Brother - Let's talk

Transcript

Hey. You got a minute? Yeah? Ok.

I just want to talk to you for a second. Alright, great. Let me uh, I'm gonna sit down here, yeah? So look, I um, I don't really have this prepared in any way, I uh, I just have to say it, ok? And it might seem like a lot, but I promise you that it's just something I have to say, so the only thing that I ask is that you don't interrupt and that you just hear me out.

Uh, can you just give me a second? Uh, no, no jokes, this isn't a joke, I promise, ok? I'm being real right now, like I'm being truthful, it's not a joke, ok? I know that when we were younger, you know, having to deal with our parents wasn't great, and I know that we don't talk about it, ever.

It's kind of a thing that I think our family has a curse because we just don't deal with problems, we just bury them, or ignore them, and we just pretend like we're this happy family that uh, everything's, you know, picture perfect and there are no problems whatsoever, which is complete fucking bullshit. Um, first thing that I want to say is I know, I know that it wasn't easy, I know that it was hard with our family, and that you're not crazy, whenever you think about it, whenever you're trying to fall asleep and all you can think about are those flashbacks of things that happened, things that should have happened, things that didn't happen, the failings, the everything, like a collage, right? Fucking PowerPoint presentation, probably don't even know what that means, but yeah, you're not crazy, I was there and you're right, you're remembering it correctly, and the emotions that you've had, the fears, the sorrow, the pain, even the numbness, it's, it's not bad, it's warranted, you know, it's, it was necessary, it's necessary for you to feel that way because of how fucked up our family truly is, and it sucks because you gotta pretend like we're all good, right?

On paper, they're great parents, but in the real world, they're not, they weren't, they had a lot of faults, they did good, but they had a lot, a lot of faults, and you shouldn't feel bad about feeling that way, you know, it's, it happened, it was the way that they tried to bring us up, the things they tried to do, they did it the wrong way sometimes, usually, and you're completely entitled and feeling bad about it, but I want you to know, this is the most important thing, I'm here for you, it's been my fault too, I'm the older one here and I haven't been there, I haven't, we haven't been in it together, we've just been along for the ride in the same car, so from now on, I want you to understand that I know, and if there's anything that you need, anything at all, I'll be there for you, always, whatever you might need from here on out, whether it be dealing with our fucking family or anything else, I'm here, and I'm here for you, I only ask that you're there for me too, because we can't keep doing this, we can't keep being like them, being like our family, we gotta be different, let's talk about things, okay, we have to truly talk, we have to share, that's the difficult part, isn't it? We talk all day, but we don't say, we don't share what we have to, we leave that out, and that's not right, it's not right, so whenever you want to talk about something, whenever you need anything, you just let me know, because I love you, I love you, you're my family, and I haven't ever told you that, I think, before, now that I think about it, and it's a fucking crime that I never did, so, oh, no, final thing, you know, we're older now, we're not kids anymore, I don't think things are gonna change with our parents, I think they're gonna stay the same, you can try to talk to them, but they're set in their ways, and set in being who they are, and I love them, but at the same time, I can't help but feel, I don't know what I feel, but I'm pretty sure you get what I mean, point is that, with them, we can always just talk to them, the way we always do, and if you ever want to truly talk to them, like, I'm trying, you know, I'm bringing this up with you now, for real, then just let me know, and I'll back you up, and we'll talk to them, okay, but I want you to feel comfortable with that, yeah. Alright, that's all I wanted to say, if you need a ride later, I'm gonna go out, so, just let me know if you need a ride, I can drop you off, pick you up later, yeah, I'm gonna go eat something, in the kitchen, so, if you need anything, you're good, good.