Boyfriend - Undeserving

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What do you mean, sweetheart? Well, I mean. ..

Of course you deserve everything that you've gotten. What do you mean? That.

.. that doesn't. ..

No, go ahead, go ahead. Explain yourself all the way and then I can tell you what I. ..

Because I'm trying to understand what you're saying specifically, but go ahead. Hmm. I mean.

.. Okay, yes, I sometimes don't feel like I deserve things when they happen to me, I'm sure. I think it's from a lack of confidence or self-esteem, it can be.

But. .. For you, you're saying what? That you don't feel like you deserve everything that's been happening to you in the past few months? The promotion, the.

.. Yeah, like all the good stuff. I think that might just be because.

.. well, that's actually very interesting. How long have you been feeling this way? Hmm.

All right, and. .. Do you remember when you started feeling this way, specifically? Hmm.

No, I'm just trying to understand, because there has to be a reason, you know? Have you always felt this way whenever good things happen? Like, is it a new emotion that you're feeling in this circ.

.. like, in this period of your life? Hmm.

Isn't. .. Isn't that when, um, your friend.

.. I forgot what her name was. Yeah.

Isn't that when they got their, um, they didn't, they lost their job? It was, right? Huh.

Yeah, that tore you apart, didn't it? You got really sad. I mean, you're very.

.. you do have a huge amount of empathy for everyone. I think that.

.. hmm. Well, I know that they work really hard, and they've always kind of had bad luck, in a way.

And obviously you care about them a great deal. I think that, off the top of my head right now, I'm just thinking that. ..

You're sad because good things are happening to you, and you don't feel like you deserve them when you see other people struggling that you care about. But you can't really do much about it, because they have to do it for themselves, technically, you know? Um, I think that it just hurts you a lot.

I mean, sweetheart, you're. .. You're the kindest, most beautiful soul I've ever met in my life.

So I really think that when other people that you care about suffer, you're gonna feel bad for them. And when other people that you care about suffer, you automatically suffer with them, you know? It's one of the things I love about you.

I just never met someone as caring as you, as kind as you. That doesn't mean, like. ..

This is just me trying to understand it. I'm not telling you that that's wrong or anything whatsoever. I'm not quite the opposite.

But after you've had those emotions. .. I personally think that you need to consider, you know, that it's not your fault, and.

.. No matter what, things always can change, you know? Things can always get better for them.

It's not. .. Not to minimize what they're going through, but it's not the end of the world.

We know that they're okay. And they're already looking, you know, they have multiple job openings that they might be able to get. So, just because you're doing really, really well, and someone isn't, and you feel that pain, doesn't mean that you have to go through all of it, and feel it so hard, you know?

Even more so, it should never become a question of, do I deserve what I have? Because you do. You're the most deserving person I know.

You definitely deserve it. You deserve everything. You deserve a lot more.

You definitely deserve it. You deserve everything. You deserve a lot more than all of this, too.

Does that, does that make sense? Yeah. No, of course.

And I don't, I don't want you to just, I don't want you to ever feel bad about that stuff, you know? I didn't know you felt this way. I'm glad that you talked to me, and that you, you, you came to me with this, because I had no idea that you were feeling this way.

Um, whenever you have anything like this, you let me know. And I'm obviously not just trying to fix it, but I am trying to, in any way that I can, just offer help, my love, okay? That's it.

If sometimes you just want me to listen, then just tell me that first, and I'll listen, okay? Just letting you know that, as well. Yeah, of course.

Um, at the same time that we're saying all this, I just really need you to understand that you do deserve everything. You deserve so much more, too. Like, there are just so many things that I want to give you that I can't at the moment, but that I wish I could give you, and that I will in the future, that I will give us.

And I'm promising you that, because it will happen. I know it will. Okay? Okay.

Can I get a kiss? Yeah. Also, you're just absolutely stunning.

You know that, right? I'm sorry I had to say it. I have to.

I gotta let you know how beautiful you are, right? All right. What do you want to do now? Oh, whatever you want to do, I'm down.

Just tell me.