Baby, Don’t let that Endo Brain make you think those awful things

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What? Baby, please just breathe. You're just anxious and you've been very emotional right now and I don't like it when you talk to me like that.

No baby. No, what did we agree on the last time this happened? Hmm? That's right, we're not gonna fight.

Not when I know you're hurting. Baby, I'm sorry that you're going through this but you can't push me away. Baby, I'm not arguing with you.

Please, I don't want to fight. No baby, I swear I wasn't avoiding you. I wasn't, I was just busy.

Oh my god, no. No, I do not think you're a burden. God, no baby.

Baby, please don't let those thoughts take over. No, you're not a bad person and you're not a burden. I'm so sorry that I couldn't be here for you in that moment.

No sweetheart, I honestly just lost track of time and I didn't think you needed me. You didn't communicate that you needed me, sweetie. We've talked about this, darling.

We've said when you need me, all you have to do is call me and you know I'll be there for you if I can. Oh, I love spending time with you. Yes, even when you're hurting and you just need me to cuddle.

Baby, it hurts me when you say those mean things. I know you don't mean them lovely but it still hurts. I know I said some things that I probably should have worded differently.

You mean the world to me, you know that. I honestly don't know how that's how you felt. I'm sorry, baby.

I'm sorry, baby. Come here. Oh no, no, sweetheart.

I'm not mad at you. I'm never mad at you. I am, however, frustrated by what that endo-brain is telling you.

Yeah, I know, sweetheart. I know you can't help it but you can fight it. You know I love you more than anything in this world and you are amazing.

I really do care about you and you know there's insecurities that are just that. You never have to question if I want to be with you. I care so much about you, baby.

I know I'm with you through the good and the bad. You're the one I choose to be with. You're the one I choose to be with.

I am not going to leave you. Look at me, baby. You mean the world to me.

Believe me when I say this. You matter to me. Endo can stop being mean to the woman that I love.

I know, I know. You don't have control over those emotions. But, baby, you can listen to me.

And when I tell you how much you mean to me, you have to believe me. I'm not like those other girls. The ones who tell you you're a burden.

I'm not them, baby. I would never think that. I would never think that.

You can't control your endo and it is not your fault, sweetheart. It's an awful disease and you deserve to be understood, to be cared for and to know that you can always be vulnerable and safe with me. You are amazing, strong and beautiful and you are one of the kindest souls I've ever met.

So when you've been mean to yourself, it hurts me, baby. Because you deserve all the love and all the brightness you share with others. It's okay to be in the dark.

Because that's when I shine my light on you and help you, baby. God, I know it hurts, sweetie. I know.

Come here. You're so strong, babe. And I just wish you could see that with me.

You don't have to be. That's it, sweetie. Oh, shh.

You can cry with me. I don't think it makes you weak. Far from it, my love.

You've got this, okay? You're gonna be okay. Shh.

I've got you. Here in my arms. I will hold you here for as long as you need.

It's okay. I'm going nowhere. You mean the world to me.

My beautiful, amazing woman. All mine. It's okay.

I've got you. You are not the bad things. You're all the goodness in the world.

You matter to so many people, including me. You shine so bright, baby. I love you so much, sweetness.

I am not going anywhere. I need you to do something for me, baby. I want you to repeat after me.

I am not a burden. I am not a burden. I matter.

Say it, baby, please. I am a strong, wonderful person. I am special.

I am not my disease. Baby, say the last one. Come on, for me.

Oh, no, it's okay. You are not your endometriosis, baby. You aren't.

You are so much more. I love everything about you. I love you.

So, sweetie, how about we just have a cuddle and stay in and watch the movies and just relax? What's that? Stroke your hair? Yes, princess, I will stroke your hair.

Just lay your head on my chest. Listen to my heartbeat, sweetie. Hear it? God, you are so cute, girl, with my arms.

I love you, baby. You are okay. I've got you.

It's okay, my love. Just relax. I'm right here with you.

Good girl. God, I fucking love you. I love you, baby.

It's okay. I'm right here with you. Shh, it's okay.

I've got you. I've got you, baby. It's okay.

I'm right here, baby. It's okay. It's okay, baby.

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.