18+ Limbo

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I thought I lost you. You mean more to me than life itself. Somewhere along the way I got caught up in me and I think I forgot about us.

I just want to find my way back to you, back to your heart, and you find your way back to my arms. I'm terrified. I feel like I don't know what to do, I feel so stuck, I'm in limbo, I don't know what to do.

And I'm not ready to let go, I'm just not ready to let go. Sometimes I just can't find the right words to say, not because I don't have them, not because I haven't experienced the feelings or the emotions associated with it, it's because the words just haven't been created for the depth of love that I feel for you. You think you'll ever find it in your heart to forgive me? I'm far from perfect but I wanted to be perfect for you because you're perfect for me.

I love everything about you, you're the most beautiful woman in the world and God when you smile, you warm my heart, I need you to forgive me, there's no words that I can ever say or anything that I can ever do to change the past or reconcile anything that's ever happened between us. My actions haven't always been in line with my words but I love you and I'll never stop loving you. It's hard to imagine a life before us, it actually scares me.

Sometimes I feel like my purpose for being here on this earth was to love you, outside of that, I'm nothing, outside of that, there is nothing. I want to find our way back to one another. I can feel things shifting and changing and they say change is supposed to be a good thing but sometimes I feel like you're leaving me, sometimes I can feel your love drifting further and further away from me.

I think about the first year of our relationship, I feel like we was the most happiest back then, we laughed a lot, we made love all through the night and everything just seemed so easy and effortless, somewhere along the way it just got hard, we stopped talking, the laughter and smiles went away, I felt you slowly slipping away from me, I'd do anything to get the whole thing back. I remember when we got on the yacht for the first time, we've been sailing all day, laughing and joking all day and the night was getting ready to fall, the sun was in the sky, getting ready to set, it was so beautiful because the sky was filled with oranges and reds and pinks, it was the time of the day, the golden hour, where the sun and the water kissed for the first time, I remember looking over my right shoulder, you had a champagne glass in your hand, you had a smile on your face and you put your arms around my neck, grabbed me by my beard and you kissed me on my cheek, you said this is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen and I said the sunset is really beautiful and you said no, I'm talking about you, I'm talking about us, I'm talking about this moment right here, right now, I relived that moment every day of my life, wondering what happened to us, how can we feel so deep in love, so lost in one another, to hardly speaking, to not making love, to allowing the sun to go down on our issues without resolving them, I miss you so much, even though you're right here with me, I miss you so much baby, I want to fall in love with each other again.