the dad that you needed, nowhere near the father that you needed.

I was still cold, I was still distant just like him. I didn't go above and beyond like I thought I would, like, like I know that's like to not have a father there and I was just like that to you, so I'm sorry, um, I'm sorry for that and I promise you that I've come to the realization that I'm gonna do better and even though you're, you're not, you're not where, at the age that you needed me most and I failed you in that, I'm not gonna fail you anymore. I won't, um, I've come up with a plan for that actually and I know that you, like all of us in this family, love to go out and eat, so I want us to have a day where we go out and we eat, just you and me, and you tell me about your week and I tell you about mine and we talk about whatever you want.

If there's anything you ever need to ask me, I want you to ask me. If you ever need support for anything, I'm there for you. Whatever you decide to do in life, I, I support you.

I've never voiced that to you and I've never shown you the level of attention that you deserve, that you needed, that, that I should have given you. Deep down, I've always been proud of you and I've never told you that, so hey, I'm proud of you. I'm very proud of you and thank you for being the magnificent kid that you are.

Thank you for being the beautiful soul that you are, even though I wasn't there for you. I, um, thank you and I love you, kid. I love you so much and I'm proud of you.

So, I know you have to go to work and I don't want to take up more of your time, but if I didn't say this, if I didn't say this today, right now, I was, it's been eating me alive. So, I'm here for you, okay? And I love you.

I love you, kid. I love you so much. If you ever need anything, I'm, I'm, I'm always there, okay? I'm never gonna, gonna distance myself like that again, I promise.

Alright. Um, have a wonderful day at work, okay? Uh, let me, you had, you had trouble with your tire, right? Let me go fill that up, make sure that, uh, that it's working right and then you can, you can be on your way, okay?

Okay. Love you.