Aftercare

Transcript

Sometimes BDSM sessions can get fairly intense, especially with real-life play partners. Harsh humiliation, intense pegging, flogging, whipping. There can be a lot of pain, there can be a lot of aggression, there can be a lot of meanness and psychological hurt inflicted on somebody in session.

And this is also something that you sometimes inflict upon yourself. In my clip store, right, this usually manifests when somebody's been on a humiliation binge, bought a bunch of clips in which they're beaten down verbally, abused, flipped off, given the loser symbol and psychologically taken apart just a little bit. Sometimes it can be useful in these moments to have something to come back to, to ground yourself with and remind yourself that this is a fantasy.

That is the purpose of this aftercare clip. This is to listen to after you've perhaps been gooning or edging or maybe even just watched a single clip which struck a nerve. Perhaps a virgin humiliation or a particular humiliatrix clip, a role play that hit home.

Maybe you felt like some truths were spoken and whilst individual sentences may have held some truth and relation to your life, ultimately these clips were not made for you. Ultimately these clips were made for hundreds if not thousands if not tens of thousands of men. They are not intended to be taken personally beyond the catharsis and immediate arousal that this provides you.

These are fantasy clips, sweetheart. When I make these pieces of porn I'm thinking about what will sell best, what will sound best, what will create an entertaining experience for you and your cock in the moment. I am not thinking, although some of you this will be hurtful too, I am not thinking about how to dismantle your life, how to break you down ego-wise, how to destroy you, how to thoroughly take you apart as a man.

No, no, no. I'm thinking about getting paid, honey. I'm thinking about making you feel good in the moment and then have you move on with your life.

Some of you take these things a little too seriously. Some of you take these things a little too real. I can assure you I am NOT thinking about you beyond the moments in which I am creating these clips and even in those moments I am NOT thinking specifically about you.

I'm thinking about a subset of men into a subset of fetishes, things that they enjoy, things that I know will get them hard and throbbing and spending in the moment but ultimately don't mean much to me as phrases of reality, don't necessarily reflect my true beliefs. Could I really believe every single thing that I iterate, everything that I utter is my truth or perhaps it's a form of creation, perhaps it's artistry, perhaps it's entertainment. This is true.

So this is to remind you that this is fantasy. This is to remind you that these clips are to be taken as a form of entertainment, not personal attacks. No matter how much rung true for you today there are also other things in life which ring true for you.

Perhaps that you are an excellent son or good at your job or even handsome or have a big dick or are funny and valued by your friends. Perhaps in listening to these clips you feel like your entire existence is being explained but it's not the case. I can assure you that each and every one of you, no matter how quote-unquote addicted you may feel, have other elements of your life beyond femdom.

All of you have a mother, be she alive or not. All of you have a father, be he alive or not. Almost all of you have a sense of purpose through your work, have friendships, have other acquaintance connections.

Almost all of you have hobbies, passions and pleasures beyond femdom porn. You all have a body which needs nourishing. You all have homes which need tending to.

There are so many factors in your life beyond femdom and it would be amiss to just focus on the things that I say in these fantasy snippets of entertainment. So I'd like for you to sink back into your body and really get out of your head when it comes to ruminating about the truths that you may have heard today. Some other truths are that you have inherent value just by being a human being.

That you are worthy of being here. It's more likely than not that you are a good person. Most people are.

It's more likely than not that you are loved. Almost everyone is. It's more likely than not that you have so much goodness to come.

That you have people who care about you, who miss you, who enjoy interacting with you. It's quite likely that you've brought joy to somebody's life at some point in yours, if not every day. Smiling at a cashier, holding a door for somebody, telling somebody something interesting or a joke.

Just by being, you have value. You don't need to do anything. You don't need to say anything.

But I'm sure that you also do and this increases the truth of what I'm saying right now. I don't know you when I'm making these clips. So whilst things may feel very personal and almost as if I understand you inside out, the reality is that I'm just fucking good at my job.

I've been doing this for over 17 years at this point and I know what men into fetishes like you are like to hear. This can be a boner killer for some people which is why I have only put out two such clips like this within the past 13 years of creating them. Many men are unable to sink back into fetishes after understanding that I don't necessarily mean everything I say.

That I might just be trying to get you hard. I'm sure you'll manage as and when you choose to re-enter that realm. But far more important to me than money or success in femdom porn is ensuring that humans are safe and secure.

I'll tell you a truth of my own right now and that I resent slightly having to mother men in this way. I feel as if this should be second nature. I feel as if this should be understood.

But I understand that some of you get so up in your head so consumed and I can take on the extra burden of undoing a little bit of that cyclical thinking. By being here and telling you it's okay. It's okay to be into this.

It's okay if it makes you feel bad on occasion. It's okay if you think you're addicted. I promise you you're not.

It's okay to feel how you feel. To experience anger, pain, hurt and lust all at once. Many men especially struggle with emotions that are contradictory on paper.

But one thing you have to realize is that the human experience is contradictory. The human experience is complex. It is perfectly acceptable and normal and actually very common to experience bliss and arousal from clips as well as pain, anger and fear.

It's all one in the same truly and I hope that you're able to sink in to a little more peace today as I remind you that you are worthy, that you are loved, that I'm not speaking directly to you when I make these clips and that they are intended as pieces of entertainment not truth in order to get you off, get you hard and get you spending on me. That's all. They're innocuous in the grand scheme of your life.

They're tiny little blips on your radar of richness. You have a whole human experience out there with people who love you, people who miss you, people who care about you and people who would never speak to you the way that I do even though I'm not speaking directly to you either. I hope you can remember these truths the next time you're in session so that you don't have to listen to this one too frequently but it is here whenever you need it should you need it because I care too.