All About My Self-Pleasure

Transcript

Well, this is going to be a different one, isn't it? Welcome back, you sexy woman. I just have to say how honored I am that this was even on your list of suggestions in the first place.

It kind of blows my mind that it really actually is, to at least some of you, it is a rather substantial fucking turn-on to think about getting an insight, looking at exactly what I do to myself when I want to feel fucking good. And I just want to say that I understand, generally speaking, that from what I'm told, not a lot of men vocalize their pleasure when you're, you know, working your magic on them. A lot of women tell me that they want to hear it, that it leaves them wondering, you know, if what they're doing is being enjoyed.

And so, when you get to hear me just fucking going to town on my cock for you, there's no question in your mind whether I'm enjoying it or not, you know I am. And I mean, I know exactly how that feels. I fucking love, I love to watch you, to know what you do to yourself.

I love to learn from it, I love to pick up on all the little things that I could be doing to you that you already know you like. So I can understand wanting a more complete, filled-in mental picture of every little thing that is causing all those noises I'm making for you. I imagine you're wondering what you can do exactly with your fucking hands to get the same reaction I can with mine.

And I am, as I said, absolutely honored. So the question, the question of how I like to do it has actually changed from what it used to be, I have to say. Masturbation since I found you, you sexy woman, is way fucking better than it ever was before.

Oh my god. A lot of it has to do with my internal fantasy life. I'm someone who, you might have picked up on this from one or two of my audios, I have a hard time, I have a hard time keeping myself from being hard on myself, you know?

And when it comes to fantasizing, I don't like, generally speaking, to fantasize about doing things with someone that I don't think they'd want to do. I can look, I can hunger and be attracted, but in terms of actually visualizing, fantasizing, thinking about what I want to do, it's far more difficult for me unless I have some reason to believe they might actually be into me. And especially if I have reason to believe they're into what I'm fantasizing about.

But so, that generally used to limit my fantasy life to, you know, women I'd personally met who I could have envisioned genuinely wanting me. Which was not as large a pool as you might think. I am very, very rapidly changing my concept of myself since I met you.

And now, oh wow, now when it comes to fantasizing, it's like the world is my fucking oyster. Because I know, I know how many of you, well not exactly, but I know that there's a lot of you listening to me right now. I know there's quite a few of you that I could realistically imagine wanting to have me buried inside you right now, and I would fucking love to be.

But given that I have no idea what you look like, my fantasy about you is extraordinarily varied. You look different every single time. I mean, if I know something about you specifically, then I'll fill in that blank when I fantasize about you in particular.

So things have changed since I found you. For one, for one, I almost always masturbate with my wireless gaming headphones with a built-in microphone. Just in case I want to crank up the volume on something filthy, or if I want to hit record when I'm about to come for you.

It's nice to have the headset on when I'm in the middle of things. And since I met you, I don't just use my hands anymore. You've probably heard me using my toys in some of the audios I've done, and ooh, I love them, and we'll get back to those.

But when it comes to my hands, I've found for most of my life, most of my life really, my favorite, favorite way to grip my cock while I'm stroking is actually overhand with my dominant hand. Now I know that most. ..

Like, when you think about someone stroking their cock, like when you imagine a guy wrapping his hand around himself while he's, you know, thinking about you and pumping himself and moaning and throbbing for you, you usually imagine, I would think, the standard kind of stroke where he reaches down and sort of curls his fingers underneath and curls his thumb across the top and makes a fist and is pumping up and down. Everyone, everyone, I think, imagines that instinctively as the sort of quintessential jerking off, you know? And it's fine.

It's fun. It feels nice. But when you turn your hand over, when you have the side of your thumb and forefinger pointing towards you instead of away, it changes some things because now, oh yes, now the tightest part of your fist, that ring that's formed by your thumb and your forefinger, now it's the first thing that fucking cock feels.

Goddamn, I fucking love it. I love it because, you know, if I was shoving my cock into your sweet little pussy, the tightest part would be right at your rim and then it's so warm and snug behind there. So I love pushing my cock through that rim of those fingers and feeling it slide along my palm, having my fucking palm over my cock head.

Oh my God. Once I tried that, I could never, I mean, I could go back for a little bit, but oh, the overhand grip is my thing. The overhand grip is where I love to go when I'm stroking, particularly when I do not intend to last all that fucking long.

Yes. I will sometimes turn my hands over just to, you know, use different muscle groups in my arms because the ones that involve having your arm twisted around, don't you get used all that often? And I like to pump this cock nice and fucking hard when I get really excited.

I'm sure you've heard that. I like using my non-dominant hand as well. I am right-handed.

I generally do stroke with my right, especially when I want to cum. Sometimes I like to warm up with my left hand, and if I have a lot of time and I'm not already aching hard and dripping pre-cumming ready to just fucking get in there and do it, if I have a nice leisurely long stroke session ahead of me and I'm all alone, which I often get to be when I'm at home, is all alone, I like to tease myself beforehand with my fingertips, just gracing them all over me, tracing up and down the edges of my cock and all over my fucking heavy, smooth, fucking swollen balls, and I love, oh, I love teasing my nipples, both while I'm warming myself up and when I'm getting close to cumming. Not just teasing them, but I love fucking playing with my nipples.

Everything I tell you to do to your nipples, I basically do to mine, strumming, stroking back and forth, flicking hard with my fingers, pinching, twisting, pulling, rhythmic little squeezes, oh fuck, oh god, sorry, I lost track of what I was talking about, and I don't use a particularly fancy lube, I just a standard water-based liquid lube, I believe this is actually the KY brand, I think it's one of the more well-known ones, I don't know, I haven't really shopped around. It was on sale, tried it once, liked the consistency, never bothered trying anything else since then, that's been a few years now. I think I should break it out now, don't you? I mean, you probably know that I have been squeezing and stroking, pumping my cock while I've been talking to you.

I'm not going to describe those kind of strokes without using them on myself, I'm not a monster, but it strikes me that while I am enjoying this feeling, you don't get to hear it, so let me lube it up here, okay, get that all over my hand, oh yeah, oh, oh, oh, oh yes, fuck, that's so good, okay, okay, so yes, now that I'm nice and lubed up, oh, yes, now, now that I'm nice and lubed, the first thing I'm going to do is I'm going to keep my hand a little bit loose. I don't always do it this way, sometimes I'll start with my left hand if I've got lots of extra time, but I'm going straight to the right, oh god, yes, I'm so fucking horny, I need it so bad, so I'm going to alternate between the overhand and underhand grip just to spread that lube all over, oh, oh, yes, yes, yes, one thing I really like about both the grips is that feeling of when I get really turned on, just feeling it thump against my fucking pelvis, oh my god, yes, oh, oh, yeah, that feels so good, and then once I'm all the way fucking lubed, oh, now I just turn my hand over, oh, and I just give myself long full strokes up and down, oh, yes, not slamming my hand in hard, just pushing all the way in, oh, just imagining your sweet little pussy just grinding down onto me, oh, fuck, and then pulling right back up until the rim is squeezing around my cock and my throat, oh, fuck, yes, oh, oh, fuck, yes, and every time my fist pulls up around that cock and I curl, my fingers closed, oh, god, until I just have to start fucking squirming, pumping faster, oh, my god, and then switch back just to get a little different muscle group for a second, oh, fuck, yes, oh, and then back to the overhand, oh, my god, oh, fuck, and then my other hand is nice and free, yes, is nice and free to give myself all the fucking nipple play that I was talking to you about, oh, god, yes, oh, fuck, I love to pinch it hard, I love to just flick my fucking fingers over it, strum them up and down, oh, god, yes, I love feeling my nipples harden, I love feeling my nipples harden when I play with them, oh, god, yes, it's like there's a direct line between my nipples and my cock, it's like when one feels harder, the other one just responds, oh, yeah, oh, fuck, yes, oh, yeah, and I'm gonna bring that other hand down and play with these aching, heavy fucking balls, I'm gonna slow myself down for just a little bit, oh, my god, yes, loosening my grip every time I move down and squeezing when I pull up, just fucking milking my dick, oh, yeah, yes, oh, oh, oh, my god, now, now I know you were, oh, asking me, fuck, oh, god, about how I, fuck, how I can keep my composer enough to talk while I'm stroking like this, and honestly, it is not fucking easy, oh, okay, I gotta slow down, once again, I'm not on the verge of coming, but I'm losing my train of thought, oh, yes, oh, okay, I'm getting impatient, I know, I just lubed myself up and started stroking a little while ago, but I want my fucking toy, I want one of my fucking toys, I'm so bad, between the two, I mean, I love them both, but the, I will admit, the mouth toy, oh, that's been rapidly becoming my favorite, surprisingly, because it's wearing out, the hole on the inside, the tight little throat hole is opening up, it's quite a bit wider now than it was when I bought it, and I mean, I just, I don't think it's made for the kind of thorough, aggressive use it's been getting, but the thing is, now that it's not quite so tight, it actually works even fucking better, oh, yes, oh, the suction works even better if I squeeze all the air out of it, and I push my cock just into the mouth part, oh, fuck, and I let go as I throb, oh, it just sucks me right in, fuck, oh, that's good, oh, yes, oh, oh, man, I must apologize, I already had this thing lubed, I knew that, I knew I was gonna want it in a hurry when I wanted it, I had it lubed before I hit record, oh, fuck, and usually when I, when I break this out, I like to start just by working the head of my fucking cock with it, oh, just getting that suction and just fucking tugging on it, oh, it's so good, oh, yes, I wish those were your fucking lips working me hard like that, sucking me hard with your lips wrapped around the ridge of my cockhead and just pulling with that suction, oh, that's so good, holding my dick by the base with your fucking warm hand, oh, oh, yes, baby, oh, god, I wish this was you so fucking bad, mm-hmm, oh, god, yes, and then I just, oh, let it pump down deeper, fuck, oh, oh, then you just stroke up and down, I push more and more of my fucking dick into this tight little fucking toy, yes, oh, and then all the way and all the way, oh, god, yes, fuck, oh, oh, damn, that's so fucking good, I love feeling every fucking inch of me being squeezed by this toy, oh, I want this to be you fucking squeezing every inch of me, yes, I want this to be your fucking chin pushed against my balls, I want it to be your lips wrapped around the root of my fucking dick, oh, I want that to be your tight, sexy throat gripping me, god, I wish this was you, fuck, yes, oh, fuck, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, now, while I work on my fucking cock with this toy, let's talk about what I like to fucking look at or listen to or read, oh, because that, oh, that has changed since you came into my, oh, into my fucking world, yes, see, I am still a man who lives alone, and I have lived alone for quite some time, even when I have had regular partners, I was still mainly living here alone and would get visits, you know, or I would go see them, but at the end of the most days, it was still just me, and as you can imagine, I have watched a lot of porn, given that I have my own space for it, oh, yes, and when it comes to porn, honestly, like, with the visual porn in particular, my taste is as varied as it is when it comes to my taste in women's bodies and faces, I just, I love so much of it, the thing that either turns me on or off, oh, when I'm watching something fucking filthy and sexy, oh, is how much genuine fun and enjoyment and enthusiasm I'm seeing from the people who are fucking on camera for us, I don't want it to look like they're bored and doing it for money, I want to see, I want to see them genuinely thrilled, pouring themselves into it, loving it, I want real fucking smiles, real fucking enthusiasm, I want real eye contact and real fucking orgasms, oh, god, yes, mm-hmm, amateur porn is usually very, very good for that, but every now and then, the odd professional piece is to, oh, yes, and I, I'm not someone who likes to have to stop and look for something else when I'm in the middle of getting myself off, so what I'll usually do is I will sit down before I start stroking and I will queue up just a bunch of tabs of things I think might look interesting, I'll open, you know, eight or ten potential candidates, because you never know, you might start something up and it, it disappoints you and then you gotta go frustrated looking for something new, so I like to have some options to cycle through just in case whatever I got up isn't holding my attention, and even then, a lot of the time, I don't even watch it that intently, unless it really grabs me, a lot of the time, it's just to keep something fucking sexy there for me to look at and listen to if I need to get out of my fucking head for a second, because when I don't have you here to play off of, when I don't have you to feed off of, when I don't have your energy to feed off of, sometimes, even when I'm jerking off, I forget that I'm actually fucking sexy.