18+ I Beg Your Forgiveness: Part II

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Baby, you don't understand how much I missed you. I've prayed for this moment. I saw this moment in my dreams, and I just can't believe it's a reality.

I don't ever want to be away from you again. I don't ever want to lose you. To be back in your presence is the greatest gift that I could ever ask for.

I really missed you. It feels so good to have you in my arms. You know, sometimes I do sit and wonder what made you reconsider.

I don't know. Well, no, no, I definitely don't have any objections. I was just curious.

It wasn't. It was a heart-over-head decision. I respect that.

You said everything in you was telling you to walk away, but you couldn't ignore what your heart was telling you. You know why? That's because you're my soulmate, baby.

We were made for each other, and the feelings that you was feeling, it wasn't coincidental. I was feeling the exact same thing when you was feeling it. We were mirroring each other.

It was like looking in a mirror, baby. I could feel your energy the whole time we was apart. The nights you was up, I was up.

When you felt sad, I cried those tears, baby. And when you was mad and upset, I felt anger and disgust with myself. Well, I felt that way because I knew that I messed up an opportunity to build and grow with you.

It just feels so good to be back. It just feels so good to have you in my arms, baby. I want to hold you tight and never let you go.

Come close to me. As I cleanse your body, I pray it wash away all the old toxicity, all the old toxic feelings from my past, and usher in a newfound love between the two of us. I can't lose you again.

I never want to lose you again, baby. I never want to be the cause of your sadness or your hurt again. I know that I was the source of your pain.

I know that I was the source of that, and I never want to be the source of anything that's not happiness in your life. I just want you to know that I love you so much. I just want you to know that I need you, and I just want you to know that I choose us forever.

I choose us above all things. There's nothing in this world, there's no woman in this world, no connection that I had that can compare to what you and I have created and built. I just want you to know that I need that, and I choose us.

I choose us forever. I want to get married, baby. No, I'm not proposing.

I'm just expressing how I feel. I've never been so sure of anything in my entire life. I know what I want, and I know that I want you.

Not having what you want makes you value what you have, and as I look in your eyes, and I see that beautiful smile, I know within my heart that I'm right where I need to be, but more importantly, where I want to be. I want this forever. I can see you having my baby.

I can see you walking down that aisle in a beautiful white dress. I pull back that veil and see that smile on your face. I won't be able to hold back the tears because I got to marry my forever person.

We didn't have the most fairytale and traditional start, but it's never how you start, baby. It's always how you end, and I want to end my life with you, old and gray, sickness and health, for better or for worse. No, you really did.

You frightened me. You know, I lost hope a little bit. For a split second, I lost hope.

I said this woman is never going to forgive me. I said I would never see you again. You know me, I try to be this brave, macho man, like nothing can get to me.

I'm so impenetrable, but I was terrified. I was like a little baby. So many nights, I went to sleep with tears in my eyes, and it's not that I was mad or upset with you.

It was I just couldn't believe that I didn't see what I had in the moment. And when I showed up to your house, and you were so cold and so distant, I went back home, and I prayed. I just prayed I didn't have anything else to do.

I just felt so depleted, baby. I just prayed. I said, God, you know how I feel about this woman, and you know I'm a human.

You know I messed up if it's meant to be, because I know I don't deserve this woman. She's so perfect. She's so amazing.

I don't deserve you, but I'm so thankful, and I'm so grateful for you. But I said, God, if you give me a chance with this amazing woman, if you allow her to forgive me this time, I swear to you, I will commit to her. I will be honest.

I will be faithful. I will be dedicated, and I will make this woman the happiest woman in the world. And I released it, baby.

No, I'm good. I'm okay. I'm so happy.

I'm just emotional. I mean, I got my wish, but bigger than that, it's just this is when the real work begins. I have to show you that I'm not just talk.

I have to be about it. My actions have to fall in line with my words. I made a promise to God that night, and I made a promise to you, and I made a promise to myself, and I will keep my promise, baby.

I promise you that. I thought it was over. I thought it was no hope, but when I opened that door and I saw your face, all I could think was, oh, happy day.

I felt like God was giving me a second chance. I felt like I hit the lottery. I just felt like I felt so grateful, and it sucks that it took you pulling away from me.

It took you leaving me to realize how amazing you was, and that's the saddest thing about it. I just wish that I had enough in me to see all that you were in my life in the moment, but I was in the mix. I was in the midst of my toxicity, and I developed what I feel like I've learned in the process of us being away because I really didn't want to leave our situation, come back into the situation the same way I came in.

I wanted to have some actionable steps that I could take to let you know that I was really putting in work. No, I'm okay, baby. I'm good.

Again, I'm just really happy. I haven't seen you in so long, and I feel like I owe you so much. I owe you, and I feel like I just never can repay you because when I tell you how much happiness and joy and love and comfort you bring to my life, you don't understand it because words can never really truly express that, right?

I've never felt disconnected to anyone in my entire life. I've never felt like I could be myself, and I feel that with you. I could be vulnerable.

You see, I'm crying in front of you, and I know you're not going to judge me. I could be myself. You allow me to be myself, and you completely and totally accept me for that, and I think that is one of the ultimate testaments of love, being nonjudgmental.

I've never had that. I've always had to hide truths about myself in order to make my partner feel comfortable or in order to feel accepted. Everything that comes with me, flaws, imperfections, baggage, you accept that.

You are an amazing woman. You are a wonderful person, and you deserve the best, and I swear to God I'm going to give you the best. I never should have mismanaged your love.

I never should have handled you the way I handled you, and I never should have stepped out on you, so I'm asking you to please forgive me. I want your forgiveness. I really need your forgiveness.

Okay? I understand. I appreciate that.

I mean, I understand and respect that. Like, yeah, you forgive me, but you want to take it slow, and you're not going to fully accept me into your life right now. I get it, and I respect it.

I'm so turned on to you right now, seeing your naked body in this water. After all of this time, you look so amazing. I want to kiss you.

Can I kiss you? What? No, I never asked to get a kiss before.

Well, I think these circumstances are a tad bit different. We still trying to fill our way around this. No, you do make a good point, baby.

You are naked, and I'm naked. You're right. Fine, that's over here.

Oh, my God. I miss the way your lips taste, baby. I miss how your skin feels next to my skin, baby.

I know you say you want to wait and you're not ready, but I think you're just talking. I know what you want, and I know what your body needs, baby. You need me, baby.

We was made for each other, baby. You wonder why your pussy fits perfectly around my dick. It was made for me and me only.

I miss my woman, and I got to have my woman right now. I'm going to go get you a towel, and I'm going to lay you on the bed. I'm going to lay you on that bed.

Shh. No, no, no, no, no, no. Listen, baby.

Daddy's back, and I want you to listen to me. I'm going to lay you on that bed. I'm going to kiss every inch of your body.

I'm going to make you have the most amazing orgasm you ever had in your life, and then I'm going to slowly dig into your soul until we reach eternity together. I just miss you so much. Okay, baby.

Let me grab this towel really quick and lay you on the bed. Come on, baby. Come close to me.

Your skin, it feels so soft, love. Oh, my God. It feels so good to be under you.

You smell like rosemary and lavender. You smell like pink roses. I miss that scent.

I miss your scent. I feel like I can lay here for eternity. I just feel like I missed out on so much.

There's no way to make up for old time, baby. All I could do is just be present in the present and pray to God for a beautiful future. Mmm.

Mmm. You like when Daddy suck on your fingers? Mmm.

Mmm. And I move down. Mmm.

Mmm. To your chest. And I suck on your breasts.

Mmm. Mmm. And I slowly kiss down your stomach.

Mmm. And I get to that sweet, wet, tight place. Oh, my God.

Mmm. That pussy tastes so good, baby. Mmm.

But you know Daddy got to tease you just a little bit. Mmm. Mmm.

Mmm. Mmm. And then I kiss you on your hip.

Mmm. And I move to your inner thighs. Mmm.

Mmm. And then I kiss you on your calf. Mmm.

Mmm. Mmm. And then I put your toes in my mouth.

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Mmm. You like that, baby? Mmm.

You like when Daddy suck on your toes? Mmm. Mmm.

And then I put those legs over my shoulder. Mmm. And then I put both legs to the right.

Mmm. Mmm. And I slowly enter my pussy.

Oh, and I whisper in your ears while I'm slow stroking you, baby. Oh, God, I miss you so much, my queen. Oh, you feel so fucking good, baby.

Mmm. I suck on your neck while I'm stroking this pussy out, baby. Oh.

Oh, Daddy miss you so much. Oh. Oh.

Mmm. Mmm. And I know you was with other men when I was away.

But can't nobody make your body feel the way I make you feel, baby? Oh. Mmm.

You fucked him, but you made love to me. Mmm. Mmm.

Oh. Oh. Oh.

Oh, my God. Mmm. Turn around and look at me.

Turn around and look at me in my fucking eyes. Don't you fucking look away from me. You need to see me, baby.

You need to see who fucking you. I'm going to look you in your eyes. And I'm going to slowly grind on you, baby.

Until you feel every inch of Daddy inside you. Open up your mouth. Mmm.

Open up your fucking mouth. Oh. Mmm.

You like that, baby. Oh. Mmm.

I'm going to put my hands around your fucking neck. Oh. Move your hands out the way.

You're scratching my fucking back, baby. Stop. No, baby.

I'm a fucking cop. Oh. Oh, fuck.

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Oh, my God. I'm going to rub my beard against your face. Mmm.

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Mmm. Mmm. Is that what she's like, baby? Mmm.

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Mmm. Mmm. You're such a losing baby.

What's your name? Chunk. Chuck? Umm.

Chuck. Okay, so how do I call you? Jerk? I know you could lay on my chest.

I'm ready for round two. How about you?