Awakening

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I never thought this could happen to me. I've always been the good girl, the one who prays diligently and follows the commandments. But lately, my thoughts have been strained into forbidden territory, a secret garden of sinful desires that I can no longer ignore.

It started with a glance, one that lingered too long on the chiseled features of a man at church. You. Your eyes sparkle with a mischief that both frighten and excite me.

Every Sunday, I find myself hoping for a glimpse of you, my heart racing for the hunger I can't quite place. Each night, I lay awake in my bed, the moonlight casting silvery shadows across my room. I can feel the warmth between my legs, a pulsing ache that begs to be soothed.

My hands, trembling with anticipation, slip beneath the waistband of my panties. I've been taught that this is wrong, that lust is a sin, but in these quiet moments, I can't help but surrender to the wicked pleasure of my own touch. I imagine it's you with me, your strong hands guiding mine, showing me the secrets of my own body.

Your lips, warm and soft and gentle, making their way across my skin, my neck, my chest, my nipples hardening under your kisses, my back arching as you lick the sensitive flesh. In working your way down my body, I spread my thighs for you, feeling you grip my hips, I flex up to meet your mouth, and you kiss me, our most secret, private spot. Your mouth is so warm, so wet, so soft, it's intoxicating, I have to have more of it, please keep kissing me there, it feels so good, your tongue slides out and licks at my sensitive flesh.

Nearly drunk on the pleasure that your mouth has given me, I long to return the favor, I lay back and work myself over to you, hardly daring to touch your beautiful body, running my fingertips down along your chest, your pants are tight, tented around your throbbing manhood, and I slowly, timidly reach my hand down, feeling your warmth, pulling you out, so I can admire you in all your glory, your cock is so beautiful, it's so long and thick and so big, I don't know how it's ever going to fit inside me, but with it in front of my face like this I can't resist, I get closer, inhaling the smell of your musky sweat, only it drives me further, making me want you more, I stick my tongue out and lick my way along the length of your shaft, your pre-comb tastes so sweet on my lips, so I open them and let your head inside my mouth, I picture you hovering above me, your eyes locked onto mine as you whisper how beautiful I am, how this, something that is this lovely cannot be sinful, my back arches as I press my fingers deeper into myself, pretending it's your thickness filling me, stretching me in ways I've only ever dreamed about, oh fuck, I can't help myself when I think of you, I have to touch myself, it's too much for me to bear, the feelings are so intense, so deliciously wrong, yet I can't stop, I am possessed, consumed by a need that burns hotter than any fire, I'm falling, falling into an abyss of desire and I want you to fall with me, please, I want you to claim me, to make me yours in every sinful way imaginable, oh god, forgive me for these thoughts, for this aching lust that courses through my veins, but I can't fight it any longer, I want to feel your forbidden fruit inside me, to be utterly and completely defiled by your divine flesh, I want to be your sinful apostle, preaching the gospel of carnal salvation with every moan and scream of ecstasy, yes, fill me with your holy seed, let us create our own forbidden paradise where sin and salvation dance together in an eternal tangle of lips and limbs, oh fuck, I can feel it building inside me, I'm going to come, I'm gonna come for you, my love, my sin, my lust, my everything, oh, in the aftermath of my wicked release, I know that I've crossed a line from which there is no return, I am no longer the woman I once was, I am reborn, awakened to the power of my own desires, and though I may seek forgiveness in the light of day, in the quiet of my room, under the cloak of night, I will always be a sinner in the eyes of the Lord, a woman redeemed by the fires of her own burning lust.