A very random ramble

Transcript

Hello, hello, hello, everybody! Man, it has been a long time since I've made one of these. And considering that I'm posting this on Patreon, and I'll probably post the first one of this on Soundgasm, some of you guys might not even know what the fuck this is.

So I'll try to explain a little bit. And if I. ..

I hope I don't make too many disgusting mouth noises. I. ..

Like that. Mmm. Love it.

I feel like I've been. .. I got, like, fucking long COVID or something from working in the office.

I've been coughing, like, off and on for over a month now. Oh, well. Anyways, that's disgusting.

I won't talk about that. Hello again! Starting that back over.

This is what I would call on Ocleo, when I post a lot of them, for those people on Ocleo who are still hanging around. Thank you, guys. A little random ramble.

It's not a ramble fap. I don't get it confused for that. But it's just like.

.. God. Somebody once called them a podcast about ADHD, or no, just ADHD THE podcast.

But I swore to myself I would never make a podcast. So that's not what this is. This is not me going back to, like, the little notes that I made to try to stay on track for this thing and seeing, like, four bullet points and all of them are absolutely fucking useless.

Thank you, Jasper. So I guess it's like, this is me. I don't know.

I started making these last year, these little random rambles, last year, and then started a new job and got so fucking swamped that I just kind of didn't post another one. I used to post them every single week, and that's not going to happen again. It might be like every two weeks, maybe every single month, just as a way to try to stay active and remind you guys that, hi, hello, I am, in fact, still alive.

And unlike that one person who, you know, comments on every single Pornhub video that I ever post. And thank you, by the way, for doing that. But it's always, welcome back, so glad to see you posting again, like, please, please, please, please.

I never actually left. I've always been here. I'm aware that I work at the speed of a snail, but please don't call attention to it.

So this is me kind of showing you guys that I actually don't disappear into a void between all the times that I post, and I am, in fact, still alive and still working. I just work really slow, and adult life is really fucking busy, especially when you have the problem of not being able to say no and taking on, like, every single fucking project that passes your way, which is why I've been really slow and I didn't post anything for November. I'll try to post something for December, that's the month we're in now, yeah.

So it's, yeah, a little bit of that. And then also, I guess, diving into the AI bullshit, man, maybe I'll give a little intro as to, like, kind of what originally made me do these, was that I started seeing so many just AI-generated content, ah, is that fucking alright, let's move this whole thing over a little bit, don't destroy that USB cable, please, love it, love it, sorry, I got a big ring light, and the USB cable's been, like, bent at an odd angle, and I think it's starting to destroy this little ring light, oh, well, rest in peace, you served me well, um, yeah, I started these back when I saw some, like, AI content that was kind of depressingly, like, realistic and believable for being a human, and I guess I thought that, like, well, what's the, I don't know, if an AI, because at some point it will, if an AI could do anything better than me, then what's the point, and why should I still make things, and I guess I decided that the answer is me, I should do it because it's me, and that's why I would, like, I'd never read a book written by an AI, because it's not written by another human, and I think the fact that a human being wrote that book makes the book so much better and much more interesting, even if it is not flawless, because humans aren't. So, um, I've seen some AI voices that are shockingly human, and of course I think everybody at this point has either seen or maybe even fucked around with AI, like, roleplay bots or text bots, and they write depressingly well, at least in short form, if you write longer stuff they really start falling off and they lose track of the sauce and everything.

Someday that might get fixed, though. So if an AI could make audio porn and audio smutty stories better than me, then why should I keep doing it? I think this is why, it's because it's me.

Um, yeah, but I also feel like there's a lot of creators out there who don't feel the same, and they want to be strange and mysterious and this little void that just talks to you and only ever is sexual and does not exist outside of being a little sexual edgy fuck boy. And that's all fine and good when you want to get off, but once you're done, that's that, right? Time to move on.

And I feel like it doesn't, it doesn't create any, I don't want to use the sense, I don't want to use the word like loyalty, I don't want to view it as some loyal kind of following, but I don't know, um, man, what's that? There's a, there's a good word for it, uh, oh my God, hold on, let me, let me Google this shit. Well, not me, like pausing this to then use chat GPT because Google was fucking failing me to look up this word, uh, solidarity.

That's what I, I was drawing a complete blank on, um, I feel like, yeah, you can't fucking connect to them at all and, and I don't know, you stop caring about them pretty quickly. And I don't mean that in a bad way, but you just, you move on, right? It was fine.

It was fun. Um, but you got what you needed and, uh, they're kind of repetitive and boring. And so it's time to move on and go to some, something else, kind of like you would with an AI role-play bot as I say, this is someone who has definitely used them an unhealthy amount, but I never like linger long, right?

And God, I'm sorry about all the coughing and clearing my throat. I fucking hate this cough. Uh, I don't know.

There's no like actual emotion there. It's almost just like a fetish distributor in a way you push a button, you get your kink. Nice.

Awesome. All right. Time to move on.

But in the past, still going with the like analogy of role play and stuff, um, I used to have like a lot of very long ongoing textural plays with other human beings. I don't know. I probably started even non-sexual ones, but like I probably started when I was way too fucking young, but some of them would be friends and it'd go on forever.

Some of them would be strangers and it would go on for weeks or more, but I would remember it and it would click in my mind and stay with me for longer and I think of it fondly and I'd be drawn back to either those characters or the people who are writing them or the scenario much more than I ever would with an AI. Uh, and I feel like it's because I knew there was a human behind it and because of the human behind it, I think it makes it more interesting and it gives it so much more depth and, and I guess like a soul, right? Some kind of, some kind of greater thing there.

And for people who listened to my very first random ramble ever, I'm sure this is all just deja vu or not even deja vu. You're just like Jasper. You're fucking repeating yourself.

Stop rolling your eyes over there. Uh, yeah. Anyways, that's why I decided to make these little random rambles.

I know most people won't listen to them, but definitely not for most people. I think in fact the vast majority of my listeners probably only listen to like five things and then move on and forget that I exist, but that's okay because out of those five, maybe there's one of you guys that sticks around and is like, wait, this guy's a fucking goblin. How does he actually write anything? Uh, and you get intrigued and maybe you watch on my streams, by the way, I'm going to be streaming next Saturday at a 7pm GMT time, just saying, putting that out there, uh, but also, uh, like immersion break for, for those of you who don't like that.

I don't know. I think it goes both ways. I think there will be people in the world who don't want to view a creator, any kind of creative creator, um, content creator, doesn't, God, saying content creator sounds like it's fucking YouTuber only fans, right?

But I just mean literally any kind of content out there, a writer, a woodcarver, um, a smut writer, who knows, uh, there will be people out there who don't want literally anything at all to do with the, uh, the author and they would rather it just stay a complete, it's not even stay a complete fantasy because I feel like this almost shows that it is more of a fantasy, but they, maybe, maybe they don't want it to be a fantasy. Maybe they want to hold on to that vision, um, does that make sense? I ask you as if you can reply in real time.

So there will be some people like that. I, well, I would say I get that, but I don't, that's not me. I can respect that and I won't judge anyone for it, but I don't understand it.

I think people are the most interesting thing in the whole world. All of us, from the nasty to the perfect, um, yeah, which is, you know, very amusing that I work in a completely tech-based field, but oh well. So that's why I make these, is because maybe out of those five people, there will be one person who does not believe in death of the author and thinks that, uh, if that, right, oh man, the other point, yeah, is that I like to think I'm a good person, um, and there's definitely a lot of people on, especially GWA that are not, proven to be not, right?

It feels like every fucking week there's more VA drama. God, I, I also, I'm sorry, I love you guys and I, the other, the other voice actors that I've worked with, I love and respect and a lot of you guys are awesome and everything, but sometimes I just get a little irked by how much the term VA is thrown around. It's almost like, I don't know, we're, we're forgetting, I want to say the actual voice actors, but like the professionals, the ones that like voice act for video games and movies and everything.

And people just say, oh, they're a VA. It's like, no, they're, um, they're a VTuber that has made two erotic recordings. I don't, don't know if that qualifies.

Please don't crucify me for saying that. Anyways, I bet, uh, yeah, I feel like there's drama every fucking week that I see posted about it. And it's fucking ridiculous.

It makes me roll my eyes. Um, but it's kind of wild. And I like to think I've learned enough to not do any shit like that.

Um, and I feel like, I don't know, I feel like there's maybe like a little happy bubbly feeling you guys might get from knowing that I can write the most degenerate shit that you get off to and afterwards go, wow, um, yikes, don't know how I feel about myself. And then you can listen to this and go like, yeah, you know what? All right.

That's, that's acceptable aftercare. Just listening to some nerdy guy fucking yap on about anything in the world. Nice.

Um, that's like all of my bullet points. I have one more projects. Nice.

Okay. Uh, yeah. So fuck AI, but also at the same time, not on a whole scale, right? I'm jumping around so much.

I hope you can follow. If not, maybe I hope you can just smile and hear how enthusiastic I am. Thanks.

Yeah. So, uh, I'm, I'm convinced I don't even know if GWA, I keep saying GWS cause it's like, you know, the biggest, the most popular subreddit there is for this stuff. It is very big.

It is very popular. Uh, but I know that's not where all of my listeners come from. So maybe I shouldn't focus on that, but I don't know if they've made a stance on AI.

I don't know if Pornhub has, and if it's like acceptable, cause I think we'll see a huge influx, especially once voices start to get better, which they have. Part of what inspired me to come back in here and start making these again regularly is that I found out one of the bands that I listened to for a little bit is 100% fucking AI. Every little bit, the artwork I knew was AI, which is kind of what made me start looking into it a little more, but the voices, the instruments, all of it, it blew my mind and it really bummed me out cause it's all D&D themed.

And I thought it'd be really cool if there's a whole band out there, like a metal band out there that was devoting themselves to D&D and they'd go on stage and dress up like barbarians and shit, but there's not. And it's just some dude pressing buttons at his computer and then being like, actually, uh, prompting takes a lot of skill. Okay.

If that upset anybody, I don't know. Good. But yeah, so there's that whole side of it.

And I think a lot of creative people can get really easily bummed out by AI and whatnot, but it's such a huge all encompassing term that I think it's easy to forget all the different facets that it goes into because there are tons of really good applications for it, especially in medical fields and whatnot, where it can detect problems and viruses before maybe even before people could or can detect the patterns, right? It's very good at noticing patterns and the medical field is so incredibly stretched thin they could really use the help. I don't know.

If it does take away all of our jobs someday, at least we can hope and fucking pray that a universal income won't be shot down the moment it's brought up. But I don't know. I'm not very hopeful in that end.

Maybe we can, maybe we can work for it together. Yeah. But that being said, even the creative AI, I saw a very interesting video by an artist who he like listed a lot of pros and cons for AI.

And it was interesting because he's used AI, he is a very talented artist and he draws a shitload and he's very good and he's, I don't know, friendly, seems like a genuinely good person. But he said in the past, there have been a few places where he's used AI and he's not justifying it taking over jobs. But he, I think he shared some interesting ideas on where creative AI could be okay.

Right? It's very easy to get upset when, I guess when you listen to a band and find out that it's all been fucking generated by a line of code. Or if you see a picture and then you look at the hands and you're like, wait a second, there's something about here's a little bit off and you have to unfollow that page because it's just not a human being that's ever actually drawn any of that stuff.

Where am I going? I'm getting lost in my own sauce again. I don't know.

There are some places where it could be interesting. So I'll give one example of something I'm working on very, very slowly, by the way, please don't get hyped and excited yet. But if you've listened to my Space Boys series, and if you haven't, what are you doing? Pause this, go listen to that.

The first episode's free. I should probably make sure that I actually like have that linked. Oh God.

Oh God. Is it linked? Is it linked? Oh, Google Drive, please.

Oh, hold on. Hold on. Am I logged out? No, I'm not.

Is it? Is it? One second.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Bear with me.

Bear with me. Uno momento. Oh, I'm dumb.

All right. It's not linked. I will link it because it is free.

So yeah, go listen to that. But I think it'd be a lot of fun if I turned it into like a little visual novel, you know, multiple choice adventure style game. But as someone who is so incredibly visual, and also knowing that art takes a lot of fucking time and a lot of fucking money, I want for this little game that I hope I get to sometime, I have it very roughly drafted.

But I'm working on it very slowly, but it's going to take a long-ass fucking time. In the end, I want it to all be like hand-drawn by a human who gets invested in the project and feels like they can take some prideful ownership of the game and its creation and all of that. And that'd be great.

But before it's released, I feel like, I don't know, it would hurt nobody if I had little shitty AI pictures in there just as like a guide for while I'm kind of making it to try to see where everything would fit together and, I guess, make sure the game was actually working before I plopped in all of the artwork because the artwork would take forever for an artist to draw. So I guess that, in my mind, that's an okay way to use it. Maybe even if I released like a demo or something.

As long as I put a disclaimer in there, I feel like arguably people couldn't get that upset about it, especially if I let them know that in the final thing, it will all be real artwork, right? Real drawn by a human who wanted to draw it and put their heart and soul into it. But that in the demo, it's all AI because it's not ready yet.

And if you guys think differently, I'd be very interested to hear why. I don't know. It's, I don't think it's a subject that greatly upsets me, but it's something that I find fascinating.

Yeah. I have one last bullet point. The other projects that I'm going to be working on.

I don't think there's anything more that I can really say about that without just blindly repeating myself. But I know that I've been quiet for a while and I'm really sorry about that. I haven't disappeared.

I am still working. But I made the mistake at the beginning of the year to say yes to like five audio books all at once. And three of them are done.

No. Four. Four of them are done.

But the last one is like 600 pages long. It's like 20 hours, 30 hours long of recording. And that that's a shitload.

I only finished the fourth book probably back in August. So I've been working on this one and I am two thirds of the way through. But holy fuck is it slow going, man.

And obviously my huge October marathon does not help, which I feel like I should almost point out to those people who are commenting, where did you go? You vanished. I am still here.

By the way, I dropped like a whole year's worth of content. Have you listened to it? Maybe you should.

I think it's all good. I handpicked out every single audio that I recorded. I did.

I did them all on purpose. I liked them all. I thought they were all fun.

I probably looked through, I don't know, 300. I think I think for like every five scripts that I looked through, I found one that I wanted to do. I guess I couldn't have been too picky.

I obviously had some favorites in there and some of them felt a little repetitive and kind of too similar to the other ones. But in the end, I chose to do them all and I spent a lot of time picking them out. Yeah, but that was October and November, I kind of just buckled down and tried to crank out this fucking audio book, which is where I did most of the two thirds that I just mentioned.

So I still have one more third to do and then I have to edit all of it. Thankfully, editing audio books is so much faster than editing spicy content. That was a huge fucking thud.

It's probably like one of my neighbors slamming the door. Yeah, so much faster than editing spicy content. In part, drumroll please, thanks to AI.

Wow. It's all coming back. I use Reaper to edit my audios and there's a few plugins that are procedurally learning, which is, that's AI if you go by the base definition of what people are fucking calling it.

And it just tries to learn what background noise sounds like and what my voice sounds like and then it cuts out all the background noise and oh my god, that saves so much fucking time. And it does the same thing with little clicks in my voice. It's phenomenal.

It saves like three fourths of the time I have to spend editing. But I do still have to edit all of it and I have to listen to all of it at least once to make sure there's no little coughs or sputters or repeats of words. So that's at least like 30 hours of editing once I'm done recording all of it.

Fuck. Anyways, I'm still going to be busy for a little bit and I realize I don't actually have a link to share my audio books on, which will change. I will do that.

I kind of want to wait till this last one's done because out of the five of them, even though I am really burnt out of audio books at the moment, out of the five of them, this one's my favorite and I think it's the best read.