confiding your insecurity to your loving gf [autistic listener]

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Oh my god, that was so funny. Can you believe he actually went through with it? I did not think he would actually do that.

I was so surprised, but. .. Nate.

.. Hello? Are you even listening? Are you sure? I don't know, you just looked like kind of.

.. really deep in thought there. What's wrong? Oh, come on, don't do that.

You know I can always tell when something's wrong, right? I mean, you're not really good at hiding it. Especially when it comes to me.

Hey, what is it? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you upset, but. ..

Why not? Did you not have fun? I know you don't really like meeting new people, but I mean.

.. All my friends that we hung out with. ..

I mean, you've met them before, so I thought it would be okay, and. .. I.

.. I thought it went okay. Did something happen? Honey, if you don't want to go out with me and my friends anymore, that's fine, but.

.. I'm just wondering where this is coming from. Baby, what's wrong? Can I hold your hands? Thank you.

What is it? Hey, I can't help you if you don't tell me. I know you're not asking for me to help you, but.

.. I still want to know what's wrong. What got you so upset tonight? Did someone say something, or.

.. What? Why.

.. Why would you ever think that? I.

.. No, I'm sorry, if. ..

That's not just a random thought that comes in your head. There must be a reason where you think that. ..

I mean, did I do something? There must be a reason that you think that I would somehow be ashamed of you. Why? I mean.

.. Honey, I literally love when you come out with me and my friends. I.

.. I love to show you off, and. ..

I love seeing my friends interact with you, and. .. Seeing how well you guys get along.

I just. .. What is it? You're silly! No, they don't.

They don't think you're weird. What? Baby? Okay, okay.

Okay, can I speak now? I. ..

Okay, I just want to say that I'm sorry for not noticing that you're feeling this way, but. .. I promise you that's not the case.

My friends don't think you're weird. They really like hanging out with you. I mean, I'm like 99% sure.

.. I'm like 100% sure that they like you the most out of all the people I've introduced them to in the past. I'm serious.

Every time we talk about you when you're not there, they're always talking about how cool you are, and like. .. How smart you are, and like.

.. You're funny. They like you.

They like that you're just straightforward, and. .. You know, no drama.

Like some people. Okay, so you're a little introverted, or. ..

Awkward, as you say, but. .. So.

.. Everyone's a little shy sometimes, that doesn't. ..

Maybe. .. I wish you wouldn't say that about yourself.

No, it's. .. Like you say that, like you say stuff that makes it sound like you think that.

.. You being autistic is somehow like. ..

I don't know, a bad thing, or. .. A setback, or something that.

.. I don't know, something that. ..

People don't like, I. .. I mean.

.. Hey, listen to me. Is that.

.. Is that what you felt that way tonight? Baby, I wish you wouldn't compare yourself like that.

Okay, so what? Yeah. He brought his new girlfriend over, and she was super outgoing, and extroverted, and.

.. Like a total social butterfly. And you're not, and that's fine, that's.

.. You don't have to be like that, I don't even want you to be like that. I just want you to be you.

I just want you to be comfortable, I don't. .. I'm not asking you to be like.

.. I don't know, go up to everyone, and chatting them up, and being like this. ..

Crazy, super crazy social person. I'm not even like that. Okay.

Why do you think that's a bad thing? Baby. ..

Hey, stop it, stop it. You don't embarrass me, okay? I'm not gonna let you talk about yourself like that.

No, no, I'm not even gonna let you. .. Because it's not true.

You've never embarrassed me, ever. You've never made me look bad, I don't know why you think that. Hey, if anyone ever said shit to you, I would drop them immediately.

Are you kidding? Okay, even if they did so what? I don't care what they think.

I love how you are. I love how. ..

Open, and straightforward, and. .. Just.

.. You, you are. I love how passionate you get about the things you like, and.

.. I love your sense of humor. I love.

.. I just love you. And I wouldn't change anything.

And so it hurts me to think that you would. Because I don't want you to change you. Baby, I don't want you to.

No, it's not. .. I really don't like when you talk about yourself like that.

Nor when you talk about your autism like that. Like it's some sort of like. ..

I don't know. I just know. ..

It makes you the way you are, and. .. I love the way you are.

And. .. Even though you might struggle sometimes.

.. It doesn't matter to me, because. ..

I mean, I'm there to help you out. Just like you're there to help me out with the stuff I struggle with. I mean.

.. I don't know anyone else that would be as patient with me as you are. It makes me really sad though.

.. When I think about yourself like that. Can I hug you? Oh, come here.

I love you so much, you know that? Don't be mean to yourself, okay? Don't be mean to yourself, okay? I love you so much.

And all my friends love you too. I promise. They don't think you're weird, and they don't think you're a burden.

They love hanging out with you. I swear, I wouldn't say it if it wasn't true. You know my friends aren't like that.

I mean, they're simple people. As long as you're a chill person, and. ..

Not mean, then they'll like you. I want you to know that. ..

I never have and. .. I never will wish for you to be any different.

I fell in love with you. Not like I fell in love with you minus autism, it's just you. It wasn't a problem for me when we started dating.

I don't know why you think that it would be a problem for me now. You're so silly. Are you feeling better? I know.

But do you promise? You promise you're gonna try to be nicer to yourself? You're not stupid.

Stop it. Hey, stop. Don't make me punch you.

Don't make me punch you for being mean to my partner.