Bestfriend - Crush

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No that's not what I mean okay that's not what I mean no what I mean is I don't know how to explain it okay yeah my my emotions like what I feel oh she's look you're my friend okay you're my friend and even to you I can't explain it I tell you everything I tell you absolutely everything but I don't understand what it is that's so different about her that she just yes it might be a crush or whatever but I don't understand why I don't understand if it's because the world kind of melts away when I look at her now time just stops it stops like right away and I don't I don't understand why that makes me feel the way I feel it makes me believe it soulmates exist but at the same time I don't think that's true I don't well I've seen the track record you have with people and I've seen how other people have had that track record and it doesn't let me believe in it so quickly so easily it makes me distrust why I like her why I seem to be so infatuated by her I want to talk to her like twice so I don't know I don't know how to explain it I don't understand why huh what do you mean what specifically well I like I like I obviously like how she looks I love her eyes I love when she looks at me I just I feel seen for the first time in a long time and it's a different kind of scene because you're my best friend and I love you I love you so much but you know I feel loved even though she hasn't told me she loves me it's an unspoken word that's all too powerful it's an unspoken action that I try to define but I just I can't I can't define it I'm not sure what it means and I keep trying to find it right now I try to find the words I try to find the emotions I try to find why I feel this way and nothing nothing is clear just that I want to think about her I want to think about her for so long that's that's all it seems real to me oh it seems true oh that makes sense listen to me listen to that I sound so fucking stupid right now I do it sounds stupid because I've only talked to her twice and I just got such a romantic I guess I hate saying that word but it's true I'm such a fucking romantic whatever let's go do something get my mind off of this girl I don't want to keep talking about it right now maybe later on I'll finally have the nerve to talk to her more and do something about it but I'm just not ready for rejection it'll be alright let's just go do something whatever you want to do come I don't want to talk about this stuff anymore let's go.