Asking a Werewolf to Turn You - Accept

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Hey, I'm here. I know I'm a little bit late, yeah. Because I had to be sure you weren't followed.

Yes, I've been here for a while. Because you may know what I am, you may be cool with it, but that doesn't mean that other people know that they should know that they would be okay with it. Somebody is going to get hurt if people find out about this.

I just. .. Are you completely mad? You know what I am.

You know that tonight's a full moon. You know what's going to happen. Why do you want to be anywhere near me? You should want to be as far from me as you can possibly get.

I just don't understand what was so important that it couldn't wait until tomorrow. What did you want to talk to me about? Yes, the fact that I gave you so much grief before agreeing to come out and talk to you should be a pretty good indication of how concerned I am.

You're important to me. I care about you. I don't want to hurt you.

And you know as well as I do that when I turn, I'm going to forget almost everything about who I am, who's important to me. I'm going to lose almost all of my self-control. And anyone who's around me is in danger.

Look, if we're going to talk, let's do it so I can get out of here, so I can get somewhere safe. Okay? Safe for you.

Safe for me. What is it that couldn't wait? Are you out of your mind? Why would you want me to do that? No.

No, no, no, no, no. What makes you think that me turning you is a good idea? It is a terrible idea.

It is an awful idea. I just don't understand what's going through your head that you even think that you should bring that up. It's not funny.

It's not a joke. No, it is not. This is a curse.

It is a curse. The transformation hurts. I have to lose my mind.

I might hurt people that are close to me. People that are important to me. I don't have control of who I am.

Why would I want to do that to you? Why would I want to do that to anyone? Look, I don't know if you have read too many books or seen movies or what it is that makes you think that this is cool, that this is okay, but let me tell you a little bit about my life.

I don't get to age and that may seem like a really cool thing until you realize that what I have to do is I have to watch all the people that mean something to me grow older and older and eventually die. And I also have to move around. I can't stay in one place too long or people will start wondering why I never age.

What do you think they're going to go to? They're going to go to the supernatural. They're going to go to the paranormal.

And that does not end well for anyone. So it is not fun and games. It is not what you may think it is.

I can't even believe this. You know, every time, every time it's a full moon, I'm afraid. Every.

Fucking. Time. I don't get to have peace of mind.

I have to keep track of the calendar and know exactly when the full moon is coming. I have to make sure that I don't have plans that are going to require me to be around other people. I have to find excuses to get out of events, parties, meetings, whatever.

Okay? And then I have to transform anyway, which hurts like hell, both physically and emotionally, because after I transform back into a human, I have to look at the aftermath of my actions. And I feel like a fucking monster every time.

It doesn't even matter if I've done anything. It doesn't matter if I've hurt anyone. I still feel like a monster because I lost who I am.

I lost track of my humanity. I lost my values. I lost my inhibitions.

I became an animal. I descended to the level of a beast. How do you think that feels, month after month, year after year, century after century? How do you think that weighs upon my conscience? How easy do you think it is to keep my sanity when that's what I have to deal with? No, this is just, this is a mistake.

This whole thing was a mistake. All of it. I should never have let you get so close to me.

I should never. Because by getting close to me, you got curious, and you saw me transform back from a wolf into a man, and you knew what I was. Yeah, I don't care though.

I know you're okay with it. That's not the point. The point is that if you hadn't seen that, you would not be here asking me to do something horrible to you.

Asking me to rob you of your dignity, of your humanity, of your identity. What part of this is not a mistake? This is.

.. You were not supposed to see that. You are not supposed to be here.

But how can you be so certain this is what you want? How can you know what this is going to be like? Or rather, knowing what it's going to be like, how can you still want it? Why, why, if you've thought about this, if you've pondered the risks, if you've pondered the consequences of all this, why do you still want it?

Really? No, I had no idea that you had those feelings for me. But that doesn't change anything.

Why knowing that you have these feelings for me, would I want to turn you? Oh, I see. No, it doesn't mean I'll turn you, it means I understand.

I understand that you. .. It's painful for you too, isn't it? To know that you're going to grow old and die, while I just continue on.

Yeah, I understand, but that doesn't mean I'm going to turn you. Well, I didn't mean to turn those people, that is the point. I don't want to turn anyone.

Like I said, this is a curse. So why would I do it to someone that cares for me? And yes, I'm going to be honest about this, who I have feelings for too.

I have been so careful for so long, not to let anyone get close to me. Why do you think, after so many centuries, that you're the first person that I let get close to me? Because I fell in love for the first time in a very, very long time, and with my feelings for you, it was just more than I could bear to keep my distance, to keep you away, to scare you off.

I couldn't do it. Because I'll tell you something, it gets lonely. It gets very lonely.

But I've never turned anyone deliberately before. That's not the kind of person I am, okay? It's always someone who was in the wrong place at the wrong time, and couldn't get away from me.

And look, I don't know if you've really thought about this, but getting bitten isn't necessarily going to turn you, at least not the way you want it to. Well, yeah, there are a lot of werewolves like me that don't age, until we learn how to stop turning, but once that happens, we do age and die. Why would I not want to learn that? I don't like this.

But no, that's beside the point. The point is, there are other people who get turned, who the only thing that happens to them is that they turn into werewolves on the full moon, but they still age and live a normal human lifespan. What if you're one of those people? What if I turn you and the only thing that happens is that you get the curse without the immortality?

It doesn't solve your problem about having to grow old while I don't. It just saddles you with guilt and a burden that you have to bear for the rest of your life. And then there are other people too, who turn during the full moon, but even when they're not turned, even when they're in their human form, they've forgotten who they are and they're more wolf than man.