Cuddle Recharge

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Hey, come here, shh, shh, shh, shh, shh, shh, come here, there's a nice spot here next to me on the bed, I got you babe, just hold on, let me get my arms around you, hmm, hold on, just breathe for a minute, hmm, you're alright, just let all those things from the world outside, just let them be outside, just create the bubble here, you're safe here, I promise, hmm, it feels so nice to touch, to just have your body pressed against me, hmm, are you comfy, good, yeah, you know, it's been a really rough time, it's almost unexplainable, hmm, the way the world has been just almost punishing in certain ways, so many things to keep track of, the wheel just keeps spinning, hmm, and all we can do sometimes is just hang on for dear life, I am no exception to that, hmm, just listen to my breathing, feeling, feeling us, hmm, I know you've been working so hard, and you know, I am incredibly proud of you, proud of how you got here, hmm, you know, you've conquered a lot, you've made it through so many things, and yet here you are, still at it, still working hard, and you know, I just, I know sometimes there's an ebb and flow to things, right, I mean, it's like sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're not, and there are days when it's hard to even brush your teeth, but you know, hmm, all you can do is just go to sleep, wake up in a new day and try again, and you know, I, for myself, like I've been trying to change up my morning routine, hmm, you know, sometimes I will wake up and I'll just breathe in the mornings before I even look at my phone, and that helps definitely, but sometimes, you know, it's like, you know, I wake up a little later than I want, and then, you know, I've got text messages and things to track and respond to, and it just, and then your brain is already worrying away, but you know, I mean, patience, patience for oneself is definitely part of it, part of the process, because, you know, I just wanted to tell you that you're fucking amazing, you're fucking amazing, I'm so impressed with you, where you are and what you have been able to accomplish, don't get yourself down for what you're not doing, I mean, we all have that, beware of the shoulds, I should do that, I should do this, all you really should be doing is is working on giving yourself space to come back to yourself, you know, watch out for all the demands and things that pull on you and your time, it's in between those times that spending a moment on yourself, making a cup of coffee or tea, sitting outside on the porch, or going for a walk, even, whatever that looks like, it's just, you know, I have to remind myself to do that stuff on a regular basis, I have to remind myself to do that stuff on a regular basis, I love feeling your skin under my hands, the way you rest your head on me, on my chest, so I wish every day that I could tell you that you are a fucking ball of light, that I could tell you all the ways in which you are magical, that all of us are so incredibly grateful for you being here, it's such a gift to have you, it's a gift to be a person with which you spend your time, I'm so fucking grateful for that, there's so much life to live and really truly the most valuable resource we have is the time we have, there isn't much of it, it's a finite resource, so and the weird thing about time is that we often get on ourselves for wasting it, but we're not really, we're living, we're just being, we're just working on loving ourselves, right, right, you know, I think sometimes back to when I was a kid and I had this moment of, you know, recently I had this moment or this dream that I had that kid sitting down in front of me and I got to just watch him and I got to tell him how proud I am of him and that the things he feels, the lack of confidence, the worries, all the things that he was going through, that it's all going to work out, that it's going to be okay, that the world will show up for him in the way that he needs, even if it doesn't necessarily look like what he wants, it will be what he needs and I could tell him that I'm here for him and interestingly enough, on that day that I had that dream, I found in, you know, a little drawer that I keep a bunch of old pictures, I opened it and on the top of the stack was a picture of myself when I was eight years old, you know, I'm standing by myself leaning against a rock, I've got this bright blue t-shirt and tie-dye shorts and a little red hat but the expression on his face was not smiling, just it was complex, it was deep, it was, you know, I could see the weight of the world already on him. And, you know, I heard this expression recently that the adults we grow into, the adults that we are now are exactly the adults that we needed as children. Isn't that fucking perfect? Oh yeah.

Oh yeah. Oh man. What time is it? Oh, I don't even care.

You know, the energy of feeling you against me, is, it's, I don't even have a better word for it, it's nourishing, it's, I can feel all the power of our energy together, just mixing together. Have you ever felt that? It's like this idea that two people create something together whenever they are together.

It's like you've got half the equation, I've got the other half, and those two things then build a whole. Those two things then build a whole. And there's something magical that happens there.

Hey. No tickling. No, hey, stop it, stop it.

Oh. It's a beautiful summer day outside. Hmm.

If you look through that window right there, see how the design of the sunlight just, it's sort of almost brushing the walls, the floor. Hmm. You know, I love the way that your body molds to me.

It feels, feels like it was made to be against me. And I can't believe, how sexy it feels to have you here. If I close my eyes, I can feel just those perfect parts of your skin just gently resting there.

The subtle movements, I can feel my hips moving back and forth. And I love it. I wish you knew how fucking beautiful you are.

I wish you knew how beautiful I think you are. And all I want to do is let my hands explore. I want to slowly slowly use my fingers to pull your clothes apart.

Using my fingers again to explore the little parts of your skin that get revealed. And then I can feel how your body responds as I push you slowly to the side and scoot down to begin kissing your neck. And perhaps just a little tiny nibble.

Oh, did you like that? I very much enjoyed that. Mm.

Can you see where my eyes are drifting? Down from your collarbone. Let me just kiss right here.

Oh. I just want to pull.